Dusk Substitute
Miscomprehension

The sound of birds unpretentious from a distance, the sunlight feels warm touching the cold heart. Last night's quarrel left silence and cold between Radit and Nissa. Radit decides to sleep with Zain, while Nissa sleeps alone in her large room. The two hearts are separate, but still one soul. Radit and Nissa couldn't get shut down. Radit felt guilty by his rant. Nissa was guilty of her big decision. Guilt is enveloped in the ego, so no apologies are spoken.

At exactly 06.00 WIB, Nissa was preparing to leave for school. Since last night, Nissa hasn't seen Radit. For a moment Nissa felt lonely, without Radit all felt silent. Nissa prepared early, hoping to talk to Radit. At least Nissa can apologize for her big decision. Nissa still remembers Radit's anger? The shadow of last night's quarrel, just flashed through Nissa's mind. Radit's high voice, Radit's self-doubt. All the words that were spoken, clung to his mind and heart.

FLASHBACKS

"Wait!" radit said coldly, Nissa stopped her steps. Nissa turned towards Radit, seeing Radit spit out something.

"You're looking for this!" radit said, Nissa turned her body. Two of her eyes opened wide, Nissa was surprised to see the medicine she was looking for was in Radit's hand.

"You're looking for this!" radit said in a high tone, Nissa nodded slowly.

"Thank you!" sahut Nissa, then took the medicine from Radit's hands. Nissa walked towards the bathroom, leaving Radit with a fear that she had purposely covered up.

"Why Nissa? Why?"

"You mean!" as Nissa said, Radit looked slowly.

"why are you doing this to me?" radit said, then snatched the medicine bottle from Nissa's hand. Radit threw the bottle with all his might.

Paaaayyyrrr

"Why did you throw it away?" nissa said in surprise, looking at the medicine that was splattered from inside the bottle.

Nissa took a few steps back, she was afraid to see Radit's anger. Nissa looked at a different figure full of anger. Nissa didn't expect Radit to be this angry. Although Nissa was aware, Radit would be furious to hear the truth. But Radit's anger won't be this big, given Radit's attention to Nissa. All are not the same, Radit's anger is clearly visible. Radit's two eyeballs were flushed red, anger burning in his chest. Radit feels betrayed by Nissa.

"Why Nissa? Why would you do this to me? What's on your mind? Until you think this low. You are a teacher, your heart is like a mother. Why did you refuse to be a mother?" radit said loudly, Nissa was frozen. Radit's anger is completely broken, Nissa can't stem Radit's anger.

"Zain my son!"

"He's my son, not yours. What are you afraid of? Until you refuse to have my son. That's as bad as I am in front of you, until you don't expect any offspring from me. You ruthless Nissa, you are cold with your big decisions!" said Radit loudly with his anger, Nissa chose to stay away. Nissa didn't want to extend it all. Nissa won't defend herself, there's no explanation for her big decision. I don't know what the basis of Nissa's big decision is? One thing is certain, Nissa's decision has hurt Radit's self-esteem.

"Sorry, that's all I can say. I decided all this, not without reason. Again sorry, if my stupid decision hurt you. I'm sorry, if I consider Zain my biological son. Although I realize, he's your son with him. Sorry, I was too arrogant to think you accepted me for who I was? Again sorry!" said Nissa with trembling lips, her voice sounding raucous. Nissa was tired, there was nothing more to argue about. Radit had considered it wrong, and he had apologized and confessed everything.

"Mama!" zain said behind the door, Radit turned towards Nissa.

"Help Zain, he's your son not mine!" nissa said, then went into the bathroom. Nissa locked the bathroom door. Nissa sought calmness, her heart turmoil making her asphyxiate. Nissa was unable to stand on both feet.

FLASH BACK OFF

"Sir, where are you?" greeting Nissa kindly, Ifa turned her head towards Nissa. Ifa was astonished, after last night Radit slept with Zain. This morning Nissa was looking for Radit in Zain's room. Ifa felt that something was strange, there was clearly a dispute between Radit and Nissa.

"Mother, you've already left for work!"

"It turns out he was still angry, until he left without talking to me. I was wrong, he deserved to be angry with me. Maybe he needs time, I won't bother him. Maybe my departure, a way of seeking tranquility. My husband, I'm sorry. My decision may be wrong for you, but for Zain's sake I'm to blame!" inner Nissa.

Nissa put her tote bag outside Zain's room. Nissa walked into Zain's room, looking for his special son. Before long, Zain came out of the bathroom. Nissa took a towel, then wiped Zain's wet body. Nissa pours her affection on Zain. Nissa doesn't want to see Zain hurt and lonely. Like her who never felt a mother's warm embrace.

"Mbak Ifa, I'll take Zain. If there's anything? You can contact me!" nissa said, shortly after putting on Zain's school uniform. Ifa looked up at the bag Nissa was carrying. Ifa felt something strange and unusual.

"Where's mom going? Why bring a bag? Poor Zain, must be crying left by mom!" ifa said, Nissa smiled sweetly. Nissa patted softly on the back of Ifa's hand. The nanny who loved her little son. Nissa never thought of Ifa as a maid. Nissa already considered Ifa like her own brother.

"Sir Ifa, I'm gone a few days. Master already knows of my departure. Don't be afraid, I'm not gone forever. I have basic training as a homeroom teacher!" said Nissa, ifa breathed a sigh of relief. It was clear ifa's happy face. Hearing Nissa isn't gone forever.

"Mom, I'm leaving first. Fifteen minutes away, my bus is coming. I'm taking Zain!" pamit Nissa, then go out of Zain's room.

Nissa walked out of Radit's house, her right hand topping a bag containing some of her clothes. Nissa stepped up with her body upright, looking for her meaning in Radit's life. For several hours Nissa did not see Radit, her heart was upset and agitated. Nissa begins to realize the taste of Radit. Perhaps with his departure, Radit's anger will subside. Nissa and Radit can talk to each other again.

"Wait for Nissa, where are you going?" greeting Sanjaya with astonishment, Nissa stopped her steps. Nissa turned her head towards Sanjaya, seeing Saskia sitting next to Sanjaya.

"I've been training out of town for a few days!"

"Why didn't Radit drive you? He didn't know you were gone!"

"Sister Radit isn't busy, but he's getting tired of you. Brother Radit didn't go to the office, he went with Raihan and Tasya!" saskia said right next to Nissa.

"Saskia, don't just talk!" sanjaya said loudly, Saskia smiled. Then, suddenly Saskia pulls Nissa's bag.

"I want to check your bag, afraid you're carrying away your jewelry or Radit's money. Were you not born into a family that thirsts for treasure!" said Saskia, holding Nissa's bag. But as powerful as Nissa could hold her bag.

"I am so poor, I am not a thief who thirsts for your brother's treasure!"

"Munafik, the proof is that you married Radit's brother to pay off your father's debt. You two are like leeches sucking my brother's blood!" said Saskia loudly, right in front of Nissa.

Plaakkk

"You may be your sister's princess, but respect me as your sister's wife. Today I only slapped you once. Next time, don't expect me to keep quiet with your attitude!"

"You slap me, I'll make sure you kick your ass!" said Saskia annoyed, while holding her cheek.

"Tell him, I'm not afraid!" nissa was loud and cold.

"Fear what?"

"Sister, he slapped me!" as Saskia complained, Nissa stared intently at Radit. Why did Radit suddenly stand behind him?

"Why did you slap Saskia? Ever since I was a kid, I never slapped him!"

"Sorry Mr. Radit, I offend you!" said Nissa coldly, then walked past Radit.

"Quite Nissa, you've gone too far!"

"Ask your sister the reason I slapped her. If you want to kick me out, I'll leave now. Or you want to check my bag. Maybe you're afraid of jewelry or money I'm taking!"

"Nissa, you crossed the line!" radit was upset.

Tiiiinnnn

"Excuse me, my bus has arrived. If you don't want to check the bag. Excuse me now!"

"Wait for Nissa, I forbid you to go!" radit said, Nissa stopped her steps.

"Why?"

"I forbid you to go!"

"Say the reason!" nissa said coldly, Radit pulled a bag Nissa threw away in the corner of her house.

"I forbid you to work, I will pay you according to your salary!"

Plok Plok Plok

"Great, his sister thought I was his brother's blood-sucking leech. Now her brother thinks of me as a maid who needs to be paid. Your family is great, look down on everyone!" nissa said, shortly after clapping in front of Radit.

"Nissa, you misunderstood me!" said Radit, holding Nissa's hand. Slowly Nissa brushed off Radit's hand.

"Unfortunately your possessions and position never glared at me!" nissa said, then kissed her and took her bag.

"Assalammualaikum!" pamit Nissa, Radit was fixated on looking at Nissa's back which was getting away.

"Lisa!"

"Pacify yourself, if I have to get out of this house. I'll be out right now!" said Nissa, then stepped away leaving Radit speechless.