Dusk Substitute
In the rain...

"Stop for a second, I want to buy something!" pinta Nissa, Radit stopped his car right in front of the dispensary 24 hours.

Nissa opened the door, but was restrained when Radit held Nissa's hand. Suddenly Nissa turned her head, Nissa's face was astonished. Instead, the face of Radit tegangg. It was as if there was a burden he was thinking about. For a long time the two were silent to each other, eye cues describing anxiety and worry. Obviously Radit was afraid that Nissa would go to the pharmacy for something she didn't want.

"Have looked at me, I have to go in!"

"You're still buying that medicine!" said Radit, Nissa was silent. Radit sighed, silent Nissa as if the answer she had imagined.

"Go, I realize you still don't believe me!" said Radit coldly, then let go of Nissa's hand.

Nissa stepped inside the dispensary. He looked up at Radit. But the jealousy he felt. When he saw Radit was busy talking to someone. Nissa chose to go into the pharmacy. Almost ten minutes Nissa was at the dispensary. After that Nissa came back with some medicine. But not the drugs that Radit threw away yesterday. Only vitamins and blood enhancers are being bought by Nissa.

Since that night, Nissa stopped taking pregnancy-delaying drugs. It's a week late, which means he's negligent. Therefore, Nissa decided to stop the total use of pregnancy delay drugs. Nissa chose to give up her decree. Nissa did not want to delay or refuse to be given a baby. Even if Nissa could not get pregnant, she had resigned and accepted everything sincerely.

Kreeeeekkk

There was the creaking of the glass door that Nissa was pushing. Slowly Nissa stepped out, but her steps came to a halt right at the first rung of the stairs. Nissa's body was frozen, Nissa's lips were muddled and Nissa's gaze blurred. His chest was hot, his breathing felt tight and his heart felt a terrible pain. Even her two eyes turned red, then a drop of clear tears fell down her cheeks. Tears that fell, accompanied the jealousy that filled his heart. When the figure of a graceful woman was talking to Radit.

Nissa was silent for a moment, choosing to stand to the side. Staring sharply at Radit and the woman. Nissa looked at Radit's unusual gaze. A dazzling smile created from an almost perfect face. Makes Nissa feel small and low. At first glance, Radit sounded warm talk with the woman. The warmth that tormented his stone, shrieked in his ear and hurt both his eyes. Nissa patted slowly her increasingly claustrophobic chest. The extreme pain, like a dagger that stuck right through his heart.

"He who? Why is Radit so warm and comfortable? Maybe he!" nissa's mind stopped, when her heart could not figure out who the woman was. Nissa was too scared, acknowledging the warmth of Radit and the woman.

"In the meantime, I'll call Nissa. He's been inside for a long time. After he returns, we can go together!" radit said loudly, Nissa pressed her chest slowly. The growing pain, made Nissa feel weak and stupid.

Nissa decides to turn off her phone and hide from Radit's view. Such a great jealousy. Low self-esteem that makes him afraid to look at the woman senpurna. Nissa continued to hide, even as Radit chose to follow her into the pharmacy. Radit's anxiety, not one bit convincing Nissa. If the thought is wrong and if it is true there is warmth between Radit and the woman. Radit stays with Nissa, but jealousy makes Nissa weak and cowardly. Choosing to hide behind a pole, so that Radit leaves without seeing him.

"Where is he?"

"Why?"

"Nissa's always been like that, she's afraid to interfere with my work. That's why he left without saying goodbye!" sahut Radit again, the woman nodded slowly.

"And I hope that's just how you think Nissa is. Don't let you think, Alvira is more than a friend to me. He's just the past to me, nothing more. And you are my future. I hope your departure is just jealousy full of trust in me. It's not jealousy that believes there's a connection between me and Alvira!" batin Radit, while staring at the screen of his phone. Radit called Nissa's phone a few times. But all that is heard is the mobile phone operator.

Radit decides to leave the pharmacy, shortly after saying goodbye to Alvira. But his steps stopped, when Alvira clasped Radit's hand tightly. Suddenly Alvira kissed the back of Radit's hand. A warm attitude that made Radit stunned and in disbelief. When he woke up, Radit immediately let go of his hand. But too late, Nissa had seen everything and chose to go the other way.

"Is this jealous? Why did the pain stop my breath? I can't look warmly between them. I can't imagine the good memories between them. Two perfect people combine love in the same degree. But separated because of me, weak and cowardly woman. Should I back off? Or am I holding on to the warm shadows between them? Mama, I'm sorry Nissa ever blamed you. Forgive Nissa who once judged mama the cause of other women's pain. Without Nissa understanding, how sick and broken life was above the shadow of happiness of the first woman. Could I forever be a substitute twilight? Missed when tears trickle and the body cools. Then forgotten, when the body no longer cools. I used to be so confident, able to endure the cynical gaze of my husband. Now I can no longer stand, just by looking at her smile with another woman. Is this as complicated as love? Is this the heart that loves? If I could turn the time around? I'm not as arrogant as I used to be, too proud and confident. That I'll never love one name. Ahmad Dzaky Raditya who bought me his fortune!" inner Nissa Galua, then looked at the sky that was suddenly red in color.

Duaaaarrr Duaaarrr Duaaaarrr

The sound of the sky breaking, the white glint of the night. The rumbling sound broke the silence of the night. Removing the thick traces that hit. Nissa staggered under the red sky. The voice of the tsabih sky glorifies the name of the creator. Nissa realized the meaning of gratitude that momentarily disappeared from Nissa's heart. It was just a complaint coming from his lips. Nissa kept walking, down the dense road. Expect calmness from every step.

"Even the sky is crying, feeling my pain!" inner Nissa, while looking up felt the first drops of rain. Tears of the sky that bring good night.

Nissa continued to step up, without caring anymore about the noise of motor vehicles. Nissa walked down the road that was getting wet with rainwater. The long journey to the husband's magnificent home now fills his heart and mind. Occasionally there was a sobbing sound from Nissa's lips. But in an instant all disappeared, swallowed by the torrent of rain and the sound of lightning striking each other. Nissa stepped up with a wet body. Hiding her tears under the rain. Covering the pain in the cold in a dark night.

"I was too cowardly, to the point that I hid my tears in the rain. I covered my wounds with the cold of night. Kuredam my heart screams along with the sound of lightning. No more Nissa the tough twilight pursuer. Now Nissa is left fragile and weak by love!" nissa's inner self in the screams of her heart.

"Sakiiettt!" nissa shouted with all her might just above the overpass. Nissa screamed out her pain. Hope everything improves, as the wound is spoken.

"It hurts, my heart hurts!" said Nissa lirih, while grasping tightly the bridge barrier.