Dusk Substitute
Alvira Princess Oktaviani Kusuma

Nissa woke up at exactly 04:00 WIB, just before the sound of aze was heard. Nissa's body shivered all night cold. But with all her might, Nissa held him back from being seen by Radit. Nissa didn't want Radit to see the pain. Nissa tried hard, all for the sake of making up for her stupidity last night. So this morning Nissa woke up early. Nissa wants to finish all her tasks, before Radit wakes up and realizes her pain. Nissa went down to the kitchen, after dawn prayers. He saw Radit still soundly asleep under his thick blanket. Arriving in the kitchen, Nissa saw Ifa cleaning some vegetables with some ART.

"Sir Ifa!"

"Mother, why come down so early? I better take a break, I can do it myself. There are still some people, they can help me!" said Ifa, Nissa shook her head weakly. Then use the apron and immediately start cutting vegetables.

Nissa started cooking, even though her head started to feel dizzy. Ifa saw how dexterous Nissa was in cooking. Nissa used to make some dishes, the rest will be continued by Ifa and other ART. At least on the dining table, there were one or two dishes. Nisss never sat down with Radit and Zain. No. Radit didn't ask Nissa to eat together. Again and again the foolish thoughts of Nissa, who considers herself unworthy to be at a table with Radit and his extended family.

"Mbak Ifa, there's instant noodles!" nissa said softly, Ifa immediately turned her head with a look of wonder.

Ifa asks one of the ART to get the instant noodles Nissa asks for. Actually, Radit never allowed instant noodles in his house. But Ifa bought some for the guards, fearing they were hungry in the middle of the night. Nissa took the instant noodles from Ifa, then started cooking them. Niss took some mustard vegetables and chili as a noodle enhancer. Ifa shuddered in horror, seeing the amount of chili. Not one or two, but five bright red chili peppers. Ifa shuddered in horror at the noodle soup filled with thin slices of chili. Nissa was really stifling, she wanted to eat noodles with flaming red chili slices.

"Mother!" ifa said with disbelief.

"Why? You're afraid master is angry!" sahut Nissa looked towards Ifa. Seemed a nod to Ifa's head, confirming Nissa's words. Nissa's smile made Ifa's heart even more unsettled.

"Far before marrying your master. Here I am, instant noodles become a favorite food as well as the most delicious and cheap food. So there's no need to be afraid, sir might be angry to see me eating noodles. But trust me, you can't prevent me from eating this noodle!" said Nissa, Ifa bowed lethargic. Nissa didn't seem to care about Ifa's fear. He still ate instant noodles full of chili.

Ifa and the other ARTs just nodded, when Nisss offered them. No one dared to agree, Radit's anger became a frightening shadow. They knew Radit's angry person. Small things can ignite Radit's anger. On the contrary, Nissa was so warm and simple. The reason ART loved him so much. They were comfortable near Nissa.

"Master!" ifa said softly, Radit immediately covered his mouth with his index finger. Nissa turned her head, Radit immediately hid behind the wall.

"Calm down, your master is still asleep. He's not used to getting up this early!" nissa said casually, Ifa shook her head weakly.

"Sir Ifa!"

"Yes mom!" sahut Ifa, Nissa turned to Ifa. Nissa's mouth was full of noodles, even noodle soup filled her cheeks. Ifa smiled at the simplicity of Nissa.

"Mrs Alvira is nice, she is also beautiful and warm!" said Nissa softly, while continuing to eat instant noodles in front of her. Nissa didn't seem to care about Ifa's shock. Fear ambushed Ifa, when she realized Radit was behind the wall.

"Sir Ifa, why silence?" nissa said a second time, Ifa gulped her saliva roughly. Nissa began to realize Ifa's fear. Alvira Princess Oktaviani Kusuma, a beautiful name with a beautiful face. A name that once existed in this house. The great mistress who filled Radit's days for almost eight years. Togetherness that intertwined since I was in college and continued until the wedding.

"Not to be afraid, you won't hear it. But if you're afraid, there's no need to answer!"

"But ma'am!"

"That's it, no need to answer!" sahut Nissa, while standing put the bowl where the noodles. Nissa immediately washed it, Ifa already forbade. But Nissa kept working on it.

"Sorry mom, I'm afraid I'm wrong!"

"Sir, I was wrong. I shouldn't have involved mbak. But considering the length of time I worked in this house. You must know Mrs Alvira very well. Just once I met her, I could guess she was a good person!"

"Mother met with Miss Alvira!" ifa couldn't believe it, Nissa nodded slowly.

"When?" said Ifa was full of disbelief.

"Mrs Alvira is kind and warm. She is beautiful and...!" ifa said stopped, Nissa smiled as she gently patted Ifa's shoulder.

"And you love him so much!" sahut Nissa continued the words of the stalled Ifa. Sontak Ifa lowered her head. There was guilt, when his words offended Nissa.

Nissa smiled towards Ifa, as if saying everything was fine. Ifa looked down full of guilt, she accidentally opened the wounds in the past. Radit leaned against the wall with a broken heart. He felt guilty, never told who Alvira really was.

"Mr Ifa, there's no need to feel guilty. Alvira's a good woman, she doesn't deserve to be hated. I'm not angry, if in fact she is indeed the woman my husband and my neighbor's son's mother once loved!" said Nissa warmly, Ifa was getting bowed.

"I'm sorry Ifa!"

"Here you go, I have to go back to the room. It's 05.45 WIB, I need to get ready soon. Please prepare the dining table!" pinta Nissa was friendly, Ifa nodded softly.

"Mother!" call Ifa, Nissa turned her head immediately.

"Alert mom!" said Ifa, Nissa shook her head weakly.

"I'm full!" nissa said kindly, then came out of her room. Nissa looks more cheerful, after eating a bowl of noodles.

Nissa walked slowly to her room. Stairs by stairs. Right in front of her room, Nissa sighed. Nissa needs a lot of courage. Radit used to be up and getting ready for the office. Nissa opened the door slowly, she looked to the right and to the left. There was a sense of relief, when I saw Radit was not in the room.

"Let'soooooooo!" nissa shouted in a surprised tone. Nissa staggers, when she realizes her hand is being pulled by Radit. Nissa fell right over Radit's body. Get into the warm deck of Radit.

"Why are you asking Ifa? Ask me, who is Alvira? Why did you choose to shut up and ignore me?" whispered Radit friendly, then warmly kissed Nissa's earlobe. Radit took off Nissa's hijab. Warmly infiltrating behind the nape of Nissa.

"I have to work!" nissa said, when Radit started playing with his sensitive areas.

"I miss you, I love you!" said Radit lirih, just before Radit started the warmth in the morning.

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"Mama!" zain shouted behind the door, Nissa instantly broke free from Radit's body. Nissa ran towards the bathroom.

"What's wrong?" said Radit, opening the door.

"Mama!"

"There's in the bathroom!" sahut Radit, Zain looked down lethargic. Radit took her into his room.

"Mama is done!" radit said, Zain nodded slowly with a happy smile.

"You're my son or my rival, why every time we compete for Nissa's love? Should I be upset or happy to see your closeness?" batin Radit upset and upset.