Dusk Substitute
The Saved Facts

"Please eat, sorry if this is the only food you can eat!" parmi said kindly, Radit and Rayhan nodded almost at the same time. Both feel foreign to the food served by mbok Parmi. Amira chuckled, looking at the two's strange and awkward faces.

"Why daydream? You guys feel weird about this food. Take it easy, all this cooking can be eaten. If your tongue is not used. I'll have someone make me some new food!" said Amira, Radit and Rayhan simultaneously shook their heads. Both feel uncomfortable, if asking for food according to their taste.

"Alright, I'll put it in. I'll eat it with Mbok Parmi and Nissa later. Mbok Parmi is making Nissa sweet. When you're done, I'll wake Nissa up and we can go home!" said Amira, no nods or headbands. Both Radit and Rayhan fell silent, realizing the simple personas of Nissa and Amira. Two very different friends in their day.

Rayhan stared in disbelief. Amira woman sucks in her thinking. Keep it simple that amazed his heart. Rayhan feels strange, in the luxurious life that Amira has. The woman in front of him chose a simple life. An unusual figure, becoming very ordinary. Covering more that is inherent in his personal. Amira disturbed Rayhan's peace of heart. Not by status, not by her beautiful face, not by her hijab, but by a simple person who is no longer owned by another woman.

"Son Radit, Mbok wants to talk!" mbok Parmi said, Radit immediately stood up. Radit walked following the weak steps of Mbok Parmi. Away from the hut where Nissa fell asleep. Leaving Rayhan and Amira together on the porch of Mbok Parmi's house.

Mbok Parmi invited Radit to sit under a mango tree not far from his home. Raihan looked down, as Mbok Parmi stared fixedly at his face. There is a sense of awkwardness, when the twilight eyes Mbok Parmi as if judging him. A smile on Mbok Parmi's face, a little make Radit's heart calm. It was as if a huge rock had been lifted from his chest. A huge load that made him short of breath.

"Son Radit, you're an almost perfect man. Nissa loves you so much, but the bitterness she's been through. Leaving such a deep trauma. Until he was afraid to go down the same path. The reason that made Nissa not want to say her love to you. There is love and hate in his heart for you. His soul was traumatized to tears in his childhood. Your wedding won't be easy, the concrete wall Nissa built. It won't be easy to collapse, harbouring the cold and hatred that might drive you away from it!" mbok Parmi said firmly, Radit lowered his head deeper.

"Son Radit, I won't ask you to be loyal to Nissa. Just understand Nissa, at least until Nissa receives the fetus that was in her womb!"

Duaaaarrrr

A bolt of lightning struck his body, news reported Mbok Parmi. It really took Radit by surprise. His heart beat so hard. The happy news that sounded his ears, made Radit weak without bones. Mbok Parmi patted the back of Radit's hand. It felt warm to infiltrate Radit's pulse. Such a sincere love without self.

"Son Radit, Nissa's gestational age enters its fourth week. From the beginning she knew about her pregnancy. Nissa was fragile and weak, her life spirit was disappearing. His cry broke out, swallowing a laugh on his face. Nissa's heart ached, remembering the trauma she had experienced. The reason Nissa closed the happy news meeting. At least until he's ready to lose you!"

Deg

"Lost me, why?" sahut Radit, shortly after his heart stopped beating. Why does his heart feel so bad? Mbok Parmi's words made Radit in disbelief. Superficial thinking without basis. The reason that made his relationship with Nissa distant.

"Because Nissa was too afraid, if you ever went away from her. Before all of that happens, Nissa thinks it's better to go!"

"Why? What makes Nissa hate me so much? The baby in his womb is my son, why is he so willing to keep us away? Why did he cover up this happiness? News I have been waiting for a long time. Why is Nissa this cold?" said Radit, Mbok Parmi silent silent.

"Because I'm a coward, I'm not as strong as Alvira. She's a great woman who can look at you. I was too weak, when I remembered there was another woman in your heart. I was too cowardly, when I realized my son was just a substitute in your life. Zain's the fruit of your love for Alvira, while he's the fruit of your hatred for my family!" nissa said coldly, Radit immediately stood up. Radit cupped both of Nissa's arms, staring lovingly at the face that made Radit lose his mind.

"Dear believe me!"

"If this were all a dream, I would want to wake up and run from this dream. Unfortunately this is all real, you are in front of me. You said love to me. You pledged allegiance to me, but on the other hand your soul is still adrift with Alvira. In your mind are stored memories with him. Even in this book, your happiness is preserved!" nissa said, giving me a diary.

Radit was stunned, receiving an open work that read Alvira's name and her name on the cover. Rayhan instantly fell silent, he averted his gaze. A secret that is revealed without being able to be covered again. The rest of the memories are stored neatly and should not be found by Nissa. Radit was silent, aware of his stupidity. Now he understood, the reason for Nissa's fear that Radit had always wanted to know.

"Honey, he's just the past. It's just a book I forgot to throw away. Trust me, Alvira is no longer in my life!"

"Be quiet, if your words only make me sick!"

"Nissa, Rayhan can prove it. I never saw Alvira. Ever since he left me, I never thought of seeing him!" radit said, Nissa shook her head weakly. Her love for Radit is too great, until Nissa is so afraid of losing Radit.

"Amira, my head is dizzy. Take me home!" pinta Nissa, Amira immediately leads Nissa's body. The two say goodbye to Parmi mbok, kissing warm hands of old grandmothers who are like their own grandmother.

"Nissa, Radit's a good guy. He loves you so much, maybe his past hurts you. As a wife, you should learn to trust her. Remember Nissa, your every move is with Radit's ridho. Do not let, selfish attitude and trauma. Made you a wicked wife, once learned to trust her. If he is guilty of you, trust in His terms. Be assured of your faith, every guilty will be rewarded. Don't pawn your faith in HIM, for the love of Radit. Come back, Nissa, put your hands in prayer and bow down. I only reminded you once. Your marriage may have been with the wrong intentions. But the unification of the two kaliams exists with HIS intervention!" mbok Parmi said, Nissa was silent.

"Radit, thank you for loving my granddaughter Nissa!" mbok Parmi said, Radit nodded slowly.

"I should be thanking you. Nissa was present in my carefree life!" batin Radit, just after saying goodbye to Mbok Parmi.

"Let me stay at Amira's house tonight!"

"Darling, you're sick!" sahut Radit, Nissa's down.

"Alright, but I came home after seeing you fall asleep!" radit said, Nissa smiled happily.

"I finally found out, where's this shitty woman's house?" inner Rayhan, while glancing towards Amira.