Dusk Substitute
A Complicated Love

"Beach again, why not mall?" rayhan grumbled, Amira ignored Rayhan's annoyance. Amira walks past Rayhan. He walked on sand barefoot. Nissa and Amira prefer to walk on sand without sandals.

"Because most of our bodies are filled with water. I love the water!" amira shouted at Rayhan's grunts. Amira ran over the sea water, the white sand touching her feet gently.

"Squeen!" sahut Rayhan is cold, Amira does not understand Rayhan's annoyance. Amira ran without direction on the sand. Rayhan saw a different Amira. Amira is like a child playing with sand. So funny and adorable.

"Why is nature the one you always chose? What makes all this comfortable for you?" radit said softly, when he saw Nissa standing looking far ahead.

The sound of the sea waves, sound like a beautiful melody song in Nissa's ears. Little ripples swept over both of their legs. It is like a soft, warm touch of nature. Maybe Nissa and Amira are too overrated in glorifying nature. But all that is true, just by looking at nature. Nissa or Amira appreciate a favor. Gratitude that sometimes forgets from their lips.

"Nature teaches us everything. Without nature, we would be greedy and arrogant. We will never realize His greatness. We will think great and strong, feel high and great in everything. Look at where we stand now. A few cubic meters of sand, it can already bury us alive. Waves that look small, able to drag us far into the middle. Drowning in the sea without a edge. As powerful as we are? Will be weak when the death starts to say hello. How big is our body? It's never gonna get our hands off the bottom of the ocean. Whatever we are? It is not a treasure that will help us when nature is angry. The one who keeps us safe, continues to be grateful to HIM. We think we are just grains of sand on the vastness of the beach. A drop of water in the sea. Wind in the storm. We do not need to be someone else or follow the lifestyle of others. Because nature teaches us, never imitate to look beautiful. Because of what He created. It was so beautiful and perfect!"

"If there is such confidence. Why don't you ever believe in my race?"

"I never doubted your sincerity, but what did I see? Makes me doubt my love for you. I'm afraid, one day when he comes back. My heart is most broken, because this love is too deep and this fetus reminds me of you!"

"We started from the beginning!" radit said, Nissa sighed. There was no response from Radit's request. But deep in Nissa's heart, she loves Radit and wants to live with Radit.

Nissa stared straight, looking like big waves rolling each other in the middle of the sea. Radit glued, he saw Nissa's fragile body. But remain firm and cold with his attitude. Amira walks over to Nissa, after asking Radit for permission. Amira pulls Nissa's hand, invites Nissa to run together by the beach. Rayhan approached Radit, gently patting Radit on the shoulder. Radit awakened from the indignation of his heart.

"They're simple women with near-perfect perfection!"

"You mean!" sahut Radit was cold, did not understand the direction of Rayhan's conversation.

"Amira and Nissa, they turned out to be cousins. Nissa is the daughter of Papa Amira's older sister. The blood connection is so thick, making them two very close friends!" rayhan said, Radit stared in surprise at Rayhan.

"Where do you know that?"

"About those brothers or Nissa who's a rich man's daughter!" rayhan said casually, Radit twisted his body. Looking closely at Rayhan with question marks.

"Both!"

"Amira, she told me everything!" rayhan said flatly, Radit shook his head weakly. His gaze was sharp, there was disbelief. When she learns the biggest fact of Nissa's life.

"Why can Amira tell you? And I don't, but I'm her brother-in-law!" sahut Radit coldly with a strange look.

"Come on, ask him yourself!" rayhan said, shrugging both shoulders. Radit sighed, as if the reality of Nissa would become an invisible distance.

"Roman!" calling Rayhan softly, Radit turned his head with an astonished look.

"It turns out Nissa was right, Alvira is still there and maybe her name written in your heart isn't Nissa!"

Huuffff

"I'm confused!" radit said, after a long sigh.

"Rayhan!"

"Hmmm!" sahut Rayhan, seen Radit staring straight at Nissa.

"I love her, but I'm the reason for her hatred. With him I wanted to get through the future, but my past ruined the way. He's the reason I wanted to achieve a dream, but his trauma made the dream go extinct. Now he's not the one who's afraid of losing me, but I'm the one who's afraid of losing him. Listen to his laughter, sound loud and sincere. Really Rayhan, I'm the one who broke his laughter and smile!"

"Alvira is the woman who made you change, from lazy Radit to ambitious. On the contrary, Nissa is the woman who has now turned you into a sincere person. Your love for Alvira makes you forget your fear. Now, your love for Nissa inserts a fear of loss. Good memories with Alvira, became memories of the wounds in Nissa's heart. While your bitter memories with Nissa. It even makes you so happy. Truly Radit, you are one hundred and eighty degrees different. Love and your life are complicated!" rayhan said calmly, Radit silently looked at Nissa.

Finally Nissa stood right above the small ripples of the sea waves. Amira leaned against Nissa's shoulder, her hands tightly hugging Nissa's body. The two stared at the twilight light that was setting in the western horizon. Radit and Rayhan walked closer towards Nissa and Amira. Radit stood beside Nissa, while Rayhan stood right beside Amira. The orange light of dusk hit their faces.

"Radit, if only we met a few seconds sooner. Before you met Alvira. Maybe this twilight will be a great witness to my love, not my fear of losing you!"

"Nissa believe me, Alvira is just the past. He can never be a part of my life!" sahut Radit, Nissa turned her head while winking. Nissa clasped Radit's hand tightly, then led Radit's hand to gently touch her still slender belly.

"Zain binds you to Alvira and this fetus will bind us. Forever, either me or Alvira will be a part of your life. As long as there's a baby between us!" said Nissa then leaned her body on Radit strapping body.

"I'm sorry!" radit said softly, Nissa shook her head which was leaning on Radit's body. Warm embrace Radit, as if to block the cold wind.

"I will learn to accept my status, the twilight of a substitute in your life. But if I can't survive. I'm sorry, if I back off before you vote!" nissa said, closing her eyes. Nissa felt the warmth of twilight hitting her face.

"Amira!" calling Rayhan, Amira turned her head immediately. Amira felt strange with a polite and warm-sounding call.

"Your boyfriend must be jealous to see us together!" rayhan said, Amira chuckled at Rayhan's words.

"I don't have a boyfriend yet and don't want to have a girlfriend!"

"Why?"

"Because I want to have a husband, not a girlfriend!" sahut Amira relaxed, while walking leaving Rayhan speechless.

"Can I be your future husband? Spending a few hours with you, made me unable to turn away from you!" inner Rayhan.