Dusk Substitute
Modulance

"Go!" radit said briefly, Nissa nodded without hesitation. Nissa just passed Radit. Radit freezes.

"Lisa!" call Radit full of sorrow. Nissa turned her head, looking Radit down and behind her.

Nissa felt her heartbeat thump. Nissa felt a strange feeling. Radit's voice sounded different, for a moment Nissa was afraid to hear Radit's words. But, whatever happens? Nissa should be ready to hear Radit's decision. Every choice has its own sacrifice. Including Nissa's decision to be cold to Radit.

"I'll let you go, if you want to go. I won't restrain you. You deserve to be happy and I will never be able to make you happy. If you're happy without me, tell me. I'll let you go, to make up for the happiness I took from you. A man like me, does not deserve to be your priest. Sorry, it's been disappointing you all along. I'll make sure your life is okay. I will give the same rights to the son in your confinement. I'll leave my treasure to him and Zain. I won't hold you back anymore. Sorry, if I had to admit defeat. Zain my son, I can't get away from him. If you're happy without me, I'll let you go. Soon I will share my treasure. The son in your womb will not lack anything!" said Radit Lirih, Nissa was silent.

"my gut is right, I have to learn to forget you!" inner Nissa, while remembering the reason for her cold attitude towards Radit.

FLASHBACKS

Nissa POV's

After I returned from the mosque, I decided to go straight to the kitchen. I always prepare breakfast, for Radit and his family. Even though I never eat breakfast with them. But for the sake of an obligation, I did all of that sincerely without complaining. I was hurt last night, but I have to be okay this morning. I entered through a side door that was directly connected to the kitchen. I'm guessing Radit's in Zain's room. Because last night, it looks like Zain is sick.

I went into the kitchen, carrying some vegetables. This morning, I'm going to make Radit and Zain's favorite meal. In gratitude, I finally saw Zain go home. Although Zain came not alone, but with Alvira. The first woman in Radit's life and the reason for my jealousy. I walked towards the kitchen, I accidentally bumped into Alvira who wanted to take a drink. Alvira looks comfortable with the atmosphere of Radit's house, probably because Alvira once lived and became part of this house.

I let Alvira, while I prepared all the ingredients I wanted to cook. I didn't know Alvira very well, so I kept quiet. Without harassing or reprimanding Alvira. Every once in a while I glanced, Alvira seemed to know every corner of Radit's kitchen. Ifa was silent. It felt awkward to be between me and Alvira. Until Ifa decides to come out, check on Zain's condition.

"Nissa, what are you doing? You need some help?" alvira said from behind. Alvira saw I had trouble cutting vegetables. I daydreamed, for it was accidentally that my hand was sliced by a knife. My groaning sounded Alvira, finally she offered to help.

"No, thank you. I can do it myself!" I said politely refusing Alvira's help. Sontak Alvira nodded slowly. Alvira returned to his position, seen Alvira was making something.

"Nissa, I'm coming in the morning. Zain missed Radit, so I brought him here!"

"Is he sick?" I told Alvira kindly. Alvira shrugged both of his shoulders, Alvira has not confirmed. Zain sick or not? But since meeting Radit, Zain has calmed down.

"Maybe he's a little unwell. Since this afternoon was fussy, he was not willing to get down from my sling. The name Radit always said!" alvira was friendly to me.

"Why not go to the doctor? Zain was afraid of having a fever!" I said worriedly, Alvira shook her head while smiling. As if everything was okay.

"No need to thank you, Zain is also my son!" sahutku, Alvira smiled cynically.

"Your son, I gave birth to him. Zain's our son, me and Radit's parents. So there's no need to worry about Zain!" sahut Alvira cold.

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My heart was racing, just after hearing Alvira's words. My true status is for Zain. A relationship that has no basis and is limited to a replacement for Zain. I'm hurt, hearing the fact that I'm a nobody to Zain?

"I'm sorry, if I'm wrong!" I said, covering up the pain in my heart. Alvira smiled cynically, a look of happiness emanated from her face. Alvira was happy to see me cornered and eliminated. I can't describe how much my heart hurts? Last night I saw Radit's longing. This morning, I realized my status in Radit's little family.

"Nissa, I need the sugar and coffee in front of you!" alvira said, I immediately gave sugar and coffee to Alvira. In my little heart, I want to finish my cooking as soon as possible. So that my heart wouldn't hurt too much, seeing Alvira in the same kitchen as me.

"Thank you!" sahut Alvira, I greeted him with a nod of the head.

"Radit, ask me to make him his favorite coffee. Since college, Radit has only loved my coffee. This morning, I happened to be here. Radit asked me to make coffee. This is the fifth coffee, since last night!" said Alvira relaxed, while stirring coffee. The smell of coffee shook my heart. Realize I'm nobody Radit?

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"I never knew how to make your favorite coffee? Now for real in front of me, you asked your ex-wife to make you your favorite coffee. You ask him to enter the kitchen of our house, do not rule out the possibility later you ask him to enter our room. Is all this misunderstanding? Same thing I saw last night. Rather, this is the reality I must accept. If Alvira's the only woman who knows how to make your favorite coffee, I'm actually the one who's not paying attention to you, or indeed Alvira who knows you better. If this marriage is going to end, teach me how to forget you. So that the farewell is not too painful I will feel later." Inwardly.

I left Alvira in the kitchen. I asked Ifa to finish my cooking. My heart is too weak to hear the closeness of Alvira and Radit. I decided to go to Zain's room, I haven't seen him since last night. I opened the door slowly, I saw Zain curled up under the blanket. I approached Zain, then kissed my little son gently on the forehead. He's the reason I'm staying in this house. She's the little lamp of my life. The first man to make me fall in love.

"Should mom give up? For healthy. Should mama go? For your happiness. Should my mom be quiet? For chuckle. Zain my son, thank you for considering me as your real mother!" I turned my mind upside down, then went away from Zain's room.

FLASH BACK OFF

"My jealousy is worth nothing to you!" mummy Nissa lirih. As Nissa walked away from Radit, Nissa ignored the screams of Radit calling her name.