Dusk Substitute
Should leave?

"Lisa!" greeting Radit, Nissa blinked both eyes. Asserting Radit's call, the husband who had unwittingly hurt her.

Nissa tries to sit down, but Radit forbids her. Radit held onto Nissa's body, he immediately sat right next to Nissa. Shortly after Radit raises Nissa's bed. Radit bowed for a moment, feeling guilty and unable to look at Nissa's face. Anger for a moment, made Nisss hurt and hurt. Until Radit doesn't realize, what really happened to Nissa?

"Why is he silent? Tell me, I'm ready to listen to you!" nissa said softly, Radit stared at Nissa's nanar. Now it's not just the guilt that he has. But there is a sense that is much more difficult for me to express.

"Why have you been silent all this time? I deserve to know about your pregnancy. You kept this big news from me. Even I am the reason you are lying weak!" radit said, Nissa sighed.

Nissa stared fixedly at Radit, whether she should be angry or feel guilty for Radit? Nissa was confused by her feelings at this moment. A wife has no right to blame her husband. On the contrary, it is not appropriate for the husband to speak rudely or blame his wife. Without asking or understanding his wife's heart first. Nissa was worried, she was now unable to say her heart. Survive or leave, two hard choices to decide.

"I'm sorry, if my silence affects your pride. I'm sorry, if I cover up the facts about my pregnancy. I'm sorry, as a wife I've forgotten my time with you. I'm sorry, if I'm just a petty woman. I am not a perfect woman who can withstand anger. I'm not a great woman who can endure pain. I am not a noble-hearted woman who can withstand jealousy. Nissa is still a woman who is weak, jealous and angry. Shut up, the way I'm replying to all your rude behavior. Your indifference is more concerned for Alvira. Ignoring my pain and my wounds and now my growth, that's the biggest reason I'm going away from you!" said Nissa calmly and firmly, Radit suddenly raised his face. Staring in disbelief, Nissa was able to say all that.

"Go!" radit repeated Nissa's words. Nissa's blink of an eye, an answer Radit had never imagined before. Radit didn't think Nissa would stay away from him. Go bring the fruit of their love. Stay away from the love that just bloomed.

"Why?"

"Because the relationship between us is not healthy!" nissa said, Radit shook his head weakly. Nissa held Radit's hand, a smile on Nissa's pretty face.

"Nissa, don't do that!" said Radit, shaking his head slowly. Radit never wanted to get away from Nissa. But now, after Nissa realized not to fix the relationship. Nissa wants to get away from Radit's life.

"Is there a choice for me!" nissa Sahat.

"You mean?"

"Is the best way to our relationship. I married you, for the sake of my father's debt. As long as I'm your wife, I don't even have my pride. The father-in-law I respect. Just think of me as your wife, not your daughter-in-law who should feel the warmth of her affection. Your dear sister, just think of me as a cheap woman no more. I am the legal wife of her brother. Your ex-wife, thinks of me as a rival. Even though she was aware, I am the woman you love right now. Your little son, love me sincerely. But it is his affection that keeps him away from you. A few days ago, when a father wanted to redeem his daughter's pride. Not the understanding that you show, even the anger that makes our baby almost gone. Now tell me, is there another way for me. Hang on with you or I'll have to get out for my son's healthy life!"

"Nissa, I'm sorry!"

"Radit, I love you. But my love is not strong enough as the basis of our marriage. Get away, be our way of understanding each other!"

Kreeekk

"Sorry, interrupt your conversation!" zahra said kindly, Nissa nodded. Nissa's gesture allowed Zahra into her ward. Zahra looked at Radit who was bowed in lethargy. Zahra had already heard of Nissa's wish. Therefore, Zahra came to see Nissa at this time. Not as a doctor, but he came as an older brother.

"Nissa I know you very well. You are not a weak person, but not a hard person. You are wise in deciding things. The reason you are able to survive the storm in your life. Whether or not there is a problem, you must always be domineering and independent. But you begin to forget, you are no longer alone. Radit is completely responsible for you and your children. You are not only a wife, but the mother of Radit's afterlife. Those who must follow the direction of the priest, as long as it is still on the right path. Being weak in front of Radit is not wrong!"

"But!"

"Nissa, I never knew how much pain you had. How deep, the pain you feel. How much did Radit's family look at you? One thing I know, you love Radit so much. Instead, Radit seems to love you so much. I'm not going to ban you from Radit. If your heart gives up on forgiving Radit. If you can, consider it again for the sake of your baby!"

"Radit, he doesn't completely need me!"

"You are the best according to Radit, so he chose you. Radit loves you so much, though? However, your strong side that seems to not need his presence. Don't just give up on the happiness of others. Learn to lose and be weak for your happiness. For Radit to be your crutch and your back!"

"Sister, this love hurts!" nissa said softly, Zahra nodded in understanding Nissa's pain.

"But your status doesn't allow any of that. Remember Nissa, your original intention was to marry Radit. Not just for the sake of love, but the road to JannahNYA!" said Zahra, Nissa was silent. Radit is getting bowed, Nissa's wounds real and deep. Nissa's determination won't be easy to change. The shadow of Nissa's departure, was plastered for real in front of her. Away from Nissa, it's not easy. Radit was afraid to hear Nissa's strong desire.

"Nissa, a woman is given advantages in each role. When a woman becomes a child, she must be devoted to her parents. When the status of a child changes to a wife, the responsibilities disappear as a child changes to be devoted to her husband. When a wife becomes a mother, her obligation to take care of her children increases. If it's not for you, at least do it for the sake of your baby!"

"I'm going for them!"

"Mr Radit, I've been trying to explain to Nissa. But Nissa's words were not wrong, she had the right to decide her life. Especially for the sake of a son who is almost gone, because of the attitude and treatment of your family. As an older sister, I didn't want to see Nissa's marriage break down and let Nissa disobey her husband. However, as his doctor. I agree, if his departure was for the sake of calm. Nissa's pregnancy isn't okay. It would be fatal, if Nissa continued to be under pressure!" said Zahra, Radit was silent.

"I'm sorry, sorry!" said Radit lirih with a guilty and regretful rass.

"I love you Radit, but my growth made me realize. I must be strong, for the sake of my two hearts. With you I am happy, and I am hurt. I won't be able to survive, if your past stays around you!" inner Nissa pilu.