For A Husband Who Doesn't Love Me
01. Woe

Marriage is a sacred and sacred thing. It means worship of Allah, following the Sunnah of the Prophet. Implemented on the basis of sincerity, responsibility, and according to the provisions of the law that must be heeded.

He dreams of the perfect woman, and I dream of the perfect one. While we have forgotten that God created us to perfect one another.

I craved for her, long before this wedding took place, even I had fallen in love at first sight that I remembered the details of when it was time.

I thought she would accept this marriage even if we were betrothed. But once in this house, he split the boundary with me, also dividing our room. I'm in the master room, he's in the guest room.

His attitude changed completely, so cold. And I remember exactly when his attitude changed for me.

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Staggered nose. Slowly he dropped himself into the cashier's seat at the grocery stall he was guarding, with his hand still holding the phone in his ear.

"Innalilahi wa innailaihi Raji…." He closed both eyes with his palm. Suddenly his shoulders trembled violently, a small sobbing sounded behind his tightly locked mouth.

"Close back our stall, Ki…." His orders in a bitter voice sounded to one of the employees there. In fact, they had just breathed a sigh of relief after finishing opening the display.

"What's going on, Bang?" Rizki, the store employee looks panicked.

"Bang Ajiz-" The sound of the Hidayat restrained. He's back sniffling.

"Why bang Ajiz, Bang?"

Hidayat remained silent.

Two other employees also looked at Hidayat's movements with stiffened faces.

"Bang Ajiz is gone, Ki..." Hidayat replied this time trying to restrain himself.

"Innalilahi wa innailaihi Raji..." They simultaneously spoke. It was evidently the look of grieving faces on their faces.

"This?"

"I just got word from the village, Ki... Brother Zahra and bang Ajiz are truly the soul mates of the afterlife..." Hidayat made it clear to dismiss their unbelief.

Rizki. He seemed to fall down after hearing the narration of Hidayat.

"Bang Ajiz is a very good person, so we deserve to feel lost... Even he treats you like his own brother, so you must be devastated by this shocking news..."

"We can go to the village, Bang?" Rizki asked with her tears that had broken.

Hidayat nodded. "certain... I have no right to ban you. I'll tell Arya bang first."

The same thing happened to Arya Irawan, a famous young artist. They have been best friends since Hidayat's sister novel was filmed and played by Arya as the male protagonist. Even he, Ajiz and Zahrana are involved in a three-sided love that Arya does not deserve to feel to the lateumah Zahrana, Hidayat's older brother.

He was very surprised to hear the news about Ajiz's death, following his beloved wife and much loved by the people. In his heart he was amazed at how true the love of two people was. It began with the departure of Zahrana three months ago, and now Ajiz is following his prayerful wife.

"Went home with my brother, huh, Yat?" Take Arya on her phone.

"Thank you, Bang Arya... Can Hidayat bring Rizki, Jipo and Tio? They're like little sisters to bang Ajiz..." Pinta Hidayat with a loud voice.

"Of course, Yat... Brother's car is too roomy for both of us." Answer Arya.

"Thank you, Bang..."

"Don't thank me, Yat... We're not family?" Arya, similarly, felt very lost to hear the death of Hidayat's sister-in-law.

"Come, Bang... Hidayat's gonna call bang Ari..." The answer.

In his heart Hidayat was so disappointed, when he looked at the stall that he pioneered at this time. The kiosk produced by her late sister's novel profits, which her sister-in-law pioneered from zero back after the previous stall was a fire.

"He said, bang Ajiz came home only because he missed brother Zara. But why the village, the afterlife?" Sesal Hidayat's. Her tears rolled just like that, considering that her brother-in-law was so close to her.

The five in the morning went straight back to the village. Although the look on his face does not lie saying he is grieving, but Hidayat several times seemed busy playing his phone.

"What about Ari, Yat?" Arya asked again remembering Zahrana's sister.

Hidayat. He seemed unaware of Arya's question to him, because he was still busy pressing the button on his phone screen.

"What?" Arya repeated and this time looked at him.

"Eh, I-yes, Bang..."

"How's ari?"

"Owh bang Ari's... Hidayat had told me, but said bang Ari they had walked to the airport with his mother and father. They've been told mom this morning..." Hidayat.

Seven hours drive them to the house of Hidayat's parents. Looks mourners have begun to be quiet, because indeed their arrival can not wait to bury Ajis.

Hidayat and the others went straight to Ajis's funeral which was behind the Marwan family's residence. There still looks a girl sobbing crying over Ajiz's departure.

"Maira's..." Arya approached to calm down, but the girl did not turn her head. It is still dissolved in deep sorrow.

Hidayat stood face to face with the girl, then slowly crouched down and rested on the newly embedded tombstone above her.

"Bad you, Bang..." Hidayat sounded bitter.

The girl began to glance at the face before her. It's getting sobbing. "Bang Ajiz also left Maira... Bang Ajiz loves Zahra more..."

Arya placed her palm onto Maira's shoulder. "All is arranged by the Almighty, Maira... Ajiz left because his path was written before he was born... We must sincerely let go, let them be happy together in God's heaven..."

"Bang Ajiz is like a bang Mus to Abang, Maira... Brother was also devastated by the departure of bang Ajiz... Maira's strong, yeah..." Hidayat persuaded without looking at him.

Khumaira Fatimah, she is the sister of Hidayat's sister-in-law, and has long held a heart for her. He became uncomfortable, even though he himself could do nothing for the girl's feelings towards him.

Hearing him speak, Maira's tears grew louder. "No more Maira's brother who loves Maira..."

"There's still a brother, Maira..." Cut Arya fast. "There's bang Hidayat, bang Mus, bang Ed..."

"Also there's still a bang Ari, Maira..." Another young man came to chimed in.

Maira turned to Ari, she then showed a little smile. "Thank you, Bang..."

Maira then turned to Hidayat who was still flinching before her, looking down at Ajis's still-wet tomb. Thousands of hopes were held in his heart to Hidayat, not only as the figure of Abang, but more than that. But from the beginning, Hidayat never looked at him according to his expectations. He was desperate, because after Ajiz's departure, there might be no more binding between them.

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