For A Husband Who Doesn't Love Me
64. We Want Our Child

Aryan's eyes look puffy. It was three o'clock in the morning, and he had only just finished reading the book. Coinciding with Kirana who woke up from her sleep, she inched onto the bed.

"Have you finished reading it?" Kirana asked in a raucous voice, and Arya just nodded lethargicly in response to his wife's question.

"You got to wake up? Isn't that a hindrance, huh?"

"I want to go to the bathroom, I want to pee..." Kirana answered as she got out of their bed.

Just left for a while Arya was already slumbering in her sleep. Kirana who had returned from the bathroom was stunned for a moment. "Pity Arya... Surely after this he will try hard to publish the novel Zahrana story..."

Kirana pulled the blanket over her husband's chest. She stroked Arya's head gently, then kissed her husband's forehead.

He picked up the book Arya had just finished reading, then went back to bed. His heart thumped as he read the first sentence in the book.

'Wake up love over marriage, not marriage over love... (Yahya Buya)'

'The Paradise of Love In Bismillah'

"God's Masya... I even hear this a lot, but why does it feel different this time?" Kirana muttered while blinking her wet eyes many times.

"Emmm, just read this I've been giving, how do you read the contents?" Ocehanna.

Waking up at this hour does not make him want to go back to sleep because of his curiosity to read. An Aryan alone was even willing to spend his time just to read this book, he thought.

Kirana started reading with focus. His facial expression changed. He seemed to be deep in the role while filming when reading the book in his heart.

Time went on, and almost half of the book was read. His eyes glazed over as he read the page where Arya first met Zahrana. His heart was filled to know how devastated Arya felt when breaking up from him first. She felt guilty for making her husband was once in a bad spot.

Kirana turned her head with pity on Arya who was fast asleep beside her. "I'm sorry, honey... I thought I was the one who got hurt first, but the truth is you're worse off after learning of my betrayal... And right now your feelings have completely returned to the way they used to be towards me..."

Kirana stroked Arya's head gently and said, "thank you, dear..."

He continued his reading. A few more pages were still about Arya, Kirana closed the book because seeing the wall clock already showed at half-five.

"Now I understand the path of our destiny, dear... Through Zahrana our love is getting stronger... You first draw near to God, and then establish your heart for me completely..."

Azan mumbles, Arya squirms small and tries to open her eyes that are very heavy. Instantly the world was bright to see Kirana's sweet smile spewing at him.

"Dear you're awake?" Arya asked with a hoarse-sounding voice.

"Wake up I read this, baby..." Kirana replied while showing the book in her grasp.

"It's over?"

"Yes not yet, Yank... Half of them are not yet..."

"Emmm, where is it?"

"Let me tell you... Now you pray there..."

"All right..." Arya got out of bed and went to the bathroom.

After Arya left for the mosque, baby Zaim whined. The tiny baby is like having memorized when it is time he will wake up to suckle.

Kirana did not continue reading, changed Zaim's diaper almost full, then cleaned his child's body before he breastfed the baby.

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Hidayat came home from the mosque when the world was not yet light. He saw Maira already in the kitchen preparing breakfast and warm tea for the two of them.

"Dear to pray?" Ask Hidayat in wonder.

"Already, Bang..."

"No, as usual... Maira is in no hurry... The old man came home..." Maira answered while putting hot tea on the table right in front of Hidayat.

"Thank you, honey..."

"Together, Bang..." Maira answered while sitting on the side chair of Hidayat. "Oh yeah, Bang, why can you think of handing the book over to Arya's bang?"

"That's so emotional after reading it, honey... In fact, Brother did not realize that Brother to finish the tissue on the table Brother... Brother feels that bang Arya should read it too..." Hidayat replied as he sipped the hot tea Maira prepared slowly.

"Is it possible that the Aryan bang will be the same as ours huh, Bang, admire the Zahra kak household and the Ajiz bang?"

"That's for sure, honey... Not only the Aryan bang, Kirana must have been eager to read it, and also greatly admired our sisters..."

"Sister Zahra is so special... If only all women were like Zahra's sister..." Maira said with admiration.

"Ever Abang said that to Brother Zahra, but brother Zahra was angry and nagged Abang..."

"Why?"

"Sister Zahra said gini, 'do you know what kind of woman is the most special actually?' Wh who? Brother asked back... 'Lady Maryam, the mother of the prophet Isa alaihis salam... Because of her majesty, the name Siti Maryam was even immortalized as a surah name in the Qur'an... Then the other woman was Asiyah bint Muzahim, his wife king Pharaoh Laknatullah, a woman who guaranteed heaven for him even though her husband was a tyrannical king... Then there was Khadijah bint khuwailid, his wife the Prophet... Fatimah bint Muhammad... You know for yourself what their story is, don't you, deck? While even a speck of brother was not comparable to such heaven-savvy women...' That's what Zahra said, honey..." Clearly Hidayat seemed to imitate the words of his brother in the past. Her eyes turned red imagining her brother's death.

Maira was amazed to hear her husband's words. "Abang must have been very close huh, with Brother Zahra?"

"Very... Even closer than to Rianur's sister... People say that brother Zahra is the same as Brother, while brother Rianur with bang Mus..." Hidayat answered while rubbing his moist eyes.

"Can't you do that, Bang?" Ask Maira curious.

"Sister Zahra is the person who does not like the crowd, does not like noise, when talking soberly, even happier at home and on the beach... Same with Rianur. Rianur's brother was a splashy person, liked in the crowd. If there is sagging in the village, Rianur's brother is number one in everything. Care to decorate, cook, and attend the show..." Answer Hidayat at length.

"Continue?"

"Well, my brother is the same as Zahra... If Abang get together, at most the same age as Abang as well... Bang Mus is different. Bang Mus is in everything. Youth associations, surau, sports, traditional events, just a lot..."

"Emmm, Pantesan bang Mus looks more authoritative people..." Maira muttered while blasting her lips.

"Yes, indeed... Brother is not authoritative, there is no wisdom... But,-"

"But what, Bang?" Maira asked with a sharpening of her eyes.

"But still Maira loves him to Brother, right?" Tempta Hidayat while punching Maira's chin.

Maira's cheeks are reddish. He immediately turned his face that was clearly blushing.

"Dear shame, huh?"

"No..." Maira answered, turning her back on Hidayat.

"Why don't you want to look at my brother?"

"Help is hugged from behind... We want our son..." Maira said.

Hidayat immediately hugged his heavily pregnant wife from behind, then stroked Maira's distended stomach. "Wants a Dad's son, huh? Not the mother's will, apparently..."

Maira just smiled with an excited face hearing Hidayat's words pretending to frown.

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