For God's sake, I'm sincere
Leave Masalalu

Today on a sunny morning Alizha will start working again. Alizha had finished her homework this morning. Although she works, she must also continue to carry out her duties as a wife.

"Beat breakfast first I'm ready" said Alizha while wearing a hijab in front of a mirror.

Afif who was ready he immediately went down to the dining room. Then Alizha followed behind him.

After they finished eating, they prepared to go to their respective workplaces.

"Mas, Alizha says yes. Assalamu'alaikum" said Alizha, kissing the back of her husband's hand.

"Wa'alaikumussalam's chat. Want to just drop off?"

Alizha smiled looking at Afif's face. "No need, Alizha can be alone." then he walked to his favorite matic motorbike which will take Alizha to work.

"Yes," said Afif and went into his own car.

They both went to their workplaces.

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It took about 20 minutes for Alizha to get in front of her office. While walking towards his study, he was greeted with many words from his colleagues.

"Good morning, Ma'am Alizha."

"Morning as well" Alizha replied as she continued walking towards her room.

"For Ma'am, welcome back."

"Yes, thank you" said Alizha.

"Congratulations on your marriage."

"Thank you" replied Alizha.

"Good Ma'am may sadinah mawardah warahma."

"Thank you, Aamiin" said Alizha.

After that, he returned to work as usual. When he entered the room he was also greeted by many files that had been piled up on his desk. Because indeed for 3 days he took leave and it is true that many jobs are waiting.

"Welcome back to my work" said Alizha monologue himself.

"Welcome back Alizha," said someone who was standing at the door smiling at her.

"Eh Mr. Vino, yes, thank you."

"How are you today, Zha?" ask Vino.

"Thank God as Mr. Vino sees now."

"Em-if the cut was how it was yesterday?"

"Yes like that. Why is it sir?" alizha replied with a smile.

"It's okay. Maybe you are less cut I can add. Hehe," said Vino as if he was smiling forcefully.

Alizha realized Vino's words earlier, it seems like she is still devastated and hurt over Alizha's marriage which suddenly just like that when Vino expressed his feelings.

"No thanks, I have to work too. Mr. Vino can do it."

"You go on, I want to go back to my room."

"Yes sir."

"Eh Zha," called Vino while turning around again.

"Yes?"

"Later to the cafeteria. I wait," said Vino smiling.

Alizha simply nodded in return and went back to doing her already waiting job.

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Lunch time has arrived. The employees usually spend this time to fill their stomachs whether it is in the company cafeteria or outside.

Alizha remembered Vino's message that was said this morning. He quickly cleaned up the scattered files to be neat. Then he went to the company cafeteria which was on the first floor of the easternmost tip. I don't know if Vino told him to go to the cafeteria together.

Arriving at the cafeteria he looked for the figure he was aiming for. Many employees passed by and sat down to eat. But he has not found the figure he is looking for.

"Where is Mr Vino?"

"Haven't come yet?" he said he had his own monologue.

Then there was someone who called Alizha's name from behind her body that was still standing. From his familiar voice, it was certain that it was the person he was looking for earlier.

"Sorry, I've been waiting a long time, there was a client who met me."

"It's okay sir."

"We've just sat there" said Vino, pointing to his chosen seat.

"What message do you want sir? Let me order it" Alizha said.

"I'm rice rendang same drink lemon tea aja."

"I'll order you soon" said Alizha as she headed to the place to order food.

'If I am not late, maybe you are now mine.' Vino's inner self while looking at Alizha's back.

"Why did Mr. Vino take me to the cafeteria?" alizha asked who had returned and sat opposite Vino.

"I was wrong, right? Not mean anything, let us be more familiar as ever."

"I mean be more familiar as before? How's it?" alizha said astonished. He was afraid of what Vino had just meant.

'I mean how's Mas Vino? Does he still love me?'

"I mean let us be familiar like a friend like before. I think our relationship is strained because of last week's incident that I realized my feelings were. Hehe," said Vino with a laugh.

"Oh. I won't break our cord, so Mas Vino is calm. Uh-I mean Mr. Vino."

Vino laughed at Alizha's equipment.

"It's okay if you call me Mas Vino. I prefer that" he said, taking his phone out of his pocket. "What about your husband? I-I mean how are you?"

"Alhamdulillah is fine" replied Alizha.

"I'm sorry if I'm presumptuous, is your household okay now?"

"Eh-ah i-iya is fine anyway," replied Alizha nervously, then tried to relieve her nervousness by sipping tea that had been ordered. The household that is still a small piece of corn seed is actually not as good as it says. Her husband lately her attitude has changed a lot to be colder. But it's impossible for Alizha to tell the truth. Let it be his personal business.

'I know your feelings aren't okay, ' Inner Vino.

Flashback.

"*Well, what message do you want? let Vino order it," he bargained with Papa, who is now both in the car in front of the restaurant during the day.

"Father, it's up to you" replied Vino.

"Seriously?"

"It's up to you" said Vino.

"Yes, is it orange juice, right?"

"Yes Vin."

Then Vino entered the restaurant. He began ordering his food to be packed at home.

As he was about to sit down to wait for his order to be completed, he was surprised instead of playing with someone across from his current seat.

He was happy to hold hands with women.

'Basic jerk man,' Inner Vino was annoyed to see him.

"Maybe he betrayed Alizha" said Vino himself. Which is none other than that the man is Afif her husband Alizha.

Soon his order was finished and he returned home.

Off* Flashback*.

'Actually not as good as I said Mas, ' Inner Alizha.

"Then what about Mas Vino's own heart? Have you found a new heart now?" ask Alizha.

"My heart? My heart is sick Zha" said Vino, stirring his drink. "Ah is not-no more precisely destroyed" Vino's words were like insinuating.

"Mas must be able to bounce back. I am sure for sure Mas will find a better person," replied Alizha who was aware of the meaning of Vino's remarks earlier, his remarks pointed to Alizha.

"If I want to know about us, especially when it's a beautiful event it feels like I want to turn the time for the second time" said Vino while daydreaming to imagine the old memories with Alizha before.

"Our story was truly unforgettable. But I will always remember and I remember" said Alizha.

"But now we have different paths and not the same goal. It is time we stand alone and continue to rise for our lives to be more advanced. Leave the mass and think about the future. Remove feelings from the masses" said Alizha who was suddenly poetic and actually the speech was a code so that Vino can forget his feelings. Because now she has loved her husband Afif.

It was not how quickly she forgot Vino's love and not that she did not love Vino, but it was her obligation to love her own husband. Even respecting. At first she did not love Afif before becoming her husband, but after becoming her legal husband she began to love Afif.

'How can I dispose of feelings, then you are always in memory, ' Vino's inner self.

"Well from now on I will leave massalu and start a new sheet" said Vino spirit. But actually, deep down inside Vino's heart, the deepest still holds a taste in Alizha. The person he had loved for many years, let alone that love was the first love he had ever felt.

After talking and having lunch, they both returned to their jobs.

There was a slight sense of relief felt by Alizha now. At least by talking and saying his uneg-unegnya, now his guilt has left Vino reduced.