For God's sake, I'm sincere
A Fragile Heart

"Zha, today I went straight away so there was no time for breakfast," said Afif while hastily confirming the buttons of his shirt.

Alizha who was busy cooking immediately brought herself closer to Afif while confirming the buttons of her husband's clothes. "Oh yaudah Mas later Alizha bawain lunch huh? Em or am I ready now?"

"No need, later Mas buy food outside, Afif replied while taking his briefcase which was at the dressing table next to Alizha standing up.

"What a hurry, huh?" alizha asked with a bit of disappointment. Tired of cooking her husband food, not even touched at all.

"Yes, I have an operation this morning. I'm leaving" said Afif in a hurry. Just now Alizha wanted to kiss the back of her husband's hand, Afif just left.

Alizha followed him from behind and looked at her husband's car which had come out of her yard.

"Am I sending you lunch later? Yaudah deh let Mas Afif not eat outside cuisine," said Alizha himself.

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In the car Afif seemed to rush, in the middle of the trip his car stopped in front of the flower shop. Then Afif came out and came back with a beautiful bouquet of red roses. With a big smile, he smelled the roses he had just bought.

Shortly after, the car arrived in front of the hospital. With happy steps and a smile while carrying a bouquet of flowers.

"Hi good morning dear," said Afif happily to Karla who was sitting on the edge of her bed.

Karla then immediately turned to the source of the voice and immediately ran to embrace Afif "I miss you so much."

"I miss you too darling" said Afif as he stroked Karla's head.

"I don't think you're going to come and pick me up" Karla said as she blanched her lips.

"Are you ready to go home, baby?" asked Afif vigorously while gently stroking karla's hair.

"Udah, let me also miss the outside food. Bosen same food hospital mulu, hehe," said Karla encoding Afif.

"I think someone is coding, who is?" god Afif.

"Eat ya? At a favorite restaurant?" karla Pinta.

"Yes later we stop by the restaurant usually," Afif replied as he brought Karla's belongings to his car. Karla just walked next to Afif.

Throughout the unrelenting journey Karla adores Afif beside her who is driving. Afif simply responded with a smile and focused on his vehicle.

"Still in the morning, the restaurant is still not open" said Afif.

"Oh yeah, how do I keep going?"

"We're going home, baby."

"Em yaudah."

Afif's car arrived in front of Karla's apartment. Then Afif brought Karla's things to his apartment.

Arriving inside the apartment, Karla immediately threw herself on her bed. While Afif was busy cleaning up Karla's belongings, even Afif made warm tea for Karla.

"In drink now, if it gets cold," said Afif while giving a cup of warm tea to Karla.

"Thank you" said Karla with a smile.

The time has shown that 11:00 is already noon. They both decide to go to the restaurant they want to visit Karla.

It did not take long, they had arrived at Karla's favorite restaurant because the distance from the apartment with the restaurant was not far.

Karla and Afif ordered food and drinks. Then their order was placed on the table, and Karla ate her food very greedily. Afif just smiled amusedly at the behavior of his lover, in the heart of Afif membilumi because it had been days just eating hospital cuisine that tasteless almost no taste because the food given is healthy food.

"This time you go home and immediately rest, huh? I don't want you to be sick anymore" said Afif, stirring up his drink.

"Why should I go home? We just met, the time you immediately told me to go home," said Karla disappointed because she still wanted to linger with Afif.

"You just got out of the hospital, you've been playing for a long time? Rest at home, baby?" persuade Afif.

"Today you work?" ask Karla.

"Actually today I schedule a morning, only I take a leave of absence for you," replied Afif.

"That means today you're gonna keep me all day, right? What did you say to your wife?"

"I told you I have an operation this morning" Afif replied easily.

From Afif's words, Karla increasingly believes that she is the only one Afif loves. In Karla's heart he increasingly wanted to have Afif and more precisely wanted to take Afif from his wife. Whatever it is, Afif is just hers at all times.

"The more affectionate with you," said Karla spoiled while holding Afif's hand.

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(Alizha POV)

On the other hand, Alizha was busy preparing food supplies for her husband. All the food he put on the table to eat. It seemed that all the food was ready, he took his sling bag and also did not forget he took the key of his motorcycle.

She rushes to the hospital where her husband works. Because lunch time is soon, she does not want to miss her husband's lunch hour. With a fairly fast motor speed, he tried to overtake motorcycles and other cars.

Almost 10 minutes he rode his motorcycle, finally he had arrived in front of the hospital. After parking her motorbike, Alizha ran to her husband's Afif room while carrying a paper bag containing food.

When the door was completely opened Alizha did not find the whereabouts of her husband, she instead found a cleaning service that was cleaning the dust in the window. Seen throughout the room by Alizha, the room is still neat and no one is messy.

"Sorry, Who are you looking for?" ask the Cleaning Service.

"Doctor Afifnya there?" askaku.

"Oh Doctor Afif? He said he was on holiday today. I apologized earlier, Who is this child? I know I'm new."

"Follow?" I was surprised to hear his question.

"Yes, Mother."

'Why did Mas Afif lie to me? Where did Mas Afif go? Do I need to answer that guy's question? If I answer that I am his wife, why do I not know my husband's whereabouts.

"Oh then thank you, excuse me," I said as I left Mas Afif's room.

My chest feels tight, my eyes have started to glaze over. My heart hurts, I'm disappointed. But I put up with all that feeling, trying to think positive and calm myself so that the ego does not rule me.

"Maybe Mas Afif there's another reason. Can't be disappointed, can't be angry, can't cry. Don't let the ego rule yourself, Alizha is a strong woman" I said myself trying to strengthen myself. Such a sentence is what Mother always said when I was down.

Saying those words made me think of Mother, I miss my family so much. It has been a long time to visit the Mother's house. I remember my Mother's favorite food. Instead of being sad, I better go to Mother and bring her a hand. Then I decided to stop by the nearest restaurant that sells Mother's favorite food.

Arriving in front of the restaurant, I parked the motorbike and went inside to order food. It didn't take long for my order to be finished. I received a box of pizza and I paid for it.

When I was about to go outside the restaurant, suddenly my shoulder was accidentally hit by a woman.

Bruck...

"Oh Ma'am, the road is using the eyes of dong" said the woman.

Suddenly I was shocked, and even more surprising was the man who was with the woman managed to make my heart hurt even more.

"Sorry Ma'am, everywhere the road uses feet and eyes to see not for the road" I replied as I glanced at Mas Afif while wiping away the tears on my cheeks that escaped just like that.

Afif just silence can't wiggle. Today he finished his story. His lies have been caught. But Afif was just being indifferent to this state of affairs.

"Let's go, baby" said the woman cynically while holding the hand of Mas Afif easily. And worse, mas Afif looks fine-fine just treated like that.

I saw him as helpless. Heart's broken. Crumple to pieces. My chest's tight. My tears escaped falling just like that. I feel like I can't handle this pain. I really feel betrayed. My wounds are deepening, getting sicker and slashed. In fact, very painful.

'Why am I silent? Shouldn't I fight? I should not have stayed silent.' Just thought in Alizha's mind, he is not that good in holding back his jealousy. With quick steps he ran towards Afif and Karla who were walking towards his car.

Alizha immediately pulled Afif's wrist to make him turn his head.

"Mas Afif."

"You're nothing at all? You who?!" karla's snapping doesn't take it.

"I who? Shouldn't I be asking who this is? I am his wife Mas Afif, his legal wife. What is your relationship with my husband?!" I didn't take it while crying.

"Mas, what is it you are? Why would you do this to me? Why Mas? Mas, Alizha does not like the behavior of Gini-rich Mas Afif." I said while occasionally wiping away tears.

Afif was about to speak, but Karla immediately denied it. "Oh so you're Mas Afif's wife? Pantesan Mas Afifnya not at home and prefer me," said Karla arrogantly.

"What do you mean?"

"Look at your appearance, young is already rich mak-mak aja haha," ridiculed the woman while looking at the appearance of Alizha who wore a long robe and a wide headscarf.

"Karla" said Afif.

"Oh so you're Karla? Whatever Mama says. What matters now, please return my husband. This is my husband. My wife is entitled to my husband." I beg Karla.

"Zha, you've come home!" said Mas Afif Rough.

"Mas should have gone home with Alizha" I replied.

"Let me go with Karla. You gohome!"

"This isn't all funny."

"Yes, this isn't funny. Who said it was funny? You go home, I want to have fun. Don't disturb my happiness."

"What did you do to Alizha now? Didn't Mas even make Alizha's happiness ruined?" my spoken.

"Please don't be like this. We go home together. I'm Mas Afif's wife, not that woman. Why would Mas prefer him over Mas's own wife?" beg me to prostrate at my husband's feet, no matter who or how many people are looking at me. I just want my husband to come back and be aware of what he's doing.

"I love Karla." Only three words came out of Mas Afif's mouth but broke my heart deeper and fell into pieces.

The world seems to stop when someone I love turns out to be wishing for me and choose to go with his lover. Losing something valuable in life is hard. The greater the attachment to it, the greater the sadness will be felt.

"That's enough!" the clash stopped my crying, here I was very disappointed to be so disappointed with his bad attitude.

"Let me go with my girlfriend. You have no right to ban me!" his high speech managed to make me peg and can no longer prevent his departure.

"Alizha wants to know why Mas would lie to Alizha? Though Mas was away with another woman who was not Mahrom Mas. Isn't there a little room in Mas's heart for Alizha?"

"I've never loved you, never will!" My chest was as tight as I could not breathe and could not move a bit. The word that broke my heart for me was very painful.

The person I love has not loved me all this time. And the one I had trusted all along, had dared to betray before my own eyes. My feelings here are broken to pieces like broken glass. On the other hand, I learned to accept all of this.

For God's sake, it's really hard for me to go through. Without you and with you.

For God's sake, I'm heartbroken here. I can't accept your departure.