For God's sake, I'm sincere
Can I Come Back?

After stopping by the cafe first, Alizha and Dad returned home. Unusually, I invited Alizha to stop by. Usually also go straight home, and are not allowed to go anywhere except to go to work to the office. Today Alizha is very happy, at least by stopping by for a while at the cafe can make her fatigue disappear.

"You two are coming home at this hour? Daddy overtime or Alizha?" ask Mommy while stirring coffee for Daddy.

Dad put his briefcase on the dining table and removed the tie that was attached to his shirt. "We're not overtime kok Bun, only we stopped by for a while ago to the cafe."

"Loh means you've eaten dong? Yaudah if so the food Mother simple for tomorrow only. Nobody eats anyway, Grandma's with Grandpa at Budhe Ratih's house. Adib is also today overtime, returning home tonight," said Mommy.

Alizha immediately hugged her mother from behind, she knew that there was a sense of disappointment in her mother's heart. "That's not to be saved yet, we haven't eaten yet? Alizha just stopped by to buy ice cream just like Dad." He laughed when he saw his wife's face. "Mother, we keep eating at home. No way we dong nyia-nyia in the most delicious home cooking," said Dad while poking Mother's chin.

Mother also smiled and gave a cup of coffee made earlier for Dad. "Yaudah, this is coffee for Dad." Father receives a gift from Mother. "Thank you."

"Alizha wants to take a bath first, pray, we have dinner together," said Alizha then walked towards her room.

After Alizha finished her activities, then she had dinner with her Father and Mother.

After dinner, Alizha's family usually watched the television broadcast in the living room. As usual, Alizha is always accompanied by her mobile phone.

While busy watching television, Ho Alizha rang and a call notification appeared. There was a little bit of pleasure there was also a little fear when he wanted to lift it, because the one who called was Mama Tiara, his father-in-law. He was afraid that he would have to say what if he asked about his son Afif, while his wife did not know how he was doing now.

Alizha kept watching her phone screen, calls still kept calling. Then I turned to his daughter.

"Who called? How can I not lift Zha?" ask Dad.

"Em-that's Well, Mama Tiara called," Alizha replied a little nervously. Because he was afraid his father would get angry again. "Here let me answer you, please" said Father in a cold tone. Alizha gave her cell phone to me.

"*Asslamu'alaikum Alizha, son finally too."

"Wa'alaikumussalam's chat. What's up?"

"This is Mr Nabhan? Where's alizhanya?"

"I don't know where Alizha is."

"Sir, I know Alizha now must be with you. May I speak with my daughter-in-law for a moment? Just a moment, I beg you."

"Nothing*."

Alizha and Mommy just keep quiet and pay attention to each other Nabhan's father who is talking on the phone. Alizha actually missed her in-laws a lot too. But this time Alizha had to obey her father's rule after what happened back then.

"Mas, just give it to Alizha," whispered Mother slowly so as not to be heard across the phone there.

"No!"

"You limit her too much, let Alizha solve her problems. Remember, Alizha is an adult, already married. If you continue like this, Alizha will also continue to be hurt," said Mother patiently while holding the hand of Nabhan's father.

Alizha bowed, she could only remain silent while playing the tip of her khimar. Then his father turned to Alizha. Seen the daughter, there is pain felt when seeing her daughter in this condition. His heart was touched and opened when he heard his wife's words. However, he as a father should not be selfish with his own ego.

Give her cell phone to Alizha. "Speak" said Father softly. Alizha looked up and received her phone with a smile.

"*Assalamu'alaikum Ma."

"Wa'alaikumussalam, O Allah son.Eventually Mama can listen to your voice again. Where are you, my dear? For weeks, Mama has always looked for you and worried about you. You were called also the number is not active, Mama also had time to call your father said you are not at home."

"Alhamdulillah Alizha is fine. How are you and your family there?"

"We're all fine."

After a few seconds of silence, no one spoke, wanted to answer it was not like Alizha could not.

"Son, Mama knows you're having trouble in your household. Please ask that you remain steadfast. I'm sure you can get through this."

"God willing Alizha can get through this. What about Mas Afif? He no longer wanted Alizha's presence" Alizha replied, and her tears slowly fell.

"Tomorrow Mama will come to your house and take you back to Afif*."

Alizha could no longer hold back her tears, then she immediately turned off her phone.

Her father and mother approached Alizha and sat down beside her. With open arms, both of his parents were ready to become a backrest for him.

"Rest, it's night, '" said Dad, stroking Alizha's head. Mother hugged her daughter tightly with tears that accompanied her. "Well, my boy, you must be strong. Mother is sure of that, maybe this is a test for you. Allah knows that you can pass through all these trials, so God loves you this kind of trial. Every problem will have a solution. Believe, pray, pray and trust. God willing, everything will be over. Everything will be beautiful in time. You are Mother's strong and strong daughter. Mother believes you can. Spirit, don't despair."

Slowly Alizha let go of her embrace and looked at her parents. "Yes Mother, Father, Alizha can't give up. Every problem has an end. Alizha was sure of that. There are still many people who are more difficult to test than the Alizha exam. Alizha must be grateful, must not give up the spirit." With his words Alizha tried to assert herself.

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Next day.

It was as bright as the sunlight that shone on the earth. But honey, not as bright as Alizha's heart and feelings. From waking up to now while in the dining room. His heart was still restless and afraid that it would come back to Afif. He was afraid that his heart would be cut off again.

"Izha, eaten by dong dear not to be stirred later gaenak food," said Mother who was massaging her daughter daydreaming while stirring her breakfast. Then Alizha reflexes turned to her mother with a smile. Then take one mouthful into his mouth.

"Dek, the food was eaten not made daydream," said Bang Adib who was pouring water in his empty glass.

"Yes Bang. This is Alizha eating."

After breakfast, they return to their activities. As usual Alizha, his father and brother are about to leave for work.

Alizha walked while tidying up her hijab towards the living room with her sling bag already on the shoulder of her right hand. Adib walked beside Alizha while wearing his watch.

"What time did you get home yesterday?" ask Alizha.

"Eleven decks, why? The kangen? You are already moping first" replied Adib who was next to Alizha and then sat on the sofa in the living room to wear his footwear and shoes.

"Ge-er is."

"Come on Izha, are you ready?" said Father who suddenly appeared with Mother.

"Yes, come on, Dad."

"Want me to take Dek? Let Father go alone," Adib bargained suddenly. "Ga ah lama, put on those tough shoes. How about Alizha? There's not a sample."

"Udah Alizha let me be with you. You go alone there gih," said Mother pat Adib on the shoulder. "Hehe yes" replied Adib.

After saying goodbye to Mother, Alizha also walked following her father to the car. When he was about to enter the car, there was a car that stopped parked in front of the gate of his house that had opened. Then came two middle-aged women namely the Mama and Omanya Afif from the car.

"Assalamu'alaikum" said Oma and Mama Qila in courtesy. Oma walked up to them with a large paper bag.

"Wa'alaikumussalam," answered the four of them in unison. Their eyes seemed to wonder. Nabhan's father was already visibly angry, while Alizha's feelings were clouded with worry and fear.

"I'm sorry, what's the matter here?" ask Nabhan's father who did not get into the car and walked over to Mama Qila and Oma.

"We're here to talk about something important and want to apologize for what happened to Alizha because of Afif." Oma spoke and there was guilt in her heart, apparently she failed to match her granddaughter. It should be expected to be good, even the household relationship of his granddaughter was chaotic because of the actions of his own grandson. He regretted, as did his mother Afif. But they have a love for Alizha, she does not want to lose Alizha. However, they want Alizha and Afif to remain intact.

"We apologize profusely. I miss my daughter-in-law, go back to Afif, okay, son?" mama Qila approached Alizha.

Nabhan's father spoke up. "If my daughter comes back to your son, will my daughter be happy?!" Alizha just shut up and looked down.

"I'm sorry I interrupted this conversation. If you want to talk about this further, it's good to talk later. Me, Alizha and Dad want to go to work first it's going to take the afternoon, not that I want to expel, but later we can be late for work" said Adib who had no heart to see his sister, who had no heart, it might be a good idea to have the conversation postponed first.

"Dad Ms. Qila, if you want to talk about this matter it's good that tonight will be better. If you want to stop by first please come in come on Mom, Oma." Mother let in.

"Ah no-no kiddo, if so I want to give this only to Alizha," said Oma while giving the paper bag she brought to Alizha. Alizha then accepted the gift. "Thank you Oma, sorry for taking nicotine."

"No nicotine at all, kok gapapa. Can Mama hug you for a second?" mama Qila said with teary eyes, seeming to have missed Alizha very much. Then Alizha walked up to Mama Qila and spread out her hands, then hugged tightly and tears flowed.

"Sorry Mama, Mama can't be a good in-law for you. Mama tried hard to persuade Afif, but Afif rejected Mama raw. Mama's sure that you guys can reunite. Don't stay in Mama, Zha. Mama loves you" said Mama Qila in Alizha's arms. "Udah gapapa kok Ma, let us both solve this problem. Mama bothers. After all, Mas Afif was not expecting Alizha anymore, right?" alizha replied with a smile, although actually her smile was only pretending to show tough but in fact she was so fragile.

"Let's Zha leave later" said Nabhan's father who had opened the car door.

Then Alizha went to work with her father and Adib left alone as usual. Then Mama Qila and Oma Reni came home. Yes, although they have not been able to bring Alizha back to their home, at least they are relieved to be able to meet directly with Alizha who has for weeks not received any news from Alizha at all.

Arriving at Alizha's office immediately do his job as usual, he must be professional in doing his job even though his heart is stricken with sadness. A lot of work for Alizha is a cure for her temporary problem, because by doing the work Alizha forgets what is happening.

"Zha, are you ready for all the ingredients for the meeting?" ask Vino who now they are both waiting for the presence of clients to meet at the Vino company.

"It's all," replied Alizha and prepared all the presentation tools for her meeting.

"All right."

Shortly thereafter, the meeting was held because the client who was waiting had arrived. For 1 hour finally the meeting has been carried out and running smoothly. Alizha will return to her room. Everyone had left the meeting room, only two people were left, Alizha and Vino.

As Alizha was getting ready to leave the room, Vino suddenly called out to her. "Alizha." Alizha's reflexes also turned. "Yes sir?"

"I like you" said Vino.

"What does Mr Vino mean?" ask Alizha wonder.

"I mean I liked your presentation just now. Good and can convince clients quickly. Keep it up," replied Vino then he became a gerogi.

"Oh yes, thank you sir."

"Yes sir," Alizha replied and then exited the room after Vino came out first.

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After work as usual Alizha was picked up by her father. After reaching home, Alizha immediately went to the room and cleaned herself to look refreshed. Tonight Alizha wore a simple robe of plain black and matching khimar that covered her chest. After that he went to the dining room to have dinner with his family. Now in this family only 4 people live because Grandma and Grandpa already live in the house of Sister of Mother Namira.

Everyone eats with wisdom. After the meal, Alizha helped her mother clean the dishes and leftovers in the kitchen.

"Son, forgive Mother yes," said Mother who was washing dishes while shedding her tears. Alizha came to him and turned off the sink, then clasped the hand of the Mother. "Mother is not wrong, why apologize? Mother don't cry."

"Mother feels guilty Zha, Mother failed to make you happy. You should be happy with being betrothed to Afif, but.kamu.." Mother's speech was cut off. Alizha hugged her mother. "Maybe this is His way, it's okay Mother. There's nothing wrong here."

Then came Nabhan's father.

"Out there are guests, let's go out later and continue to clean up."

"Yes Mas. It's almost done too" replied the Mother.

"Jaudah come on Bun" Alizha took him and followed his father.

*****

A car stops right in front of the gate of Alizha's house which happens to be open. Two women and two men followed him.

Nabhan and Adib's father, who happened to relax, sat in front of the house and stood up.

"They're coming" said Dad. Adib nodded too.

"Assalamu'alaikum" said the four of them.

"Wa'alaikumussalam" replied Father and Adib.

"Please come in" said Father to welcome them, yes even though in his heart still do not accept the presence of Afif. As the brand was about to enter, a burly hand touched Afif's back shoulder. Then Afif who happened to walk behind himself immediately turned his head.

"Can I talk to you for a second?" said Adib who seems to have planned with Dad first. Adib took Afif a little away from the door so his family wouldn't listen. He took her to the front gate to speak.

"Yes" replied Afif.

"Look at Fif" said Adib, patting Afif's left shoulder. "I want to ask you about Alizha, okay?" ask Afif who now the atmosphere is getting gripping.

"Yes Bang please."

"Are you in love with Alizha, don't you?"

Afif looked nervous and confused when he heard Adib's question, he was confused what to answer. When he answers to love, it feels like a lie. If he answers not to love, he does not feel good. "I'm sorry, why did you ask me that?" afif said while laughing trying to melt the atmosphere.

"Is something funny?! Until you laugh like that? I'm asking seriously, don't mess with you. Let alone toying with my brother Alizha's feelings."

"Honestly Bang, I was wrong. I was wrong, I was not able to accept Alizha. I can't even love him yet. My feelings cannot be forced Bang. Moreover, our marriage was only because of arranged marriage, and even then I married her forcibly because of my Oma first," afif said that was really outrageous like he had no feelings to say that in front of his brother Alizha himself. He does not think at all about the feelings of people around him, he is really selfish.

"Oh so you don't love my sister? Then why are you still defending Alizha? Now you can release Alizha to us. Alizha doesn't need a dzolim husband like you!" exclaim Adib whose emotions have now peaked.

"But one thing I want to be honest with Bang Adib."

"What?! What are you talking about?"

"With that incident, I was completely guilty. I feel sorry for wasting Alizha. I really feel the loss of him. My chest was like tightness when Alizha was nowhere near. Honestly bang, I can't be like this, I really miss Alizha, Bang. I want to apologize" Afif said in his heart. It is true that Afif said at this time, he really felt empty since the departure of Alizha.

"Then what about loving my sister? Don't you love her?"

"For that matter love will grow with time. I also don't know what I'm feeling right now. In Shaa Allah I will slowly try to accept Alizha's presence as my wife."

"Let me fix this all Bang," Afif said.

Adib left Afif. He believed between not believing in Afif's words. It feels like he is very upset and wants to punch Afif face all out.

*****

Arriving in the living room, it turns out there are Mama, Papa and Omanya Afif, not just three. There were two men in front of the house. Alizha wondered who this man was? What is clear is that he can recognize one man, his own brother Adib. But who is the other one? He could not recognize it, his face was invisible because it was visible from behind. Especially behind the dark black window.

'Oh, God, who is this man? Could it be Mas Afif? O Allah why do I feel so afraid when I meet him again, ' inwardly Alizha.

The Afif family greeted with a warm smile as they saw Alizha present in front of him. Their smiles looked like something was bringing him here. Alizha replied with a smile as well, but she did not dare to raise her head, she just lowered her head.

Adib went inside with an annoyed facial expression, already visible from the look on his face. Alizha was well aware of what had happened to her brother.

'Allah Bang Adib Why? Must have been angry, ' Inner Alizha.

Soon after from Adib, a man followed. How shocked Alizha was. His heart feeling was completely mixed at this moment. There is joy, but there is also fear and worry. Alizha tried to calm herself. Then Nabhan's father sat on the sofa and held his daughter's hand beside him. Alizha sat in the middle of her parents. Adib sat on the sofa next to his mother.

"What's coming here? Still not satisfied with hurting my daughter?"

"I want to apologize Well, I admit I was wrong. I want to apologize" said Afif who was sitting across the sofa accompanied by his family.

"With ease you apologize, and with ease you will hurt my daughter again? Didn't she?! I'm really disappointed in you, I'm sorry to have you guys. I think you are a good man who can guide and take good care of my daughter. But you hurt him instead" said Nabhan's father firmly while strengthening Alizha's hand. Afif then looked down and felt guilty.

Alizha was silent and looked down. It was like he was not ready to face such a problem.

"We're sorry Bhan. I admit this is indeed Afif's fault, but In Shaa Allah he will not repeat it again. We're here to invite Alizha back to Afif" said Papa Aryo.

Mother Namira was sitting next to Alizha, stroking the back of the husband trying to spread. "Be calm."

Afif spoke up. "They're adults, I'm sure they can solve all of this. It's their household matter, let them make their decision."

Nabhan's father, who was about to speak, fell silent, thinking about it. It is true that there should be those who solve their household problems. He realized, he was too curb Alizha since the incident. He did so out of love for Alizha and fear for her daughter to be hurt again.

"Yes I know they can definitely solve the problem. But I really cannot if my daughter is hurt like that, I as her parents also feel betrayed. How is my daughter feeling? Alizha fell ill because of Afif, she cried for days. I can't bear to see it destroyed like that" said Nabhan's father, who still holds his daughter's hand. Likewise with Alizha, she also shed her tears that can not be dammed anymore.

Alizha is still disappointed with Afif, she is really afraid of getting hurt again. But his feelings screamed to get back to Afif. Honestly, she still loves her husband and wants to fix all this. Alizha has no power to be in front of her family now. Alizha got up from her seat and ran to her room.

Afif, knowing that Alizha had left him, pursued Alizha behind him. All the families just kept quiet and let the couple solve the problem on their own. They as a family can only support and pray to quickly resolve this problem.

Just as Alizha was about to turn the knob of her bedroom door, a burly hand pulled her hand and turned her body towards the owner of the hand.

How shocked Alizha was when she found her husband. He was really scared, he was disappointed. "Take off Alizha, Mas."

"Alizha, listen to me first." Afif's hands are now on Alizha's shoulders.

"Letas Mas" said Alizha rebelled, but his strength was outdone by Afif.

"Relax Zha, I want to explain everything. Please listen to me first."

"What do I need to listen to? Isn't everything clear?!" said Alizha who was crying while laughing at that.

Afif took Alizha into Alizha's room. He wants to solve this problem both and does not want his family disturbed.

"Why Mas? Wh why? Yesterday left me, right? Why did you come back? Be happy with that love. Wouldn't you not want to be bothered with me, would you? I admit I lost, yes Mas managed to make me fall. It's Mas, gone. I want to be alone" said Alizha revealed her heart that had been held in her heart for weeks.

Afif immediately embraced the body of the wife. He also felt the sadness of Alizha. He is really breaking his heart now. He could not bear to see his wife in this situation. But why did he treat Alizha like trash? Does he know now?

Afif still hugged Alizha who was crying sobbing. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I was wrong. Calm down, Zha, I'm sorry." While Alizha who was hugged could only be silent and cry as it happened in her husband's arms. She missed this warmth, she missed her warm husband.

Slowly Afif let go of his embrace as Alizha's cries began to subside. "I'm sorry, let me fix this. I want to be better with you. Honestly, I can't be like this. I realize, maybe I already really love you."

Alizha looked up at Afif's eyes fixedly. He tried to find the lie point in Afif's eyes. Afif too who looked at Alizha like that was astonished.

"Why?" ask Afif.

Alizha retreated her steps away from Afif as she stared at the darkness of the night from her bedroom window. She thought whether she would go back to her husband or not. He's still worried.

'Can I come back?' inner Alizha.

"Give me 3 days first. I still want to be alone here" said Alizha who is now near the window of her room.

Afif is approaching. "I hope you can accept me back Zha."

Alizha was silent only listening to Afif's words and did not reply.

"Well if it's your decision, I'll give you time. I'll go home first, excuse me. Assalamu'alaikum" said Afif then exited Alizha's room and let his wife calm down.