Forced to be second
devan's feelings

Finally, seblak made by me and also Larissa so, I also took a portion and intend me to eat in the room while watching my favorite drakor movie.

“Larissa, this you share for those who want? I want to go to the room,”, I said goodbye.

“Let me bring Miss,” bargain Larissa, but I immediately refuse. I also stepped with my seblak and a cold drink into the room. I looked for the best position with lesehan below, and opened the laptop to look for a movie that is tranding at this time. Enjoying spicy food while watching a movie in my own room, it does feel like a paradise for me, especially I am very sure that Mr. Devan will not come home, so I can be free for a moment.

“It seems that you really enjoy your alone time.” I gasped in shock, seeing someone who was already in the doorway of the room, even I choked on the hornbill to his surprise.

“Uhuk ... uhuk ..” it was so painful, and luckily Mr. Devan helped me get some water, I drank it straight to the toilet. Yes, Mr. Devan was the one who came, I didn't even think that Mr. Devan could open the door to my room, because all I knew was that the door could only be opened by a pin that only I knew, but it turns out that Mr. Devan is holding the card, and it could be referred to as a backup key.

“Te-thank you Sir,” said I stammered, my nose still feels sore let alone my throat, but at this time I focus more on Mr. Devan, I'm afraid that he will be angry.

“What do you eat?” Mr. Devan drew closer to me, and saw my half-living bowl.

“That's red, it must be spicy,” said Mr. Devan as he shuddered.

“Not really Sir, want?” my bargain, but Mr. Devan shook his head, it's no wonder men rarely like seblak, with the reason they do not like spicy.  I became a bit awkward with the presence of Mr. Devan, especially now that he was sitting behind me, precisely on the long soffa, but he was staring at the screen of his phone, maybe a matter of work.

I refocused on my laptop screen, let alone the drakor movie I watched amid the excitement, sometimes I also blew seblak that still feels hot, in this state, like this, I forgot I wasn't alone in my room.

**

Devan Pove

All the way home, I reflected on what Felix said, about me having to open my heart, is it that easy? Since I feel like everything is so heavy, I can't just open my heart and trust women. Arriving at home, I saw the car had a beautiful carnation in the garage, a sign that he had arrived at rumha. I'm pretty amazed, she can go home on time without having to stop by anywhere first, unlike Laura. Ah yes remembering Laura, I re-assigned her to stay over to find Mom.

“Welcome Sir,” the workers welcome and greet me.

“Sorry Sir, miss Anyelir ..” Larissa may want to apologize for the absence of Carnations to welcome me, and I just nodded in understanding. I stepped foot, entered my house, I spread my eyes all over, and found no whereabouts of my second wife.

“Where is Carnation?” ask Larissa.

“No, let me meet him,” reject me, I step towards the Carnation room, the room located next to my room. I opened the door to his room, and the sight I saw, Anyelir was sitting quietly staring at his laptop screen, he was also eating something, which I thought was some kind of instant noodle. For a long time I stood and watched him, but he was completely unaware of my existence, until I finally cleared my throat.

“It seems that you really enjoy your alone time.” I said, and just at that moment Carnations turned towards me, it seemed that she was very surprised by my arrival, to the point that she choked on her food. Seeing her face that had turned red, making me heartless, I immediately picked up water to drink and patted her shoulder slowly.

He thanked me when his cough had begun to decrease, I could see that the food he was eating was very red, and I was sure it must have been very spicy. Seeing the red color of the chili alone I was no longer aligned, I also decided to sit on the long soffa in the Carnation room, occasionally checking incoming emails around work, and then I decided to sit down, while the Carnations refocused on the screen of his laptop, which I saw was showing a movie, but apparently not from a local artist.

Every now and then I peeked at the laptop screen, for the Carnation did not take its eyes off of it at all, and at that moment I saw a scene where men and women were kissing, and at that moment I saw a scene where men and women were kissing, I also saw the reaction of Carnation, apparently he was still staring at the laptop screen very seriously, to the point that he touched his own lips. Looking at the red lips of Carnations, somehow there was a strange taste in me. I stepped closer to the Carnation, and sat next to it, making the Carnation appear and at that moment I dipped the bi*ir, I know the Carnation was surprised, but I myself still did not expect, I can do this to Carnations. I held back the nape of the Carnation, I just dipped the bi*ir, let your bi*ir meeting go on for quite a while, after which I let it go, and Carnations eyes were still round looking at me.

“Why? surprised?” I asked casually, I don't know which demon possessed me, but from the beginning I married her, I didn't intend to touch Carnations.

“Fi-first kiss me,” said Anyelir stammeringly, making me surprised, really Anyelir has never done this before?

“You, never?” I asked curiously, and Anyelir shook his head slowly, but I was not so easy to believe, because according to the information I got, Carnations once had a lover.

“I do have an ex-boyfriend Sir, but you didn't do anything,” replied Anyelir, it seems that he is still shocked by what happened just now, this makes me sure that Carnation doesn't lie.

‘New first kiss I took, how about virginity?’ my mind is astonished.

“Yes already, after all I am your husband, so I have a right about you, even everything that is on you. Maybe today is the first kiss, next time the first night,” I said teasingly, and the look in her eyes grew more frightened, seeing her who was getting scared even made me smile and even more want to tease her. I couldn't stand the expression on her face at the moment, so I decided to leave the Carnation room, holding my laughter.

‘I didn't expect, if I married that innocent girl, my inner’, it felt so funny when considering how the look of Carnation's surprised face, she was really a rare woman. When I was remembering the incident, suddenly my phone shook, and the name was Laura, I was actually very lazy to take a phone call from her, but I was also afraid that something would happen to Mom.

[“What's up?”] asku to the point, it feels lazy to mince words with him.

[“I want to go home,”] whine Laura.

[“I've made it clear, take care of my mother, you have to take responsibility. If you refuse, then I will send you to a remote place,”] I threatened Laura, yes as usual Laura will obey. After that, I immediately ended my phone call with him. Maybe I was wrong for being rude, I never even got to be gentle with Laura, but all of that had a reason, Laura had already incised a deep wound on me, and it's all gonna be hard to forgive.