HAPPIER
CHAPTER 50

I was actually still angry with Sky, even though the fault was not entirely with him but I still could not accept when he asked me if I had a virginity operation.

Basically, the whole point of my fear was not about the torn membrane of blood, but rather my purity and honor as a woman. Where I once felt like I was failing to take care of myself. I once felt my world collapse instantly when I found myself in the same bed as a man in a nude condition.

Which man will not be disturbed when he touches me will remember that the body he touches has now been touched by another man.

Another problem, I was afraid that I would be labeled as a cheap woman, because in fact, I used to behave like a cheap woman. What is the proper word to a woman who gives her chastity to a man who is not her husband?

But I can't change much less erase my past. He continued to exist and shadowed my steps until it eroded my desire to re-establish relationships with men again.

Maybe it won't matter if I match up with a jerk, or it could be with a jerk in the past and have repented like me. It might not be a problem.

But how do I know who I'm going to be with. I've had enough with that jerk guy in the past, there's no way I'd want to get to know another jerk. It is better to choose a man as a husband.

Then now, God has a unique way of working and beyond my reasoning at all.

Skylars! I still do not think how he is now my husband, maybe even soon I will be pregnant with his child. Thinking about it all makes me sometimes feel like I'm in a dreamland.

Despite his past that once took the lives of others, he was too holy for me. He was too clean from the relationship between women and men, very very opposite to me. That's why sometimes I feel insecure of myself, her clean self without stains, while I'm dirty full of blemish.

However, after knowing the true truth, I also gladly gave up my body soul for him. It was my fault that I did not tell him at the beginning, until a thought that I had never thought of getting there.

"We were framed that night." I opened the conversation after a few minutes just keeping quiet and busy with the contents of each head.

Sky looked at me intensely, giving all his attention to me.

"Nothing happened between me and Rio that night, we were both-sorry-sorry-heavy drunk at the time."

I really feel very dirty at this time, how could I also used to be a connoisseur of illicit drinks.

I stared at the look on Sky's face, worried that he would also take issue with the habit, but that was it. Ever since that incident, I've really never touched her again.

"Continue!" He said after a moment of silence.

And flowed all the stories about what happened at that time in accordance with Vivian's confession.

"So the mastermind was the Aldi we met in the garden at the time?" Ask groaning loudly. The glare of his eyes was sharp, implying anger that was ready to burn whatever he liked.

I nodded weakly.

"I'm not going to teach him a lesson someday." Snarled.

I'm tired, 10 years of my life I've lived with fear and anxiety, I don't want to be involved in new problems due to the past.

"But he hurt you, baby!" Sky still couldn't take it for granted.

"If you really love me, stop your anger. Never legitimize the bad deeds of others so that we can also do bad to them. If the bad guy is with you, you can be bad with him. If you get hurt, you can hurt him too. No, Sky! Apart from the 10 years I've spent in hard times, you should be grateful to Aldi."

"Why is that? Their actions are criminal, Ber!" Sky did not accept.

"Try you to think again, maybe I wouldn't be here as your wife if nothing happened?" I asked by touching his hand which was clenched tightly earlier.

"This is how destiny works to unite us. Because if there is no such incident, I will never join your family until here, maybe even we will never be met at one time, space and place. Shouldn't all of that be grateful, Sky?"

Sky immediately pulled me into his arms, so tight that I felt difficulty breathing.

"I'm sorry, I'm too excited and happy." Said Sky loosening up his arms after I squirmed and tried to get away from him.

"I used to be afraid of women. When dealing with an aggressive woman, I can sweat cold. I don't know, I also don't understand why it could be, but with you, somehow my body doesn't overreact if you're around me. Secretly, I made you my medicine. I am happy whenever I am asked to take you or pick you up, or when Nindi asks me to be the driver for you. Sometimes I even follow you from afar when there's no work." Sky shook his head then laughed a little.

I did not expect at all with Sky's confession.

"Over time, I don't sweat when I'm close to any woman, even though there's still fear. I chose to keep my distance and act cold. Maybe it's because I'm used to finally being a character that I can't change in an instant."

"But I'm really serious about marrying you, not just because you're my medicine, but I do want it. I like being close to you, because only with you does he always beat without me preventing."

Sky brought my palm to his left chest. Without putting my hand there, I could hear it and I could feel it.

"Sky, I don't want to reciprocate your feelings, I'm just still too afraid to open my heart again. But believe me, if one day it opens then you're the only one I let in and I won't let it out again because I'll lock it and I'll throw the key in Mariana's trough there."

"Ah, just received the promise of heaven is happy to have reached the ceiling especially if it has come true." Said sparkling.

I just shook my head then walked towards the door, I started to feel hungry.

"Where are you going?" tanyanya.

"You want to go to the fields, you want to come?" reply origin.

"Kneel!" He said he then lifted my body onto his shoulder and ran down the stairs.

I can only resign with the attitude I want and the speaker. For a stubborn woman like me, there are times when the attitude of Sky is very effective in making me unable to dwell on it. I was wondering why Sky could so easily tame myself, even though he was younger than me.