HATE TO LOVE
Compensations

Mas Bimo's words yesterday were indeed quite touching my ego and self-esteem, but isn't the reality really like that? He also never showed any other feelings to me other than just think of me as his 'partner in crime.

"I agree" I replied straightforwardly and confidently.

"You sure? Have you read the whole thing?" ask Bimo again.

Maybe for him I was too careless to say it quickly without reading it carefully, maybe he also did not want to be bothered if one day I protested or violated one of the written points.

I then nodded to reassure Bimo that I understood and understood everything written on the paper.

"Is this like a contract marriage that I often read about in novels or a series that I often watch? It felt so strange, I was like being the lead." I joked up the awkwardness between the two of us.

"I'm sorry if I had to drag you into my troubles so far. Honestly, I really didn't expect the problem to be this complicated" he said in a tone that sounded very sorry.

Really regretting and feeling guilty for having involved me in this matter or regretting having to marry me? Ah,, I think I've become over-thinking because I think about all the problems that occur.

"Here you are, there is no need to apologize continuously to me, I believe this is indeed the fate line that God has given me, if in fact I have to marry you and part six months later, I'm sincere, it's all my decision, I won't regret it either." I replied at length.

Simply I just think, yes it's been only married for six months, what is complicated.

Maybe it's my weakness, my ugliness, my lack. Always take all problems lightly, assume 'yes it is, ' it is that simple.

"But you will have the status of a widow after that," said mas Bima trying to tell me that all this is not as simple as I imagine.

His words tickled my heart a little, 'I, will become a widow?' But again for me, yes, everything has been decided, even solar grandfather and my parents have set our wedding date, they are too enthusiastic and happy to welcome this news, he said, so that everything is done speeding and suddenly.

Next month we decide it will be our wedding day, which means we have less than two weeks left to get married, mas Bimo and I agreed with the note that our marriage was held simply and only attended by the closest people, we reasoned that we have a concept of marriage that we want to realize, he said, and it can't be done in this kind of time.

So for the reception, we wanted to ask to take care of it ourselves, and it was fortunate that they could understand and agree to it, he said, even though it is all just our wits so that this marriage remains a secret of the big family and the closest people.

"I want to compensate you for what you've done in an effort to help me make Grandfather happy, write down whatever the amount is," Mas Bimo handed me a blank check.

"Sorry, I didn't trade my status, I did all this sincerely from the beginning, the happiness of your grandfather and my parents is the greatest compensation for all the sacrifices I've made." reject me.

Really, instead of idealistic or pretentious do not need money, it's just that I do not want to trade this, anyway from the beginning I did because I wanted to help only that, just that, nothing more.

For money matters, no hypocrite everyone needs money, luckily I am the type of woman who does not want much, do not do shopping be it clothes, bags, or make up, she said, I don't really care about things that other women usually like. It sounds a bit strange, but yes it's me who feels at home just wearing tattered jeans, T-shirts, backpack bag 100 thousand, etc, and never swept my face even with powder.

But I'm comfortable with my life like that, when my peers have money, they're going to the mall hanging out and shopping, and, while I prefer hunting used and antique goods at flea markets, I will be polished and beautified again, I post on my social media or on buying and selling sites, he said, continue to be money again, although the results are not much, but for me there is inner satisfaction there.

Especially now that I have also started my career, even though this is just the beginning, by designing the apartment owned by mas Bimo is hopefully a good starting point for the future, so that I can achieve all my goals.

"Why? Are you offended?" asked Mas Bimo, "I don't mean to buy you or anything, this is just a thank you," he continued, looking like a bad feeling for fear of offending me.

"Thank you is enough to say mas, no need to pay for all this deal is not a job, no need to pay, if you design your new apartment you have to pay me with money not only with thanks," as always I, do not want him to feel burdened or feel guilty.

Successfully, mas Bimo finally revealed his sweet smile.

"You are there, yes, I can pay experts like you just with a thank you, well then, how about we have lunch, it looks like it's in your lunch break, you haven't eaten yet, I'll treat you, so I'll choose the place" said Mas Bimo.

It seemed like he couldn't believe the choice of eating place that was my taste, lastly when I asked him to eat in the hospital cafeteria, he didn't even touch the food at all.

Well, for now I will follow his taste, besides I do not know what kind of food his taste, not soon I will be his wife, a wife, right, I need to know what her husband's favorite food is.

My hallucinations are too high apparently, I forgot that I'm just his fake wife.