HE'S MY DESTINY
Episode 90 - The Story of the Past (Lathesia)
'I knew I was a broken woman. Oh Allah..... Is there any hope that I can continue this life?. What should I do now?, I am useless. You punish me for all my mistakes. So punish me, even if I want to leave this world. Every shadow of the time haunted me, I felt so worthless.... What I live for, God... '. Inner Lathesia while staring at the nanar image of her bouncing in the mirror.
Her mother had already left. He could not help but cry in front of Lathesia. So he chose to go and win himself. Now only Lathesia was left in her room
"Felixes..... I'm the one who broke you. I'm crushing your feelings brutally. And this is the right reply for me. I'm really sorry Felix..". Lathesia said in the middle of her sobbing. He still faithfully looked at his reflection in the mirror
Back then~
Felix and I, we love each other. Her mother was very supportive of our relationship. So did my parents. But I was the fool, I betrayed him. I ruined my own relationship. I ruined all Felix's hopes about my future story with him later
I had an affair with Jeff, the man I met earlier in America when I was on vacation at the time. We were attracted to each other until we finally had a long distance relationship that was only facilitated by online media to inform each other.
At that time my relationship was still eleven months with Felix. I purposely came into the world that night, to meet him with a little drink. Jeff, the British man was indeed on vacation in Indonesia and deliberately met me.
He and his friends visited me quietly without the knowledge of Felix, or my family. My age with Jeff is quite different, compared to me and Felix, Jeff is much older than him. Felix and I were 22 years old. Jeff is 27 years old. He is clearly a mature adult.
Increasingly, my relationship with Felix was strained because I made a split. I just focused on thinking about my life and Jeff's, or maybe about the life of a little creature that was either already present in my stomach or not.
The longer I hid my relationship with Jeff from Felix or my family. If calculated about the time of my relationship with Jeff, we have 5 months of long distance relationship. I only met him a few times in America. Then met her in Indonesia once that night, because she decided to go home. He said he wanted to go back to his country to ask for his parents' blessing and marry me. I faithfully waited for Jeff to return to Indonesia, but he never came.
The more days Felix loved me, the more he intended to propose to me and hold an engagement a week after I did that with Jeff.
"Tonight I will take my family to your house. You don't mind, do you?". Felix said that afternoon as he met me in the park
"Felix, don't you think it's too soon?". My true words are thinking about Jeff.
I was pregnant with Jeff's child at the time. The son of the man who had usurped my chastity that night, my womb was one week old. I don't know how I turned Felix down, our relationship is going to get into a more serious level, because Felix doesn't want to delay any longer.
"Of course not. I don't want you to be in someone else's possession just because I'm late for your hand". Felix said with a hopeful smile. I saw a thousand hopes in her loving eyes.