HEARTBREAKS
CHAPTRE 36

Azelvin POV

I have never felt this scared and sad.

But now just to knock on your door requires guts.

There is doubt in me.

Lord help me to give you a miracle.

Or at least turn the clock around, I want to correct my mistake.

Tok tok tok tok

The sound that came from my hand knocking on the door.

"Mrs. Azel" said he who had just opened the door.

I hugged him tightly, very tightly because he was trying to rebel.

Slowly I couldn't hold back my grief, tears escaped soaking my cheeks even a mouthful of poop began to sound.

"Sir are you okay? Any problems at the office?" Ask

"Listen to me" I said softly and still hugged her.

I can't imagine how he lived his day just yet.

Under such circumstances she should have gotten support but her family left her and I... I left him too.

I want to tear off the contemptible mouths that have scorned him.

Can't be imagined by me, everything he's been through because of my mistakes.

How much trouble do you have?

How much sadness do you get?

I know it won't count.

So let me pay for it all, let me give you the happiness you're supposed to get.

"What's really going on?" Ask and take off the hug. Maybe because I stayed quiet for too long.

"Azelvin, I know you're my boss, but you shouldn't do anything. It's not my work hours anyway, is it? So let me rest and work again tomorrow, Mr. Azel if there is nothing that you want to say better you go home" he said

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry"

"Sir, what is this? Please let me take a break, if there is anything unpleasant that I should hear just say"

"I'm sorry" I said again

There are no words I can say anymore other than sorry, even an apology should not be enough for everything.

For the sadness you get because of me, it's not enough just to say sorry.

"What's wrong? Why suddenly Mr. Azel came to my house, hugged my arms indistinctly, cried, and now apologized. Sir please if there's nothing important you better go home because I have to rest"

"Why not say?" Much

"Hah" he said, looking confused.

"Azka Aleston's"

Evelyne froze, instead of answering my question she left, went into her house. I followed Evelyne's footsteps and closed the door.

Long we were in silence until Evelyne finally spoke.

"Do you know?" Ask

"Why don't you ever tell me? Why Vel? I also deserve to know" I said

"Gue thought everything was over, so we shouldn't be talking about this anymore"

"GUE HAS THE RIGHT TO KNOW VEL, I HAVE THE RIGHT" I said emotionally

"Your mom told me not to bother her son, you don't want Lo's future ruined"

"Should've Lo..." My words were cut

"Lo want to kill me? I've ever wanted to tell you, but you've gone, you go to achieve your goals and I don't want to ruin your ideals" he said.

Why vel?

Did I ruin your ideals?

Have I ruined your life?

Why do you still care about me?

"Lo tell me what happened, from yesterday-yesterday I in Indonesia, I'm in deket lo, why don't you say? You should be talking about this Vel, you're talking to me"

"What if I said you would believe that?" Ask Evelyne.

"Gue will look for evidence that reinforces your statement"

"Lo doesn't believe me vin" he said, and I shook my head in disapproval of his statement.

"You should have told me" I hugged her.

He did not rebel and began to sob. I clenched my arms and sobbed like him.

Together the night we strip away for faults

Together we forget the sadness

Tonight is for us

Tonight let yourself be swept away in a comfortable embrace with me

Tonight let your heart stay in the shade

Tonight and beyond you are my answer

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TPU

"Lo scared?" Azelvin asked and Evelyne shook her head.

Evelyne approached Azelvin, lying if he was not afraid. The nights at the public funeral certainly scared him.

Azelvin, sensitive to it, hugged Evelyne's waist. Evelyne looked at the hand on her waist and then looked at Azelvin. Azelvin gives a smile that can make anyone melt to see it.

"Come on. Our son is waiting" said Azelvin and Evelyne hastened his pace.

Here they are now, in front of their son's grave, maybe if Azka was still alive she would be a cute toddler.

"Heey's favorite father" said Azelvin, Evelyne just silent.

"You're there all right?

I'm sorry, you're the stupidest dad in the world. I should have been there when you needed me, had I been with you, maybe you'd still be alive now, son.." Azelvin began to sob, Evelyne stroked Azelvin's shoulder to give him strength.

"All father's fault...

I'm sorry son...

Dad is not a good father to you.

Are you disappointed in Dad? Are you angry with Dad? If it's okay... You can even hate dad

But you don't hate your mama, because it's not her fault, it's all because of me.

All you have to know is dad will always love you.

Your dear father" said Azelvin and then only sounding stuffing from Azelvin.

Azelvin stood up and walked away from the grave of his son, he could not stay there for long. Evelyne followed her footsteps.

Azelvin leaned on his car and you know what?

What happened after that...

Azelvin was crying...

Even he was cursing himself.

Evelyne felt pity, of course even though this was all Azelvin's fault but still... There was a sense of pity that he felt when he saw Azelvin like this.

"Udahlah vin's. Want to cry until the roar into space will also not change anything, has already happened. Azka will not live anymore" said Evelyne who did not want to look pity, when in fact he felt sorry to see Azelvin like this.

Azelvin was increasingly feeling sad and frustrated.

"Lo bener vel, I'm bego. LO BEGO AZELVIN'S. LO BASTARD BASTARD BASTARD" he shouted and Lamborghini Aventador S Roadster car that has a fantastic price that was also a victim of Azelvin's anger.

Azelvin dealt a blow to his car not just once but many times.

If the car could feel maybe he would be in pain, but because the car could not feel, so Azelvin's hand felt pain.

"The vin stop. AZELVIN STOP" Evelyne prevents what Azelvin did.

But Azelvin ignored him and continued to punch his car.

"Stop Azelvin STOP" Evelyne hugged Azelvin tightly preventing him from hitting back.

There was the sound of Azelvin breathing heavily.

"LO CRAZY" said Evelyne and Azelvin just silent.

"Lo thinks Azka likes to squirm lo rich gini? Huh huh? Do you think Azka likes to squirm her father rich gini? If you feel guilty, not rich gini way, do not rich little children. You're an adult and you have kids, right? Why do you think you are still a rich boy, you should point to Azka if you are a good person, you are a good father. Even though Azka was not there, you could still pray for her, so that she was happy there, not rich gini" Evelyne grabbed Azelvin's hand.

Azelvin's hands are red now even injured and bleed even though it does not bleed a lot, but if left alone it could be fatal.

Evelyne blew on Azelvin's hand, although it did not lessen the pain Azelvin felt on his hand but it was able to make him smile.

"Udah let's go home" Evelyne held Azelvin's hand.

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Evelyne looked out the window, the view tonight was beautiful and was able to amaze him.

Azelvin focused on the streets.

"Evelyne" call Azelvin and Evelyne looks at him.

"I'm sorry..."

"Yes, I don't like it. It is not good to drag on in sadness. Smile dong" Evelyne said

"Can't"

"I've cheated so many times you see a smile, you suddenly can't smile"

"Gue smiles when you see angel"

"Angel's? Whizzing angel? Life-replucking angels?"

"Yakali iiissh. Try to smile"

"Why should I smile?"

"Stop smiling why the hell"

"Yes" Evelyne said, smiling. Azelvin who saw Evelyne smiling finally smiled.

"You are my angel" said Azelvin

"You are mine and only mine" he added

"Dream you Azelvin Aleston"

"No, this is not a fact. Evelyne Chalesthane Mariolin belongs to Azelvin Aleston only Azelvin Aleston no one can take it from Azelvin Aleston. Now and until whenever it is.

And you can't bring up the fact that I was the first one for you, and if you're curious I'll tell you something.... You are also the first for me" Azelvin said

Evelyne knew the meaning of the last sentence spoken by Azelvin and it was a fact, but Evelyne did not want to discuss it.

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Evelyne House

"You gave your boss a sweet tea? It can make diabetes"Azelvin who pretends he likes it.

"Shut up"

"No other drinks here?" Ask Azelvin

"If you want another drink, go to the cafe" Evelyne replied

"It's bad. You're grumpy"

"Shut your mouth"

"If I don't want to?" Ask Azelvin

"I'll cover it with plaster"

"Can't you just use your mouth"

"Don't expect"

"Come here let me treat your fucking hand" Evelyne pleaded.

"Can't you be softer"

"No"

"Iish sucks" muttered Azelvin who could be heard by Evelyne's ears.

"What did you say?"

"No no, I didn't say anything"

"Liar, treat it yourself" Evelyne said and wanted to move, but his hand was first blocked by Azelvin.

"Just get angry, treat it right, if you forget I'm still your boss" Azelvin ignored Evelyne, Evelyne just focus on treating Azelvin's hand, just let him babble like a sparrow.

What's a babbling sparrow?

I don't know...

Evelyne finished treating Azelvin's hand and had also bandaged her hand using a bandage.

"Vell... I want to be a good father to Azka, by making her Mama happy" Azelvin's words managed to make Evelyne freeze.