HEARTBREAKS
CHAPTRE 4

"I put my feet together with hope. And I waited in silence, despite the uncertainty,"

anonymized.

Jakarta Indonesian

Azelvin is now where he agreed to go for motorcycle racing, although he was 30 minutes late, but as he expected, the race has not started yet.

"Gue thought you wouldn't come" Alvero said with a look of disdain.

"Sorry until whenever I won't be afraid of lo, I'm sure this time I won again" said Azelvin confidently.

"OK don't have to bacot much lo, we start now"

Azelvin and Alvero are ready at the starting line. And many are watching on the side of the road, Azelvin a little wonder why Alvero's many friends this time, actually what was planned by Alvero, Alvero, while Azelvin's friend only has Axel and 11 others, and there is no Ezra maybe now Ezra is away with his girlfriend.

"Three, two, one go" said a woman dressed in sexy clothes.

Alvero and Azelvin are now driving their vehicles above average speed to drive. As expected Azelvin won that wild racing game again. Alvero is not a suitable match for him, Alvero is easily provoked emotions so it is easy to beat him.

"Where? Still want to fight again?"azelvin was underestimating.

"Fuck you" he said emotions and hit Azelvin's face and then there was a fight between Alvero's gang with his friends. Azelvin was outnumbered, therefore they chose to go to a safe place.

Azelvin's condition can not be said to be fine now, Azelvin split the lonely highway. A cold chill ripped through his body, although Azelvin was wearing a leather jacket, but he still felt the cold of the night. His body that was sick from the bruise was further aggravated by the cold weather.

Unknowingly Azelvin had now reached Evelyne's house, Azelvin turned off his vehicle and knocked on Evelyne's door.

Evelyne who was awake because of her college work was disturbed by the sound of knocking on her door.

"Malem-malem gini to people's homes, who the hell? I opened the door, right? But if it turns out that's not who?" Evelyne hesitantly finally opened the door of her house and......

Evelyne was surprised because the one in front of him was Azelvin with a wound on his face, looking in pain while holding his stomach. Evelyne sculpted, she did not know what she should do now, she saw the look in Azelvin's eyes that now seemed to hope in Evelyne.

In Evelyne's mind she wanted to ignore Azelvin but in contrast to his body, all Evelyne did was bring Azelvin to her room and help him lie on his bed.

Where was the fear Evelyne felt when he was near Azelvin?

Azelvin is unconscious. What if Azelvin was unconscious then the fear he felt was gone?

Evelyne now treated the wound on Azelvin's hand and put a bandage on Azelvin's palm. Evelyne compresses Azelvin's forehead and stomach with warm water, huh? Azelvin's stomach, Evelyne undressed Azelvin to compress it. He also put a plaster on Azelvin's chin.

I don't know what this kid did? Until it became like this, did he fight? Like a child, Azelvin really cannot change.

Evelyne now sleeps in a chair near the bed and puts her head on the edge of the bed.

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The next morning, Azelvin awoke to feel the cold in his stomach. Azelvin was surprised because his clothes were not buttoned.

"This girl is really crazy" he muttered, smiling meaningfully.

Evelyne now woke up from her sleep feeling her head was being gently rubbed by someone.

"Do I have to be rich first, so you care about me?" Azelvin asked which surprised Evelyne. The fear attacked him again, the bad memories appeared.

"Go" Evelyne snapped.

"Lo why vel? What the hell's going on? Why your reaction is excessive just because you squirm me"

"Go from here now" said Evelyne who began to stay away from Azelvin.

"Vel why? Why are you so rich in gini kegue"

"Gue please be the same. Go now" Azelvin immediately came out of Evelyne's room, and saw Evelyne's reaction. Evelyne is taking medication and breathing.

Azelvin buttoned his clothes, and left Evelyne's house. What's wrong with her?

Last night when he was injured I didn't feel any fear, but why now my reaction is like this.

I have to ask this to Doctor Kris.

I called Edzard to accompany me to see Doctor Kris, because Edzard already knew my situation. I'd better leave it today not to follow the study on campus.

Italic or italic writing ⁇ ️ Edzard

"Hello Edzard"

"Tumben morning call"

"Lo can't help me?"

"Where?"

"Doctor Kris"

"Lo good good call, you scared again? How can? What's going on?"

"It's a long story, can't it?"

"Okay, wait, I'm ready first"

"Okay thanks" I hung up.

I was preparing to go to the Hospital to see Doctor Kris, I told her I would consult her.

Not long after I heard the sound of Edzard's car, because the door was not locked so Edzard just entered in a hurry.

"Vel, how are you good at solicitation?"

"Gue's good"

"Keep why you asked to be escorted to Doctor Kris"

"Last night............" I told Edzard everything in detail.

"So he's back from abroad, he graduated college?"

"Gue didn't know about it, but I just met him"

"From now on you have to be careful, if you want to go anywhere, you have to tell me"

"What a big time"

"Why in the first place?"

"Yes" I answered lazily

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When I was in Doctor Kris's room, I told Dr. Kris the incident clearly.

"Your worries are against your fears" said Dr. Kris, who confused me with what she meant.

"meaning?" Edzard asked who was also confused by Doctor Kris' speech.

"Look, Evelyne was worried about Azelvin's condition, and his worry made the fear disappear. When the morning because Azelvin's condition had improved, then Evelyne's fear appeared again" explained Dr. Kris.

"Lo's worried about Azelvin?" Edzard asked with a strange look.

"Either"

"Evelyne you better do what I suggested yesterday"

"If you want your recovery, you have to do it"

"Is there no other way, such as therapy or whatever"

"Evelyne, haven't you done all kinds of therapy, but where did it go?"

"Yes, excuse me" Evelyne said and left Doctor Kris' room.

"Vel, Evelyne wait"

"Hm" I muttered

"What does Dr. Kris suggest?"

"He suggested that I interact with Azelvin often. Isn't that crazy?"

"No, you can't be anywhere near Azelvin's reach, he's dangerous, I'm sure there's another way to go"

"But how?"

"Gue will think later, now where are we going?"

"My antenna to the TPU"

"Why do you want to go there? Do not seek healing there, ask for healing with God"

"Gue just wants to dig up someone's grave, not a macem"

"Oh come on" said Edzard and took my hand.

TPU

"This is whose tomb vel is?"

"My son"

"Lo's son? Meanin?" Ask Edzard.

I didn't answer her questions, I cried there, I poured out my heart. After all, the death of my son was also due to my negligence.

"I'm sorry mommy son, because it's been a long time since you visited, you must be lonely? You cold? Sorry mama, if you live maybe now you have become a cute toddler who is learning to walk, if your mama is not negligent, surely now you can feel the breath of fresh air, looking at the beautiful sky, feeling the affection of my mother, even without a father" I said in my heart, tears were pouring down my cheeks. I did not wipe her and let my tears flow with the sadness I felt. Edzard rubbed my head and then he hugged me. I cried in his arms, Edzard was very understanding of me, even he knew what he had to do when I was sad.

After I calmed down a bit Edzard took me in the car and I don't know our destination right now. I just looked up at the car window and saw a beautiful view.

"It's over"

"Beach?"

"Yes right, we'll see the sunset later"

"Still a long time"

"When what if we start eating first, lo laper isn't?"

"I'm obviously a laper"

"Yeah yuk, nyari eat the deket-dek here"

Finally Edzard and I chose to eat some seafood of course Edzard paid for it, I don't want to lose.

"Where is it full?"

"Not yet"

"Buset chick so much, fat lo ntar"

"Let's look chubby"

"There also looks rich puffer fish lo"

"Yes bodoamat, the streets on the beach yuk"

"Kuy it"

Me and Edzard walked down the waterfront letting feet get wet. Sometimes we run from the waves that come so as not to get wet, but obviously our feet are wet.

We laughed out loud, after we were tired of eating ice cream and enjoying the natural beauty of the beach and letting the fresh breeze hit my face, a smile was endlessly reflected on my lips.

Finally what we are waiting for comes, sunset is beautiful. The cold air felt even more because I only wore a quarter-sleeved shirt.

Edzard, who was basically a sensitive man, put his jacket on and put it on me. He's the kind of guy who's romantic, humorous, kind, honest, and considerate.

"Udah yuk come home, already want to malem"

"You don't want to see the stars in the night sky"

"The pengen sih tapikan"

"Gue promise only until 8 o'clock"

"Okay deal"

Today was really special, I was happy with the treatment from Edzard that comforted me. God don't keep me away from him. God send someone who is good and worthy of Edzard, I want the best for him.

Is it that hard to forgive my mistakes?

Do you only care if I get hurt?

Then let me get hurt

What's wrong with you, vel?

Why did you react when you saw me like that?

I still keep scouting him following him away with that fucking Edzard.

He went to the hospital, what happened to you vel?

Even he also went to the public cemetery, whose tomb did he visit? Why is she crying like that?

I also saw him happy and laughed off enjoying the beauty of the beach with Edzard, can I change the position of Edzard?

What is Edzard?

I'm more handsome than he is

Cooler

More manly

Richer

And obviously much more everything than Edzard.

"I put my feet together with hope. And I waited in desolation, though accompanied by uncertainty," Azelvin.

I'll wait for you, until I can get you, I don't know when.

Because I'm sure you're mine.