Household
Chapter 46 - Distance -

Binar sat daydreaming on his bedroom bed. This house is so quiet and quiet. Binar so think the loneliness that he had been feeling must have felt by his mother as well.

No one shared a story or shared a laugh. Only when the husband came home did the atmosphere of the house feel alive again.

Binar wants when at home someone finds it, the figure of a child who will run while laughing or even crying. Unfortunately, Binar had to bury her in deep desire.

"How many children do you want to have?" binar asked Albiru who seemed busy with her work.

They had only been married for a few weeks but Binar was already impatient to have children soon.

"It's a lot of love to make the house crowded, but loved one is very grateful." Albiru answered casually, putting down a moment of her office work.

"I want a lot of Bi, as an only child all this time I was lonely. If you have a lot of children I'm not lonely anymore, our children will also be happy if many brothers don't be lonely too."

Albiru chuckled in anxiety at the excited Binar.

"It all depends on God, whatever God loves is to be grateful for. The important thing is to be healthy and perfect, and don't forget to keep trying."

Albiru could not hide her laughter seeing the blushing face of Binar upon hearing his words which tucked away a hint of temptation.

"*You want a boy or a girl?" ask Binar again.

"Actually a boy or a girl is just the same Bi, but considering the responsibilities of the firstborn are heavy I slightly wish our first child was a boy."

"Where are the Bi twins?" Correctly asked again, the woman was getting excited at the thought of having children.

"That's a bonus, baby. For me a boy or a girl even a twin as long as you're her mother will still be happy."

"What the heck Bi." Said Binar who was embarrassed to hear the appeal.

Little smiling Binar recalled those memories. They were newly married and enthusiastically discussed the child.

Given the fact that he could no longer discuss the problem of children so enthusiastically made the smile of Binar disappear.

Even though Binar's pain was still strengthening himself, saying it was okay to himself.

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"Assalamu’alaikum," Binar immediately turned to the door of the room and found Fay's smiling face.

"Waalaikumsalam, enter Fay." Binar's reply allowed Fay to enter.

"How are you?" asked Fay after giving Binar a warm hug.

"Not good Fay," Binar answered as he was.

"Sorry Bi, I'm late." Fay whispered regretfully.

Binar shook his head, "you're not late, your current presence is precious."

Fay did not answer but hugged Binar tightly. Fay wanted to cry, to be sad to hear what had happened to Binar. But as a friend who must strengthen, Fay was forced to hold back tears even though his chest was so tight.

"Lo strong Bi, you strong." Fay's whispers strengthened but Binar shook his head slowly.

"No Bi, Blue will not give up the same lo. He loves you, only you love Bi." Fay tightened his embrace giving strength to Binar.

"What if he's tired of Fay. She would have wanted to have a child but I can't give her a child."

"Lo can't be Bi, you can still have children. Remember Bi how unlikely it is that it will still be able to become real by the power of God."

"But Mom said she wanted Blue to have a child soon. I don't want to divorce Fay but I also don't want to be combined, I can't see Blue getting married again."

Fay felt so angry. Mother Siti really did not have the heart to make Binar so upset. Fay strangled the woman for making her best friend suffer like this.

"No Bi, you calm down. Blue will not divorce you let alone marry another woman. Because if that happens, I'll kill your in-laws and Blue." Fay said with determination, he would not let anyone hurt Binar.

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After the conversation that night Albiru and Rio were not in touch anymore. Rio like deliberately keeping a rarity whereas Albiru busied himself with work.

Albiru missed Binar, longing for the figure who had been by his side. So hard to resist longing but Albiru chose not to be selfish. Intentionally giving Binar time to be alone, especially there is the figure of Mother Ina who forbids Albiru to visit.

"Blue Dark?" Raka's voice resuscitated Albiru from his daydream.

"Eh, um." Albiru said briefly a little surprised to hear Raka's voice.

Raka immediately sat down beside Albiru, smiling little looking at the tired face of the man.

"Lately I've seen you daydream a lot. Is there a Blue problem?" ask Raka.

Albiru smiled wryly, "my life is a lot of trouble mas."

"Everyone has a Blue problem, which distinguishes only the way we deal with the problem. Some look relaxed but the mind is muddled and some look very chaotic inside."

Albiru laughed incessantly, she was the one who looked chaotic inside out. Cannot cover the cover.

"Gue won't ask what problem you're facing because it's not my realm. But as someone I've considered family, I'm always ready to hear your story." Raka said sincerely making Albiru really feel the figure of an older brother that she had not had all this time.

"According to mas, the distance deliberately created in a relationship is good?" albiru asked as she felt confident that Raka was a person she could trust.

"Blue, in a relationship the creation of distance is not a good thing let alone deliberately created. Distance in a relationship can lead to new problems, such as misunderstandings. You can't guess your partner's thoughts and vice versa and because keeping your distance from each other is busy guessing so that it can cause misunderstandings."

Albiru fell silent, what she said Raka was right. At the moment the relationship with Binar is not healthy and the distance they create will obviously further stretch their relationship.

"What should I do?" ask Albiru in frustration.

"Do everything to improve, if our partner asks for his own time to give, but do not forget the deadline not to drag on. People who don't like us are happier to see us suffer." Raka paused for a moment giving Albiru time to think.

"Love needs a struggle especially if it is already in the marriage bond. All means must be taken to maintain the home. Prove your sincerity, prove the amount of love you have."

Hearing Raka's advice made Albiru excited again. What Raka said was true, she had to prove her love to Binar. Now Binar needs evidence to convince his heart to no longer doubt.

TB