I Desire the Love of My Husband
Just for a moment

Zahra's day was over, now that the sky had turned dark, Zahra was busy helping Nur prepare dinner.

Zahra chose the activity because she was bored, there was nothing she could do, Bian also just ignored her since coming home last afternoon.

"Zahra, where's your husband?" ask Inggrid.

"He's upstairs, I'll call."

"Why isn't he helping you?"

"It's okay Oma, let it go."

Ingrid sat down, he saw food being served at the table, a lot of it and that meant they had to eat together.

"Already, you just call your husband, don't let this food get cold."

"Yes, I'm upstairs first."

Zahra passed away, just let Nur finish everything, after all just a little.

And again there is Ingrid there, maybe Inggrid can help him little by little.

"Bian, Oma call you."

Zahra saw the room, there was no Bian there, as Zahra remembered Bian's footsteps were indeed towards the room, but where the man was.

"Bian, are you in the bathroom?"

No answer, Zahra walked up and opened the back door, apparently Bian was on the balcony there.

Zahra smiled looking at that sturdy body, she could not forget with all her disappointment, but she also could not cover up if her expectations were really there towards the man.

"You're here, what are you doing?"

"Shut up, what are you going to do here for?"

"Oma's looking for you, she wants to have dinner with you."

"I'm not hungry, you eat."

Zahra nodded, slowly approaching and standing behind Bian, not until when the man would act to her.

But even so, Zahra could not get away from him, even though sometimes circumstances always forced him to give up.

Both of Zahra's hands clenched for a moment, slowly raised, and hesitantly Zahra embraced her husband's sturdy body.

Bian was a little surprised, he glanced at the hand that was coiled around his waist.

"I'm not allowing you to do this."

"But I seem to have a right to this."

"Take it off."

"Be quiet, let me do what I want, I never forbid you to do what you want."

Bian slightly turned his head, that was indeed true, Zahra had never banned him for anything.

"You're going for the guy?"

"Who?"

"No need to pretend."

Zahra was silent, had Zahra not decided to stay with her husband, where perhaps Zahra thought of another man.

"He opened it all up" said Bian.

"Then why?"

"That means he's gonna start fighting, he's not gonna shut up to get you."

"I'll leave if you let me go."

Both are silent, Bian is always thinking about Vanessa, he wants Vanessa instead of Zahra.

But it seems like Bian can't let go of Zahra, his ego to get back to getting the company is still very big, and only Zahra can help him for that.

"You still think about that woman?"

"Shush."

"I've never lied to anything, so I hope you can do the same."

"Didn't my honesty just hurt you."

"That means the answer is correct?"

There was no answer, Zahra smiled at a glance, Zahra should not need to question that.

Bian raised his hand, pulling Zahra to move in front of him, Zahra smiled with her embrace.

"Take this off, what's this for?"

"You always try to find your own pleasure, so let me also try to find my own pleasure, in this way I can already get my own pleasure."

"But I don't like."

"That's what I feel from your own pleasure, I don't like it at all."

"You're replying to me?"

"Of course, I won't just shut up."

Zahra raised her head to be able to see Bian's face, Zahra smiled despite just the annoyance she saw there.

Let it be, Zahra will do and say what she really wants, no matter what others.

"There's something that could please you more."

"That's just you think."

"That's why you're pretending."

"Take it yourself, the one you have to remember, you won't be as smart as me."

Bian smiled as he turned, that was also true, all Bian's mistakes would be exposed even though Bian struggled to cover it up.

Zahra's hand lifted, he touched Bian's cheek to look back at him, no rejection because Bian also followed him.

"Every thing that is forced will not be right, the changes that I feel towards you, let it be my business, never force to retaliate because your freedom remains."

"When will you survive?"

"Until you no longer need me, after that I will no longer survive, you will determine the time anyway, so don't ask me."

Bian was silent, was Bian going to succumb to a boy like Zahra, the woman who held him so honest with everything.

But until this moment, Bian can not change himself and his feelings for the woman, Bian is still Bian who is not ready for a serious relationship.

"Is there anything you're thinking?" ask Zahra.

"No."

"Everything that's going to happen after today, that's what we have to live for, that's what I have to go through and that's what you have to admit."

"What should I admit."

"I'm if you already have me, the rest do as you please."

Bian raised both eyebrows, he looked at the two beads of Zahra's eyes, Inggrid always said if he always wasted his wife's kindness.

But Bian also can not force to accept it what else likes it, all is his fault, but all has happened by his own choice.

"Stop looking at me like that, I know I'm really pretty."

Zahra closed Bian's eyes with one hand, smiling as she saw Bian's lips also showing a smile.

A second later, Bian lifted Zahra's body and sat her on the fence, Zahra screamed a little and clung to Bian's shoulder tightly.

"What's wrong?" bian asked withholding laughter.

"I've always hurt you, but I'm not ready to die."

"What do you mean?"

"You want to kill me?"

Bian pulled both of Zahra's hands off her shoulders, and pushed her a little, obviously it made Zahra even more panicked, her screams getting louder and harder at Bian's ears.

"What a whisper this boy."

Zahra swallowed her saliva, is Bian not sane, why can do that to him.

"There's no need to hold on too hard, just plain, I don't want to spend my time in jail."

Bian again kept Zahra's hand on his shoulder, he smiled looking at Zahra's panicked face at this time.

"If you die, everything will stop, including your heartache."

"But I still want to enjoy this pain, so I have to stay alive."

The two smiled, Bian pulled Zahra's head slowly and kissed her just like that.

I don't know what they're thinking right now, which is clear they're just going to stick around in each other's egos.

Survive despite having to be disappointed and hurt, also survive even though it must disappoint and hurt.