I Desire the Love of My Husband
Now, I'm Different

When night came, Kemal and Kania came to meet Zahra, just because Zahra was currently relaxing together with Ingrid.

Kemal clapped his hands at how calm the woman was, like there was no burden at all, her life was so triumphant.

Zahra and Inggrid turned their heads together, the two exchanged lyrics for a while, until Zahra got up and extended her hand.

"Have your life been free?" ask Kemal.

Zahra slightly nodded, her hands back down, Zahra was still intending to be courteous to them, but if not accepted again, it was up to her.

"Happy now?" ask Kemal.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Happy?"

"Of course."

Kemal nodded, he glanced at Ingrid and Kania alternately, great, they could hear clearly.

"I'm sorry I let you guys down, please forgive me."

"Free Bian now" said Kania.

"I can't."

"What do you really want, you want this house?"

"No."

"Don't play games with us" Kemal said.

Zahra turned away for a moment, they never cared about Zahra's feelings even in the first place.

And until now they still do not understand, they do not understand how heavy Zahra is also doing all that.

"Your play is the best, Zahra."

"You managed to deceive us all with that innocent attitude of yours."

Zahra was silent, she looked at the husband and wife in turns, what a charade, Zahra never intended to lie to them, Zahra just followed Bian's wishes.

And now, even if Zahra was sorry, there would be no point, Zahra would not be able to turn back the clock to the beginning of her meeting Bian.

"Can't you just sit down, and talk?" asked Inggrid who finally got up.

"Mommy just sit down, and listen to us talk" Kemal said.

"Mami always stood up for the woman" Kania added.

Inggrid glanced at Zahra at a glance, ever since the woman had come, Inggrid immediately felt he had to defend her.

And that is already proven true, Zahra indeed must be defended in various ways, including when facing them.

"Why are you so defending Bian from that man, you stubbornly want to defend Bian from the man's lawlessness."

"I told you that it was his must."

"But what do you do now, you think you're the smartest?" ask Kania.

"Isn't that true?" ask Zahra.

Ingrid was silent, focused on Zahra, the woman looked bolder in her speech.

He who always thinks repeatedly before speaking, now seems no longer, Zahra is so easy to say what he has in mind.

"You did this on purpose, you made yourself Bian's savior hero from that man, but in the end you did it?"

"But I managed to prove that I could save Bian from that man."

"But it's useless, if you end up doing all this!" kania Bengpak.

Zahra closed her eyes for a moment, no, Zahra should not be carried away by emotions, just let them yell and curse at her even once.

But Zahra also won't budge this time, Zahra will defend herself from anyone who doesn't appreciate it.

"Free Bian."

"I can't."

"What's the reason, don't be rude to you."

"Talk well to him" said Inggrid.

Zahra was silent, if they continued to fuss, pity Inggrid, the old woman would definitely feel dizzy and depressed.

And surely Zahra again will be blamed by them, but to ask Inggrid to leave will not be any result, because it will definitely reject him.

"Free Bian, you hear, you can take this house if that is your real goal" said Kemal.

"This house is indeed my goal, my marriage to Bian is to restore my right to this house."

Zahra shook her head, not one bit Zahra wanted to obey them, Zahra would just follow her own thoughts.

"I did want this house, all of my and Bian's agreements were for this house, but Bian had already broken all of the agreements he had made himself, how could I accept that."

They were silent, maybe it should be for Zahra to tell all of them without anyone missing.

They must know how much Zahra's life after marrying Bian, all feels heavier than losing her parents.

"Do you know, Bian forced me to marry him to get the company, in return for this house back to me, he made a pact that required me to obey him, not to demand anything, he said, not to touch it in the slightest, not to set it up, forbid or rule it is haram for me, and I ask that all of the covenants Bian makes apply to me as well."

Nobody spoke, they were really listening to Zahra at the moment, it was quite easy for Zahra to speak calmly.

No matter what they would think later, most importantly now, Zahra could finish all her sentences.

"Do you know that Bian broke everything, I never sued him but he always sued me, I never forced him but he forced me, I never touched him but he dared to touch me, I've never been rude to her but she's always been rude to me, her words and all her treatment was never good to me, do you know that?"

Inggrid looked turned away, indeed only Ingrid knew that, and that was why Ingrid could not get angry when he was disappointed in Zahra.

Months with Bian, Zahra had indeed only gotten a wound, it might have been appropriate for Bian to get a reply this time.

"You know, I can't live in peace with that man, I don't have the freedom to do anything, everything, everything in his rules but he never appreciates me, when should I be quiet?"

"Ayra," call Inggrid.

"Mama remember, Mama once asked to give a grandchild to Bian, didn't Mama not know if during that time Bian never touched me, but when Mama asked for the request, Mama asked for it, Bian broke the rules I asked for, he touched me forcefully, can I be willing with that?"

Zahra's heart began to rumble, all the bad shadows over Bian's treatment came back dancing beautifully in Zahra's memory.

Can Zahra stay calm now, her emotions will not be stable if Zahra remembers all her pain.

"You know our marriage was just a charade, but Bian forgot everything, he agreed not to ban me near even like other men, but he forbade me, then what he did, he said, she was with another woman without a care for me, she did everything with that woman before my eyes, I still have to be quiet?"

"Zahra," call Inggrid.

"I never asked for anything, I just always reminded Bian to respect me, but what I got, anger, Bian's clasping, Bian's swearing, and all the violence he did, he said, when do I shut up?"

Zahra's breath began to hunt, his calm was disappearing, their silence still made Zahra's emotions easily peaked.

Inggrid moved closer to Zahra, he rubbed his shoulders, but Zahra brushed him off, no matter the ethics, Zahra just wanted them to know everything.

"I begged in front of the man, in order to save Bian from the punishment that was threatened, I came to the man's house, until I was wounded, do you know that I almost died there just to defend Bian, but you know what he's doing here?"

No one answered, not even Inggrid who knew it the first time was just silent.

There is no point in cutting Zahra's sentence, just let it evaporate everything, the pain is too heavy and long held.

"You know what he's doing here, Mama knows or Papa knows?"

They remained silent, Kania had indeed heard everything from Inggrid, but her mouth was stiff enough to answer Zahra now.

"You know when I almost died there, Bian just made out with that woman here, here do you know that?" snapped Zahra.

His lips were tight, Zahra could not cry, he blinked trying to remove the dew blocking his vision.

"And you know, until Bian came to his senses, he still didn't care about me, he defended the woman, he panicked and went to save the woman, I'm hurt here and he knows it but he doesn't care, do I still have to shut up?"

"Zahra is already," said Inggrid.

"Bian deserves the punishment right now, don't you dare force me to change this decision, you have no right to it."

"Morochen ...."

"Papa is silent."

Kemal frowned, really the woman dared to be insolent to him, how could Kemal accept all that.

Zahra glanced at Kania, while the woman was nice to her, but now that everything came back bad, it was too sad for Zahra.

"You hate me, go ahead, you want to kick me out of here, go ahead, you want to report me back and lock me up like Bian, go ahead, please, but I'm not going to release Bian as long as I want to see him in a holding cell."

"Shut your mouth that."

"Whether Papa shut up, I'm not your daughter-in-law's hope, don't you know that Bian isn't a husband of hope either, he's not who I want to be but he dares to torture me here, who really should be quiet?"

Inggrid shook his head, Zahra would lose control even more if it continued to be left like that, Kemal would not be able to accept Zahra's opposition.

No matter how Zahra is right now, he will still lose if he has to face the harsh nature of Kemal.

"You know ...."

"Zahra is silent, that's enough" Inggrid said, hitting Zahra's lip.

"You two go home, you don't have to come here anymore, you go home soon."

They were all silent, very irritating to Kemal, Inggrid was completely outrageous in his judgment.

He continued to defend the insolent woman, even after Inggrid heard and saw everything.