I Desire the Love of My Husband
Heartache Does Not Mean Death

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Damar turned his head, he quickly opened the door.

"Anugerment Room?"

"Yes, sir."

"Please."

Damar took his food order, and went back in after his business.

It had been half an hour to let Zahra sleep, either sleeping, which was clearly closed Zahra's eyes.

"Ayra, the food has come, let's eat, you want me to eat?"

Damar opened all his food, he swallowed his own saliva tempted by the food.

"Ayra, she already misses seeing people eat, she'll be happy if you eat now."

Zahra remained silent, Damar enjoyed his drink, it was fresh, soursop juice was his passion.

"Ayra, don't you have any pity on me, I've spent money to buy this, my salary this month is running out instantly to buy this for you, are you that bad?"

Damar devoured his fried shrimp flour, his crisps sounded so crisp, Damar nodded feeling the taste was good for his tongue.

Damar also sipped ramen sauce, it sounded so delicious, Damar nodded again, it felt very delicious.

"Ssss haaaah."

Damar gaped at once, it was very spicy, it seemed that Damar had misplaced.

I don't know, whatever the type of food, Damar obviously ordered everything that emerged from the search results.

"Ayra, you know, it's delicious, you have to try it."

Damar's voice was not clear because his mouth was full of food, he sipped his drink.

The voices disturbed Zahra's ears enough, he was curious about what Damar was eating.

"Emmm, this is really good, emmm no two of these orders are most appropriate."

Zahra frowned, what a charm it was, how much food it ordered.

"Do you like coca cola, or sweet juice, or you just like mineral water, look I've prepared everything."

Damar was silent, his eyebrows were furrowed, he saw a crackle that had not been opened, what it was, after that much food and drink he opened, there was still something left.

Damar grabbed it and opened it, he breathed his resignation, apparently he forgot to order ice cream.

"After food and drink, wouldn't it be nice if we ended up enjoying a box of ice cream?"

Damar opened it and devoured it without warning, Zahra turned her head, she noticed Damar who was enjoying his ice cream.

"You know, as long as the doll's with me, she's always by my side every meal, she's always been a loyal spectator as long as I eat, and she's kind of enjoying that."

"Know where you are?"

Damar immediately stopped his mouthful, he glanced at Zahra, finally Damar got a response as well.

His efforts to be chatty were not in vain, now the eyes had opened again, and Damar could hear his voice.

"Of course I know, because eating me so greedy if there is him, you ever feel uncomfortable when eating seen by others, you know, when you feel uncomfortable it means that the person does not like and does not enjoy when he sees you eating."

"really?"

"Ah what the fuck are you, you've never experienced that?"

Zahra shook her head, Damar clucked while rubbing his face, then what experience Zahra had experienced, what was just grief.

"I always eat a lot, I don't care what the menu is, if people always match this food with that drink, I've never been that way."

"Then?"

"Yes, I will eat and drink as I want, whether it is suitable or not, you know that I once ate porridge by drinking milk, and I've had bakwan with soda, do you think that's good?"

"Of course."

"Either, the right answer, maybe it's just me trying."

Damar spoke at length without stopping his eating activities at all, Zahra who saw it felt funny herself so.

The fragrance of the food was indeed so disturbing Zahra's smell, occasionally he swallowed his saliva when he saw Damar enjoying the food.

"Ayra, just this time I eat like this, you see a lot of food and drinks here, and I enjoy it together, complete with interspersed ice cream, do you think this is true?"

"You're weird."

"To be precise, yes I am strange, but my strange attitude makes me live comfortably, I really enjoy it, and you should try it."

Zahra kept her doll and tried to sit down, seeing that, Damar immediately stored her ice cream, she got up and bowed her body.

The movement of Damar made Zahra startled, he looked at Damar in surprise, the man smiled as he nodded.

"I'm just gonna help you, I don't want to see you hard on your own."

Zahra smiled, she shook her head and looked down, Damar really helped her sit down.

Making her sit properly and comfortably, Zahra again grabbed her doll and hugged her.

"My money is running out for all this" Damar said.

Zahra silently observed all that was available there, a great many, how could Damar do all that.

"Where do you want, want to eat alone or I bribe, let's want shrimp or noodles or what, want this ice cream, ah can't, can't, your empty stomach can't eat ice cream no more spicy."

"Well, you better eat rice with this vegetable, you know the vegetables are very good, I just ordered it first and really feel lucky."

Damar mixed the rice and vegetables, then gave it to Zahra, but a second later Damar pulled it again.

"What the fuck are you?" ask Zahra.

"Aren't you still limp, it doesn't matter that I'm going to feed you, once you're strong you can hit me, slap me or whatever it is because I've been slow to feed you now."

Damar thrust out the spoon, Zahra smiled and accepted, and Zahra just wanted to hug her doll.

One bribe, two bribes, three bribes, until the next bribe and bribe, managed to get into Zahra's mouth.

The two smiled as the food began to run out, Damar clucked, shaking his head.

"Why?"

"No, I just realized that I'm so good at persuading angry women."

Zahra was silent for a moment, what was the meaning of his words, what was Damar mocking him.

"No no, I'll be quieter now, so you better focus on eating."

Some time passed, the food was successfully spent by Zahra, Damar gave his juice drink.

"Maybe you want this?"

"No, I'm water."

"okay."

Damar replaced it, and helped Zahra to drink it, after which she kept the glass back and glanced at the doll.

Zahra also saw the doll, it was very impossible if Damar would bring her back.

"Ah that's right, you are indeed smart."

"What?" zahra said.

"She said that you are so adorable when you eat, she wants to see you eat more like that, do you want me to feed her more often?, ah where can it be, like that, your will cannot be tolerated by the state."

Zahra again smiled at Damar's chattering, the man spoke so much, could he just shut up for a moment.

Even with the doll the man talked until like that, Zahra kept the doll to stop being stared at by Damar.

"Okay, what else do you want, ice cream?"

Damar grabbed the ice cream he had stored on the floor there, and opened it again.

"Now you can enjoy this, you want, do you want this?"

Damar shakes his ice cream box, with his silly face Damar teasing Zahra.

"Stop it" Zahra said, covering her face.

Damar smiled as he pulled Zahra's hand, it covered the scene, how could Damar see his face if it was covered like that.

"Let's eat, don't be like that."

Damar again bribed him, was not it not difficult, they were less able to seduce so it was difficult to make Zahra want to eat.

"Enak right?"

Zahra nodded, maybe delicious even though her tongue felt a little bland.

"Ayra, what are you doing, why are you like this?"

"I don't know."

"That's not the answer at all, you should be able to love yourself more, you think like this all will care about you, those who don't like you will only mock you, just mocking you, and in the end you'll be the one who gets hurt."

Zahra was silent, did Zahra not understand herself, Zahra could not control everything.

Zahra wants Bian back, but on the other hand, Zahra also does not want to see him free, then what should be like.

"Ayra, I've never had a partner, I don't know what it's like to be let down, but it might be better if you're strong for yourself, before there was your partner, you must have been so caring for yourself and your heart."

Zahra nodded, but her gaze had no pedestal at all, Zahra did not understand the current situation.

"You have to wake up Ayra, your life your responsibilities, your choices and your decisions are your responsibilities, if you are weak like this will only make your life more meaningless."

"Don't that mean nothing?"

"When you decide something, then at that time you feel there is something to be maintained, whether it is yourself or others depending on the circumstances, then you feel there is something to be maintained, and what you do in my opinion is to defend yourself, I don't know the real problem but whatever it is you know what good things are for yourself."

"I want Bian free, and back to his family."

"That's your right, isn't the decision entirely with you."

"But I don't want to be disappointed anymore, I don't want to get hurt anymore."

"Fix your own situation, once your person improves, you can improve other circumstances, including Bian's subject."

Zahra went back to silence, what she had to think, Zahra was dizzy with her own desires.

It was all so painful for him, there was no benefit for him at all, the thought of calmness after Bian was detained never happened.

They hated Zahra more and more, they did not appreciate Zahra, and then Zahra had to defend herself.

"I said fix yourself, why do you daydream like this, let's eat still a lot of food you have to spend."

Zahra turned, Damar kept the ice cream and gave Zahra a drink.

They went back to enjoying the food, there was no point in continuing to talk about the matter, Zahra needed to really take a break from it all.