I Desire the Love of My Husband
God is Not Fair

Frans runs into Shafira's room, the doctor calls her and tells her that Shafira is really bad.

"Shafira," Frans said entering the room.

Frans was silent as the nurse covered Shafira's entire body, her heart thundering as the doctor shook his head.

"Omong is empty" Frans said.

He immediately approached and reopened the cloth covering Shafira's face.

"Shafira, Shafira I'm coming, you're with me, look at me here."

The pale face with closed eyes did not give any response, Frans clenched with both hands clenched firmly.

"Shafira, we haven't been able to tell each other, Shafira's awake!" snapped Frans.

He ripped the body rough, so the nurse and the doctor tried to calm him down.

"Shafira," cried Frans who began to cry.

What a foolish encounter has happened between her and Shafira, for what they meet if in the end parted again.

"Shafira," Frans shouted.

They pulled Frans away from the lifeless body, it was useless because his ears would no longer be able to hear.

"Shafira, why did you let him go, why don't you take good care of him, why!" snapped Frans.

They are silent, their efforts are very maximal, but how else because the will of God will no one can oppose.

"Aaaaaa Shafira."

"Sir, be patient sir."

"Delivery."

Frans revolted from their prisoners, until Frans immediately hugged Shafira's body.

This is wrong, this situation is very wrong, Shafira can not leave this world now.

"Shafira wakes up, I know you're back for me, but why is it like this, Shafira I beg you to open your eyes."

Frans was really sobbing, it was too short, a longing that he had long been holding back had not been fully healed.

Shafira had to live for a longer time, not this short, Frans could not let go at all.

"Shafira, wake up please."

"Sir, we're sorry, but it's God's will" the doctor said.

Frans did not answer, this is very unfair for him, Frans never wanted a farewell like this to happen in his life again.

Enough of his papa to leave him because of death, why now it must happen again to Shafira.

"what does this mean, Lord," cried Frans.

The doctor and the nurse could do nothing but leave it alone, nor did they ever want death to happen to their patients.

Frans cupped both of Shafira's cheeks, rubbing gently with both hands, the tears dripping right on Shafira's face but not making Shafira bud.

"You're really gone, it's evil that once you leave me this way, Shafira I'm only gone for a while you should be able to wait for me to come back."

Frans closed his eyes firmly, hoping Shafira's eyes would open along with his.

But hope lives hope, Shafira is truly gone for good, Frans sitting helpless beside Shafira's bed.

"Sir, we are sorry, may you and your family be given the strength and sincerity to receive it."

Frans shook his head, there was nothing he could accept, everything was so bad, the death Frans never wanted to happen to his loved ones.

"I'm sorry, sir."

"Thank you."

It's bad, it's so bad, Frans can't understand all this, why death happens.

"You know I've been waiting for you all this time, I miss you, I still keep our love intact."

Bian still maintained his embrace of Zahra, the woman did not budge even though she did not return the embrace.

Both are sobbing, both Bian or Zahra, they feel heavy with their own feelings.

"I don't know what Zahra's got to do anymore, please give me another option than this farewell, I beg you."

The judge seemed to rise up, he just passed by leaving the two.

Those who saw the judge come out, immediately approached and asked the result.

"We're going to do the next mediation call, there's no outcome whatsoever for mediation this time."

They exchanged lyrics, there was a feeling of relief and heaviness also with the words of the judge.

A sense of relief for those who were expecting a reunion, and a heavy weight for Dion who said farewell.

"Can we come in?" ask Kania.

"Please, but don't make a fuss."

They entered at the same time and seeing Bian and Zahra there, Dion seemed to stop the judge's steps.

"Sir, can't it be decided straight away, isn't the woman already unanimous in her decision to part?"

"I don't see that, I feel like this can still be fixed, just a peek of calmness and awareness as they speak, and I think it can be found at the next mediation meeting."

Dion hardened his jaw, what kind of nonsense, was Zahra not hard with her decision to part.

The judge seemed to leave, Dion kicking the wall beside him in annoyance, could not the farewell be made easier.

"Zahra, tell me, aside from this parting, what can make you want to forgive me."

Zahra did not answer, she did not know, she tried to want nothing more than the farewell.

"Zahra," call Isma.

Bian let go of his embrace, seeing Isma approaching Zahra, Bian hoped that the woman could persuade Zahra.

"Clear your mind, don't let emotions rule you continuously, you are currently feeling regret, the more you follow your emotions the more regret will pressure you."

Zahra gulped her saliva, this time actually staring at Bian before her.

The man had repeatedly cried, just like that could indeed disturb Zahra's heart.

But Zahra tried to keep dismissing him, assuming it was all a charade.

"Bad people have a good side no matter how small it is, and Mama believes that you are a good person who also has a bad side, but don't let the evil side take you beyond your good side, because you will lose yourself."

Zahra did not budge, she persisted in her gaze towards Bian, the man's gaze did not turn away even for a moment.

The look in Bian's eyes showed his helplessness, no arrogance at all visible to Zahra.

"Whisper your little heart that you must hear at a time like this, your mind that suppresses your anger do not follow too much, Zahra improves the situation must be with good attitude and thinking, not with emotions like you've been doing lately."

Zahra covered her face with both hands, she squatted down and came back crying.

Zahra was indeed selfish lately, she did not see the surroundings that might have been hurt by her attitude and words.

Dion walked into the room, his heavy steps still managed to bring him in, Dion silently looked at Bian who was squatting in front of Zahra.

"Zahra, I'm not looking down on you, I'm not looking down on you, but I know you still have a good side to take me in again."

Zahra's crying became more and more, they had eroded the Zahra defense that was so fought for.

Zahra is weak and will forever be weak, facing her love for Bian will make her sink deeper into weakness.