I Found Love With You
25. Resignedly

Sadiyah waited for Kagendra who until 10 pm did not go home. His eyes were sore and his body was very tired because since noon he had sweat to clean his apartment unit and make a lot of cooking. Sadiyah fell asleep on the sofa in the living room with the television still on.

Kagendra arrived at his unit when the clock on the wall pointed to the number 11. He saw the sleeping Sadiyah curled up on the sofa. Then he saw the hood on the bar table. When Kagendra opened his hood, he saw the dinner menu for him in the form of chicken filet teriyaki seasoning and oseng kale, one of his favorite dishes.

Kagendra walked towards the sofa and shook Sadiyah's arm to wake up.

“Hei...wake up..move his sleep.” exclaimed Kagendra while continuing to wiggle Sadiyah's arm.

After a long time trying to wake Sadiyah. His wife finally woke up.

“New home, A?” asked Sadiyah while rubbing her eyes.

“Hmmm..

“Have dinner?” ask Sadiyah again.

“Ya.” Answer Kagendra briefly.

Sadiyah passed from before Kagendra and went into the room and immediately laid herself on the bed.

Kagendra followed Sadiyah's movements with his eyes. He soon entered the room. He stared at Sadiyah's innocent face and his chest felt a little tight.

“Why does my chest feel uncomfortable?” ask Kagendra in your heart.

Kagendra went into the bathroom to clean herself up and get ready for bed.

Today is a great day for Kagendra. He was very happy to meet his lover again. The shadow when he made out with Natasha at the office this afternoon and continued with their intimacy in Natasha's apartment this afternoon until an hour ago, made a smile continue to grow on Kagendra's lips.

From this afternoon until an hour ago, Natasha never escaped from her embrace. Likewise, their lips are almost spoiled every minute by each owner as if they want to pay off and longing buried for more than four years of their separation.

Kagendra touched his lips, he still felt the sweetness of Natasha's lips that were spoiled on his lips.

“Oh my God, I’m extremely happy.” exclaimed Kagendra in his heart. He wanted to scream to express his happiness.

Then, Kagendra's face turned to his left side. He saw Sadiyah who had been breathing regularly and slowly signifying his wife had slept soundly.

Kagendra felt a little guilty towards Sadiyah. Moreover, this afternoon Sadiyah caught the intimacy displayed by Natasha and herself. Sadiyah saw herself and Natasha kissing in Natasha's lap with Kagendra's hand running down Natasha's back.

“Ah tomorrow morning I will talk about this issue with Sadiyah.” Kagendra's determination.

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The next morning, as usual, they do the activities they always do in the morning. Sadiyah was still preparing Kagendra's clothes and breakfast.

“Sadiyah, there are important things that we should talk about.” said Kagendra opened their first chat after the incident yesterday afternoon.

Sadiyah raised her head to hear what Kagendra said.

“Ya.” sahut Sadiyah.

“The woman you saw yesterday in my room during the day was my lover who has returned.” Kagendra said without further ado.

Sadiyah lowered her head again. His hand held the glass and he played his fingers on the glass.

“I love my lover so much and I decided to re-establish our broken relationship. Actually never spoken words broken from us which means from the past until now, he is still my lover status.”

“Hmmmm...” is just that response from Sadiyah.

Kagendra continued his words which made Sadiyah's chest even more congested.

“Starting today, you don't have to make lunch and dinner for me. Just prepare breakfast.” Kagendra command.

Sadiyah still sat in silence.

“I go to work first.” says Kagendra.

“Hmmm Sadiyah could only answer with a mutter and nod. She still wanted to be a little awkward to kiss the back of Kagendra's hand like she did every morning before her husband left for work

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It's been a week. No one knows how much Sadiyah is hurting right now. When Father and Mother-in-law visited two days ago, Sadiyah and Kagendra acted perfectly as if nothing terrible had happened between them.

Sadiyah admitted that at first she did not like Kagendra. But over time and togetherness for a month had begun to melt Sadiyah's heart. She began to feel the love for her husband. Treat Kagendra that is slightly softened has also touched the heart of Sadiyah. Especially when Sadiyah found out that her husband was very fond of her homemade cooking. Sadiyah felt a sense of pride in her heart and she began to believe in her marriage.

Sadiyah believes that she will be able to make Kagendra fall in love with her because she has fallen in love with Kagendra. She was embarrassed and afraid to express love for her husband. She was still waiting for a signal from her husband but after she witnessed a friendly scene between her husband and her lover coupled with a statement from her husband who said he would continue his romance with her lover, Sadiyah felt that there was no hope for her to get the love of her husband Kagendra.  Now Sadiyah's confidence was shattered, as broken and as fat as her heart felt. He felt that there was no hope for him to get a marriage that was really warohmah mawaddah.

Sadiyah felt a great concern. If he can be selfish, he will choose to withdraw from this marriage. She was willing and sincerely divorced by a husband who until now had never touched her. Do not do the usual things done by husband and wife. The first kiss from her husband had not been obtained.

But Sadiyah remembered Aki Musa, Abah Yusuf and Mother Indriani. He does not want to disappoint them. Sadiyah also remembered Rostita, her aunt who had cared for her for over ten years.  Remembering those he loved made him return to shed his tears profusely.

“Yes Allah, what to do. Leave everything to You, O Allah. If indeed he is my soul mate and good for me then bring it closer but if he opens my soul mate and is not good for me, then keep him away from me.” do’a Sadiyah in every prayer.

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