I Have to Control My Power
Chapter 1

Ethan, a feisty teenager, steps with a pounding heart toward the first kingdom he will visit on a journey seeking knowledge and control of his menacing powers. The kingdom is famous for its powerful sorcery, and Ethan hopes to find useful clues.

However, once Ethan arrives in the kingdom, he is greeted with a terrifying sight. The once magnificent and full of life, the city is now shattered with smoldering flames and collapsed buildings. In a panic, Ethan runs through streets filled with debris and corpses. He felt a great burden of grief and loss.

His first encounter with the consequences of his uncontrollable power has left him reeling in guilt and trauma. However, his determination was still strong, and he was confident that he could find a way to control his strength. Ethan decides to find a wise teacher who can help him.

Ethan's journey takes him to a second kingdom famous for its powerful martial arts. Here, he meets a master teacher who teaches legendary moves. Over the course of several months, Ethan follows a rigorous and intense workout, striving to learn and master every move and technique.

However, as it had happened before, this kingdom had also suffered a tragic fate. Ethan witnesses a surprise attack from an unseen enemy, who cunningly destroys the kingdom. Once again, Ethan's friends and teachers fall victim to the atrocity.

This unexpected suffering makes Ethan even worse. Every attempt he made to control his strength seemed futile, and he was plunged into a deep feeling of despair. The question crept in his mind: was his power worth having if it only resulted in destruction and suffering?

Ethan did not give up. Although his heart was broken and wounded, he continued on his way to search for clues that would help him understand and master his powers. This time, he reached a kingdom that was famous for its forbidden magic teachings.

Here, Ethan meets a mysterious old sorcerer. This sorcerer reveals to him the secrets of forbidden moves that can change the universe. Though hesitantly, Ethan receives training and learns how to use even greater powers.

However, the deeper she got involved in these forbidden moves, the stronger the negative impact on her. Life and happiness are getting further and further away for him. Ethan feels entangled in a circle of inevitable darkness, where every step he takes brings destruction.

Ethan is on the edge of despair. His long journey has taken countless casualties, be it the kingdom, friends, or himself. He had been a witness of destruction and death many times, so the guilt that strangled him grew.

In the darkness of his mind, Ethan is seduced by the voices that incite him. His enemies, who are cunning, ruthless, and masterful in manipulation, take advantage of his fragility to incite him and encourage him to destroy the world he left behind. The voices illustrate that the world is not worth inhabiting and just deserves to be removed.

In a moment of deep despair, Ethan is on the verge of destroying everything, including himself. When he raised his hand, his strength prepared to unleash a devastating attack.

However, at this crucial moment, a mysterious woman appeared and stopped him. The woman, who has rare kindness and wisdom, sees the potential of good in the wounded Ethan and offers his hand to help him out of the darkness.

The mysterious woman, named Lila, is a witch who has seen Ethan's struggles and the suffering he's been through. He admits that Ethan's powers may be dangerous, but he is convinced that there is hope to save himself from the haunting darkness.

Lila takes Ethan to his hideout, in a remote castle in the middle of the woods. There, he teaches Ethan about self-strength and helps restore his lost confidence. They undergo intense practice and meditation, building a strong bond between them.

However, in their calm, Ethan's devious enemies do not stop. They send spies and criminals to find out whereabouts. When betrayal is revealed, Ethan and Lila must face a series of deadly battles and attempt to protect themselves.

As almost all of his hopes fade, Ethan begins to ponder about his life filled with destruction and suffering. A sense of despair engulfed his heart, making him feel that this world was better without its existence. The thought of ending his life came as a final solution.

Lila, who feels a deep pain in Ethan, goes to great lengths to prevent him from taking such a tragic action. He spoke softly, reminding her of the value of life and the potential that exists within her. However, right then and there, bad luck reached them.

The enemies who are after Ethan find his hiding place. They stormed the castle and caused chaos around it. Ethan and Lila fight tenaciously against the more numerous attackers, but their powers are limited.

Desperate, Ethan decides to take a risk and use the powers he once feared. He grabbed his strength with the final determination and unleashed it in a dazzling attack. However, the attack not only destroyed their enemies, but also destroyed a large part of the castle.

In the end, Ethan and Lila manage to repel the attackers, but at a price. The castle that was once their refuge is now burning debris. The two of them, covered in dust and destruction, sat in the middle of the ruins, feeling a deep sense of solitude.

However, along with the physical damage, there is also damage to Ethan's heart and soul. His uncontrollable strength had destroyed more than he loved. Now, the whole world hates him, and he is a living reminder of the destruction he once caused.

In the stillness of the castle's ruins, Ethan feels that there is no place for him in the world anymore. He felt isolated and meaningless. He decided to seclude himself and hide in a secluded place, in an attempt to heal his deep inner wounds.

Ethan lived his days in silence and darkness. He is alone in a hidden hiding place, isolated from the outside world. Deep trauma and sadness continued to haunt him, but amidst that darkness, there were drops of courage still lingering in his heart.

In solitude and emptiness, Ethan begins to find a way to heal himself. He studied the art of meditation and reflection, dealing with his guilt and past traumas. In the process, she found a gentle hope and a small light still burning within her.

Ethan goes on a journey to heal himself, exploring the memories and traumas that torment him. In the process, she realizes that she is not alone in her suffering. Many people have experienced suffering and failure, and they find a way to rise again.

Meanwhile, the outside world continues to spin unconsciously on the struggle that Ethan has been through. His deadly power has caused destruction, and he is considered a threat by all the kingdoms he has ever visited. His services were not appreciated, and he was denounced as a doom-bearer.

However, even though he is left estranged and ignored by the world, Ethan discovers new powers in his fortitude and recovery. He understands that, despite all the mistakes and failures, he still has a chance to make a difference, even if only on a small scale.

Eventually, Ethan chooses to move on with a heart full of hope and determination. While she may not be appreciated by the world, she is determined to make her experience a lesson and push herself to become someone better. In solitude and serenity, he found the inner calm he sought.

In the shadow of a dark past, Ethan hides himself, waiting for the perfect time to emerge and repair the world he once destroyed. In deep silence, he plans a better future, ready to discover the true meaning of life and give a new understanding of the power he has.