I'll Live As I Wish
Episode 11

Runa started to get nervous because of this disease he just kept thinking about Lucas. Lucas every time he came to see Runa, Runa always ran away. While going to the greenhouse Runa saw Lucas and a girl in the yard. The girl held Lucas' hand. Runa became angry and kept thinking about that. He gets angry every time he meets Lucas. He no longer ran away even though he kept thinking about the girl and was indistinctly angry with Lucas.

Runa met Lucas in front of his room. He saw Lucas waiting for him. Runa wants to turn away but, caught and stopped Lucas.

"Shortly Runa why are you ? Lately you have not run away again even angry unclear". Lucas said.

"Not to know". Said Runa.

"I need to know because I'm the one who scolded you on". Lucas said.

"okay". Said Runa.

"Runa why you ?". Lucas said.

"It's okay. I'm going back to the room". Said Runa.

Runa went to the room. Arriving at the room he called his lady. The day is called Lea.

"Lea you know me why ?". Said Runa.

"How about miss ?". Said Lea.

Runa told Leah everything.

"Happy nonaku. Eventually my non-me fell in love too. Who is she miss ?". Said Lea.

"Fell in love ? Me ? Lea, you're kidding me, aren't you ?". Said Runa.

"Then it's not because of the cold illness but I have fallen in love ? And that guy is Lucas ?". Said Runa.

"Yes miss". Said Lea.

"Then why am I always angry with her ?". Said Runa.

"That thing is normal. Miss is jealous because she sees the person she likes close to another girl". Said Lea.

"Lea I need some alone time". Said Runa.

"Alright miss". Said Lea.

Lea left Runa alone in the room.

"There's no way I'm in love with her. He was very arrogant and cold but, he was good for helping me and he was also a little handsome. No No No Why can I think like that ?". Said Runa.

Runa finally admits it and falls asleep after accepting that she has fallen in love with Lucas.

In the dream Runa saw a small child and he also became big. The little boy kept calling her mother. Runa felt astonished but she felt pain seeing the little boy being treated like that. Runa came closer to the little boy and tried to save him but could not. He could not touch the boy or his surroundings like a spirit. He heard the boy called Aisha. Suddenly Runa cried continuously while calling out the name of the child.

"Dadity". Said Runa.

Runa felt a great pain in her chest. He also heard voices. The voice said "Do you want to be the mother of the child again ?". Runa was silent because of the word "The boy again". He was very confused because this was the first time he had seen her but said again. He also felt pain. Runa did not answer that voice. The voice gave time to Runa. "If you already know the answer then we will meet again and you will give your answer". The Voice said.

Runa awoke from her sleep and she found herself crying. Runa continued to cry, but she could not remember why she was crying and about her dreams. All he remembered was the intense pain in his chest. Because Runa was still very sleepy he fell asleep again. She had a good dream and fell asleep smiling.