I'm Single Mom
ASM 13's

"Sister, where's the house?" Her question broke my daydream.

" In the alley of sweet water, bang."

" How far can you go, brother, from where?"

" I'm a scavenger, bang. It was the preoccupation of the road so do not realize that it is far away."

" Next time be careful brother, especially sister is pregnant is not good to be outside the house when magrib time arrives." Words remind me.

I stared at the polite young man's back, "I don't want to be outside the house when night falls. But it's circumstances that force me to be like this."

" That's my house bang." I said while pointing towards a reot house.

This young man stopped his motorcycle right in front of my house.

I got off the crap of this young man.

" Thank you, for bringing me home."

" Same brother. Then excuse me to go home." The young man has now passed from before me.

I let out a sigh of relief. I decided to go in and want to take a shower and rest. My body is tired today.

As I was about to enter I was startled by Grandma's call.

" Salsa...? From where? Why did you come home the other night?" Ask grandma worried.

I didn't answer Grandma's question, "come in first."

We sat on the mat I had named. I sat down and straightened my legs.

" Where are you from? Since the afternoon grandma's been waiting for you."

" I was rough earlier, Grandma. Too far to walk." Answer glumly.

" Why get rough? You daydream while walking?"

Grandma could read my mind again.

" What else are you thinking, huh? The most important thing is that you're healthy, the baby in your womb is healthy. Don't think about anything else." Grandma's speech.

I rubbed my face that was getting wet. True what Grandma said, for now I should think of myself as well as my baby candidate. But.. until this second I still think of mother, father also zaskia, sister just my way. Although we have no family ties, I love him sincerely from the depths of my heart.

Another one that is a burden on my mind is Akmal. The man who sowed the seed in my womb. The man who introduced me to the paradise of the world who enjoyed it only temporarily. Akmal's name is still stored neatly in the heart. Even I don't want to erase these bitter memories in the slightest. Akmal what are you doing? Are you married?

" Sal..? How to daydream?" Ask nek Aminah.

I smiled at Grandpa Aminah, "i'm sorry, Grandma, because it's so much trouble."

" Oh, sal, have you bought your baby's gear?"

I nodded with a embarrassed smile.

" Don't worry, now you're taking a shower with grandma at home."

Without refuting I immediately cleaned myself and then immediately went to grandma's house.

*

" Feed first!" Grandmother's orders.

I opened Grandma's hood. There are lontong wrapped using banana leaves, rendang is also a vegetable gulai jackfruit.

Not just tasting, my saliva feels like dripping. Where did this good food come from?

" Eat! When you need to spend. Earlier, my grandmother was accompanied by a neighbor whose house was luxurious at the end of the alley. He said there was a curse." Grandma's speech. Without me asking grandma to answer the curiosity lodged in my head.

While I was enjoying this delicious meal, grandma came with a big bag. I don't know what it is, I can't guess.

Without me asking Grandma Aminah to start dismantling the contents of the bag.

My eyes looked up at the contents of the bag.

" It's still good." Granny murmured slowly.

" It's still good, Grandma intentionally kept it. Can still be used by your baby candidate later." Grandma said with a bitter smile.

This baby kit is complete starting baby clothes, diapers, pants, gloves hat as well as socks. It also seems to have never been worn.

" It's all grandmother's children. He used to prepare too quickly." Grandma's old eyes began to glaze over the old days.

" If he had listened to Grandma's words, he would not have died silly in the hands of that jealous man." Remember grandma again.

I don't know what to say to Grandma. In fact, I am also not a good child who can be the pride of the family.

" This you can bring. Wash first tomorrow do not forget the love of fragrance." Grandma's message again.

It was late at night and I went home to my grandmother. Don't forget I brought a big bag containing baby equipment belonging to the late grandmother's child.

Until at home my sleepiness suddenly disappeared. There is only the desire to dismantle mini items in a black bag.

"God willing..that's great..." I was amazed by this cute baby kit.

" Dede's... Healthy yeah. Mommy can't wait to see you together. Don't trouble mom, yeah. We must be able to be born normally so that the mother does not get out of the expensive labor costs. Dede knew, from the beginning the mother had fought alone. Dede also need not be afraid if the lahiran will be cold, because mother uda has baby equipment for you." I spoke to myself as my hands gently rubbed my stomach.

Soon I will be a mother, Akmal will also be a father. Unfortunately he had to run away to be a loser for the sake of his ideals.

Though I also have a dream, but I must bury it deeply because of the mistakes I made with Akmal.

It turns out that women will be the most disadvantaged people. Stupid me!

*

I woke up early in the morning. As usual, I started doing housework. I have no husband and live without a husband. Even I got pregnant without any marriage.

Today before leaving for work I decided to have breakfast chicken porridge. At the end of the alley there is a chicken porridge seller who used to run. I will also order two packs of chicken porridge. This chicken porridge is one for me and another for Aminah's grandmother.

I took two packs of chicken porridge and immediately took them to Aminah's nek's house.

" Assalamu'alaikum mother..."

" Waalaikumsalam, come in." Grandma answered from within.

I stepped inside Grandma's house. My grandmother was sitting relaxed.

" Take what?" Grandma asked while looking at the plastic I was carrying.

" Chicken porridge." My answer. After that I went to the kitchen and moved the chicken porridge into the dish.

" Yuk eat grandma!" Take me.

Nek Aminah received a plate filled with chicken porridge from me.

" Don't waste it, Sa. You need a lot, you know. Grandma can still take care of herself." Grandma said while putting the porridge in her mouth.

" Never a mother. If not with grandma, who else would Salsa share, Grandma?"

We all enjoyed each other's food.

*

My pregnancy has reached nine months. I'm starting to have a hard time moving. I'm not picking up anymore either. Now I work in a food stall. The owner is a middle-aged woman. Her husband died a long time ago. Name Sekar. I usually call my mom. He felt sorry for seeing me who every day worked as a scavenger with an enlarged stomach. Every morning I help cook and wash dishes in the stall owned by Bu Sekar. Although I no longer scavenged, my relationship with my grandmother was still good. Nek Aminah I have considered as a substitute father and mother.

Today, Bu Sekar's rice shop is quite crowded. While I was helping with cooking, suddenly my stomach felt heartburn.

" Why Sa?"

Apparently, Ma Sekar has been watching me since.

" You want to give birth?" Tanya Bu Sekar started to panic.

I just shook my head as a sign that I didn't know.

I try not to panic. I slowly tried to catch my breath and let it out slowly as well.

" Don't panic Salsa, everything's gonna be fine." Hope in my heart.