I'm Single Mom
ASM 3'S

I lay my body on the bed, shivering at the anger of my father and mother. The tired face of my father. How can I throw dirt in your face?

While dad spoils me so much.

The pounding on the door made me curl up under the blanket. The body is too weak. I ignored the call from Zaskia's voice telling me to eat. I put the handset in my ear. Today I just want to calm down.

I fell asleep in the heart.

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I opened my eyes when the sun was asleep in the dispute. The sound of water gurgling over the precarious signifies that rain is falling. I felt an incredible cold. My body shivered, my teeth clashed. I've never felt anything like this. It's strange!

I closed the window that had been open since noon. Sayup-sayup heard the sound of Adzan reverberating. I forced my shivering body to take the ablution water.

Penance! that's all I have in mind now.

I fell too far down the cliff. Will God forgive me?

I shed my tears remembering the sin of adultery I had committed.

In prayer, my tears are constantly dripping. The regret that came made my chest even more tight.

Allah. forgive me! Many times that sentence I repeated. Until the knock on the door woke me up.

" Sa?"

Mother's voice sounded from outside. I was in a hurry to wipe my tears. Not forgetting that I put a thin powder on my face, so that mother could not read the sad aura that emanated from my face.

Kriet's...

I opened the door to the room.

" Are you praying?" Ask my mother while walking into my room.

" It's already open." Answer's short.

Mom sat on the edge of my bed. My heart was beating, remembering the testpack I was still putting in the book on my desk.

Mom moved in front of my desk. God, help me! Don't let me see that testpack.

" Sa, are your plans after graduation to go to college?"

Mother's question this time really pierced my heart. What am I supposed to do? What answer do I give my mother?

" You don't have a plan yet?" Ask mom again.

I just shook my head, there's nothing I can promise you. I don't want to add to the disappointment later.

" I just want your plan, so we can provide you with a fee."

Masya Allah.. I felt so moved to hear my mother's words. My eyes glazed over, as much as possible so that these tears would not come down.

" Yes, then I'll wait at the dinner table, yes, we'll eat together." Mom rubbed my shoulder and passed away leaving me.

I sat on the edge of the bed. It's so tame all these joints. You idiot! rfor me in my heart.

Mom and Zaskia were waiting at the dinner table. There's my favorite delicious dish and Zaskia. Sambal squid and stir-fry kale.

Normally me and Zaskia would struggle to finish off mom's cooking. But not yet touched I was shuddering to imagine it.

I dare not approach the dining table. I was just glued to the door of my room.

" Mom, splinter! Waiting for it to even stand like a statue." Zaskia pouted at me.

While the mother began to fill the rice along with side dishes and vegetables into the plate.

My steps are heavy, the aroma of mother's cooking that I once admired now even makes it nauseous.

I was forced to sit down with my mother and Zaskia.

Now Zaskia had eaten with her heart. Now I take the plate for the second time, fill the rice, side dishes and vegetables and give it to me. Suddenly I was nauseous, wanted to vomit to make a sound. I was surprised to see me. His gaze was sharp, as sharp as a samurai sword.

I shook my head, "Ti-no buk." Nervous, that's how I feel.

" Today Salsa is having no taste." Saying again. I gave a faint smile to my mother so as not to be suspicious of me.

Zaskia looked at me in wonder. That twelve-year-old boy couldn't believe I could refuse our favorite meal today.

" Don't really like it?" Ask Zaskia to make sure.

I nodded back awkwardly. Now she seemed silent, she was enjoying the rice that I had rejected earlier.

Now I take a plate and fill it with rice. This is much better than having to wear vegetables and squid.

I eat with it. One day not eating makes me feel like a hungry person. So I didn't realize it was a spectacle for mom and Zaskia.

I woke up and stopped eating. I looked at mom and Zaskia in turn.

" Such a sister? Mbak's possessed?" Zaskia asked confusedly.

Again, she looked at me sharply. " God, not now. I'm not ready." I murmured in my heart.

" Mom!" Zaskia shook my shoulder.

" Hey?" That word is all that comes out of my mouth.

" Zaskia's smell is up?" Without waiting for my approval all the squid chili has been spilled into the dish.

I just smiled, and so did my mom. I saw my mother continue eating her again. For a moment, my mother seemed to have forgotten the strangeness that had happened to me.

We finished eating, as usual Zaskia got the task to clean the table and wash the dishes so that tomorrow does not become a more strenuous job.

Mom was pondering on the chair with her hands propped up to her chin. Like a lot of burdens my mom is thinking about.

I who was about to enter the room broke my intentions. I sat down again, this time closer to my mother.

It seems like my mother was unaware of my presence. He's still pensive.

" Mr.." I called my mother but there was no reaction.

" Mom?" My voice was stronger, and my mother gasped in shock.

" Dreaming?" Ask again.

And mom just shook her head. Now she rubbed her own hands many times.

" What's microwaving mother?" I'm trying to figure it out.

"Just a heavy sigh was heard.Next, "What is your father doing?"

Daddy's! I just realized that today we had dinner without a father.

" Where's mom?" My toot.

I am a child who does not know myself. I should have been dead a long time ago so don't make a disgrace to this family.

" Your father got a work call in town. He said he wanted to build a building. I was in a hurry so I didn't have time. Your room is also in the lock. Zaskia's tired of calling you, but you don't hear." Obviously mother again.

Instantly I patted my own hands. You idiot! I slept in a handset with the door locked.

What kind of child am I?

" Your father was desperate to work in the city, in order to raise even more money. Afraid you're disappointed you can't go to college." Said mom sambit smiling into my chin.

I smiled blandly. My father worked desperately, while I so easily gave up my honor to my own boyfriend.

" Sleep! It's night. Tomorrow you're bad luck. Tonight I'll sleep with Zaskia."

Mother got up from her seat and went into the room following Zaskia.

I went into the room with tears.