I'm Single Mom
ASM 36's

" And for you, Zaskia... You're my brother even though we're not blood but I consider you my brother. But apparently your ambition to have Akmal is much greater. And you know Akmal is the father of my son, El. El is your nephew, can you snatch El's first love?" I started sobbing. It hurts so bad.

" And dad...." Not ready for me to continue my words, suddenly my vision became blurry. And I fell unconscious on the floor.

I woke up and all these rooms were white. In my hand is an infusion hose. What's wrong with me? My head hurts, maybe the effect I fell on earlier. From a distance Akmal immediately approached, when he knew I was awake.

" Thank God, you are conscious." Reply cheerfully.

" I've always been aware of you, you never know." I replied to Akmal's words with a fierce tone.

" Don't be angry, Sa. You're not afraid of bleeding again?"

I was surprised to hear Akmal say, "what do you mean?"

" So there was blood coming out, lucky you were quickly taken to the hospital. Doctor says, you have to bedrest."

" I want to go home." I started pulling the infusion needle in my arm.

Akmal brushed my hand away, "don't be weird. You're still sick and need to be treated." Akmal said furiously.

" Who knows whether it hurts or not it's me, not you. I want to go home now!" I scream like crazy. Lucky it's a VIP room so there's only me and Akmal in this room.

" Why go home?" Akmal Snap.

" The El that made me not feel at home is here. You know, he won't be able to calm down before I get home." I started sobbing.

El was spoiled for me, because ever since he was born, I was the only one beside him.

I glanced at the clock on the wall, it was eight o'clock in the night, I started looking around for my phone but didn't see it.

" Search what?" Ask Akmal wonder.

" My phone." Jutek.

" It's." Akmal gave me his phone. " Wear this, your phone ran out of battery was still loaded." Akmal.

I called Veni, though,

" Hello Ven, where's El?

I heard my little daughter whining, "when are you going home? El's afraid of himself, mother where the hell?"

I rubbed the corner of my eye. It turns out El can't be far from me.

" Dear, mother's dengerin. Tonight you can't go home." I was interrupted because the phone connection was broken by El.

I gave Akmal a cell phone.

The huft! I exhaled hoping the tightness that squeezed the chest for a moment could decrease.

" El must understand." Akmal sok sage.

" Quiet! You don't know anything about El." My quips are sharp.

Akmal closed his mouth, causing silence between us.

Long enough we were silent to each other, until Akmal's phone rang. There's a mama's name on the screen when I glance at the illuminated phone.

With laziness he also answered the phone from the big lady aka his mother.

" Hello ma." Answer Akmal slowly.

I don't know what his mama said, which is clear Akmal only answered yes and yes until Akmal turned off his phone.

" Please go home, you don't have to wait for me. I can be alone here." I said with a bitter tone.

" Why are you? Nyolot just spoke. You think you're right? You think you're the only one tired?"

" I'm tired, Sa." The next moment he began to weaken. " If I'm not ashamed, I want to cry."

" Just do me a little, Sa!" He was fond of me.

I'm going all wrong. I shouldn't have cornered Akmal, we should have joined hands to deal with the storm created by his mother Akmal himself.

" Sa, you're my wife. And that old woman over there is my mama. I love you both. I'm trying to give my mother some understanding, to convince her that my love is only for you and El." Akmal said while squeezing his own hair.

I was silent to Akmal's words,

" I'm sorry Akmal, maybe I'm not patient with you." I feel guilty for the man I love.

" Help! Just a little patient. I'm definitely back for you and El, for our family. Don't make it weird again, you're pregnant, pregnant with my child, bearing the fruit of our love. There's El's sister in this." He rubbed my stomach which started to bulge.

Uh. Getting treatment like this from Akmal alone I have melted like snow that melts when summer comes.

" I love you." whispered Akmal in love.

Akmal kissed my lips briefly, my face heated up. There was a shame in receiving such a sweet treatment from my husband after going through a long process of drama.

After seeing me who was starting to calm down a little, Akmal asked permission to go home for a while to see his mother.

My mother-in-law did not want to eat and take medicine before Akmal came home.

I salute to see the toughness of youth, it turns out he is more clever to conquer the heart of his youngest child.

With a heavy heart I take back my heart's lover to serve the mother-in-law.

" Okay, I'll be back after you take your medicine and go to sleep. Okay?"

I just nodded, trying to be sincere and resigned. I hope there is a rainbow after it rains.

*

Almost three hours Akmal left, but did not return. I'm starting to get bored. My eyes do not want to be closed even though the clock has shown at eleven o'clock at night.

I tried to send a message to Akmal, but only tick one. That's a sign he's inactive. I tried calling him, sure. Is the phone out of power?

My brain that was supposed to be fresh is now starting to be forced to think again.

Allahs... Give me patience and fortitude.

The longer here my emotions begin to peak, "I hate you Akmal. Huo...." I cried like a child who was not given a snack. In the silence of this room I wept myself spilling the vexation of my heart.

" Sa's.."

Akmal was in front of me. I don't know how long he's been coming, I don't know how long he's been standing there looking at me, watching my silly behavior.

" What are you doing?" Ask again with a teasing and mocking expression.

" Yuuuu..." My crying voice is getting louder. My second pregnancy made me a whiny and sensitive mother.

Akmal took my body into his arms, warm and comfortable, making my heart calm.

" Cup.cup.cup.don't be sad anymore... I've come to get you here."

Akmal speech is like an oasis in a barren desert. Always was, I was too comfortable with him to be unable to open the door of the heart to another man.

I started to lie on the hospital bed. Akmal covered half of my body with a blanket. He told me a lot, one of them about his feelings for me. Like a little boy in a fairy tale with his parents, my eyes closed until I did not know what time my man was asleep.

*

The alarm I put on my phone sounded noisy. This indicates it is five o'clock. I opened my eyes, there was Akmal who fell asleep in a sitting position. He fell asleep without changing his position, but in the corner of this room there is a long chair that can be made to fall. As my eyes condensed, the simple act Akmal did for me always invited my net to get wet.

I rubbed my beloved's thick hair lovingly, go to sleep....