I'm the 2nd Wife
SMALL QUARREL

Whether I can live a day like this.tanyaku to my heart.every nando's heart comes but the night he always comes home.ta never accompany me.Sep that I feel every time he goes.what's with my heart.why I'm sad he's not in beside me,why do I always expect him to be by my side.ask myself to my heart.Night getting late but my fatigue does not make me immediately closed mind thoughts about the day ahead that may feel more difficult for me.The future that will be clear the tip of the base."Why did I so easily decide to marry him, was I glared at the treasure, was I so cheap?".my words to myself.separably empty and empty in my heart.without my tears flowing warmly on my cheeks."my parents why is it so easy for them to agree with nando, why do they not think about my fate to be a k2.ato wife they only care because nando is rich".all the painful thoughts of the past, the separated old people and no one cares for me, the ma2 who always undermines financial problems, my sister who never cared about her brother, her brother,betrayal of the betrayal of the people I love.starting from dimas2 men who had dated me for 1 year that ended with his affair,satria and pram even kak handoko all the men I loved first and ended up with them having an affair."what's my cage?".my monologue again.I kept crying in the silence of the night.Without feeling I fell asleep because tired of crying.Entah what time I can just fall asleep.

I was awakened by the distinctive voice of the man who these few days has always been around me.nando the man who is soon to be my husband."honey, why are your eyes swollen?you cried?".anyanya who saw my eyes moist and swollen from crying for too long last night.I just shut up and throw my face avoid his gaze.In the grip of my chin in face my face to him with sharp eyes full of intimidation."why are you crying?".ask again.I'm still silent."Don't ever think of a tiger like you!".herdiknya with a threatening tone."what kind of ndo, how can I choose this time?all I've done is your wish, what else do you ask?".my scatter with all the ducks I want to overflow."then why are you crying?".the question is sharp."all my future is in your hands,I must be willing to be second because your selfishness took away my honor, why to cry even I have a right here".My voice is higher than I realize my tears have melted on my cheeks."I love you nye, I love you,I want you to be my wife and always be by my side".nando's sharp words with his emotions."then what about mbak sarah, would she be willing to be pitted?".sarah, a woman whom I had to ruin her household, a career woman who was kind but had to take her due, she was nando's first wife."Can I live with heartache mbak sarah".repeat again."quite nye enough, why do you always think for others.can't you think selfishly for yourself?" .nando getting emotional."I'm not you ndo, can't you think for yourself,I'm not a selfish, arrogant rich boss, I'm against having anything without thinking of a wounded heart."I'm selfish I'm arrogant yes I'm selfish and arrogant but all because I love you".the answer is."love or just lust ndo?".my voice as I drown my face in the blanket."anye do not ever think like that, I do this also with the permission of Sarah.sarah ta can give me offspring because of the pain she suffered she had to lose her womb".said nando explained all."what a cheap man I am to you ndo, even my parents agree I am married to a married man.why all no one cares about me".my tears became.nando clutched my face.In his arms he let me cry in his chest."why why?".my crying is getting worse."sorry I nye, sorry but I promise I will love you sincerely, sincerely, but I promise you,I'll try to be fair to you and sarah.don't cry anymore".he said as he stroked my long hair."ayo took a bath, you must be hungry".he said again, which I answered with a nod.I myself do not know why I always easily agree with the words of nando.I try to escape from his embrace and walk to the bathroom to clean myself.

Finished bathing and wearing comfortable home clothes I went down to breakfast.I see nando already sitting at the dining table waiting for me while enjoying a cup of coffee made mbak saroh."that's a pretty donk".the broom when I saw it was fresh again."what the sich".I said lazy.I took a plate to prepare breakfast for him but refused."you just ate I had breakfast at home".answer that I know.I eat in silence.nando looked at me briefly and then back sip coffee."You did not sleep last night?your face was pale".asked nando when I finished eating."I slept only at what time, I just felt bad".I said."what I call the doctor".he said while sticking his hand to my forehead."but you're not hot".he said again."maybe it's just tired, don't try to see the doctor I'll take a break later be good".i said again."ok later let tio pick up your father at the station".he said again."dad came today?".my answer was a nod."ya at 12 o'clock your father arrived, you rest first yes".he said the one I sayakan.we stepped into the room.I tumbled my body as comfortable as possible trying to be closed again.nando left me he walked towards the wardrobe which.remove his suit and work clothes replace it with boxer pants and casual plain t-shirt.then overtake me get into bed and ask me to fall asleep.