I Need Your Love
Chapter 57 "Sacrifice of Love "

The phallus tries to remember all of those events. He also remembers Amanda. The phallus tried to call Amanda by name. The nurse who was guarding the Lingga, immediately contacted his family.

Hearing Lingga continue to say the name Amanda, Mama Nania was very upset.

" Daughter, this is Mama, baby !"

" Leave me alone, I want Amanda, Ma. Not Mama."

" Daughter, Amanda's coming home, 'cause she's healthy."

" Uda's healthy? trus my son, Ma ? my son was born, Ma ? male or female? I want to go home, I want to see my son, Ma !"

Mama Nania was silent, she could not answer Lingga's question.

" Mama, Mama's still being treated? Mama why shut up? answer me, Ma !"

" Lad....!" Mama Nania cried, she left.

Shut up, Amanda came to the room. He could only peek at the phallus from the window of the room. Amanda went to the nurse on duty that night, asking when Lingga would be moved to the hospital. The nurse also said if the condition of the Linga has recovered properly, the Linga will soon be moved.

Hearing the nurse's explanation, Amanda was very happy. Because if the Lingga has been moved to the hospital room, Amanda can freely see the state of the Linga.

The night is getting late. Mama Nania left Lingga alone. Amanda couldn't sleep that night. Silent - silent without the nurse's knowledge, Amanda walked into the Linga's room. Amanda sat next to him. Amanda crying.

The phallus awakens from its sleep. He heard someone crying beside him.

" Who are you ?" ask Linga.

" Mad, it's me Amanda,"

" Amanda's?honey, what are you doing, what do you say ? how is our son ? where is he now ?"

Amanda crying.

" Dear, where are you ?"

Amanda held her hand.

" Mommy, I'm here. "

" Dear 'baby, how's our son ?"

Amanda was crying again.

" Why are you crying ? mama said you are healthy, how is our child ? why didn't you bring her here?"

" Don't you know, right now he can't be with us, God loves him more,"

" What ? why can't you take care of him ? why Manda ????"

Amanda was crying.

" Gold, I'm sorry, mas.hiks..hiks...hiks..!"

Amanda kissed both hands of the phallus. The phallus also threw his hand.

" Go now, I don't want to see you again !"

" You can't take care of him, "

" Mad, but this was purely an accident, not because I was intentional,"

" Siliammm.., now you go out. All of you let me down, you're bad."

" Mas Linggaaa.insaf mas, this is because the car brake is damaged,"

The phallus is crying.

" Why did this have to happen ? is it because this is God's punishment for uda divorcing Nadine ?"

" a, mas. This is not a punishment from God. The Lord loves trials because we are strong, all this to test our faith. God loves us, mom."

" If God loves me, why am I like this ? why ????"

" So, believe me, behind all this, there is a beautiful plan that God has given us. Never despair, everything will be fine, mas. "

" You can talk like that, because you're not the one who's talking. Try if you're in my position, surely you won't accept with all this !"

" She, from my childhood hard life, I have lived to the lowest point, my grandmother and I never had money to eat, hungry, hungry, withstanding insults from people, but I have always been strong, patient. Behind all the problems, there is a way out. If we now experience something like this, we cannot see, we cannot walk, we must be sure, there is a miracle from God for the Lingga. God wants to change my life for the better. I will always be there for you. I will take care of the mas until the old age of the Lingga, that too if the mas want me, I am willing mas, hiks..hiks...hiks...!"

" Manda ?"

" She, I have no one else. Mom, I love her family more, same Nadine. Mom once said, I'm ashamed to have a child like me, I never expected my birth. So, allow me to be able to take care of the Linga. Only the Linga I have ! "

" Are you sure you want to take care of me?"

" It's a mas, I'm sure. As long as I'm healthy, I want to take care of the phallus until it heals,"

" Are you serious ? you're not ashamed to take care of someone like me ?"

" No, why am I ashamed. Mas Lingga once said that you love me, right?"

" Manda, you're a good boy, you're beautiful, you can still find a normal guy, unlike me. If I ever said I love you, I'd pull those words again, I'm afraid to love you, Manda. You will regret liking men like me, blind and unable to walk. I don't mind if you go find the best for you, you're young, Manda. Your time is long. Please find the best for you, which can please you, make you happy. Sorry Manda, I'm not the old Lingga. Papa, Mama and Lita are still there, they can still take care of me. "

" Mom, Mom and Dad are getting older. Lita, she's gonna think about her future, no way she's living on her own. Surely Lita will have many plans, one of them married, she will marry the man she loves. Although mas? you have to live alone. Mas, let me always be next to the Lingga. As long as I can mas, I'll take care of the Lingga mas."

" I don't believe it. You know, I'm forever probably like this. Trus, you want to live forever with a man like me? that's impossible, Manda. You are beautiful, there are still men out there who want to be with you, "

" Mas Lingga why is it so stupid ? why masss ? you doubt me? I thought I was a woman who didn't know how to return the favor ?"

" So you took care of me just want to return the favor?"

" I know, the first time we met, I immediately liked the same Lingga mas, even though mas trus scolded me, even in front of the Lingga mas people scolded me, berated me. But I know, because of the power of my love, I have to be patient to face mas, I sort what mas Lingga said. Mas, I was from a long time ago like the same Lingga mas, but I realized, I am not the woman who mas Lingga want, but I just pray, if my soul mate, Lingga mas, I will definitely stay beside him. No matter what the situation, Lingga is still the person I love. "

Hearing Amanda's words, Linga's tears flowed.

" I'm sorry Manda, if I hurt you first,"

" Why do I also want to conceive a child mas Lingga, because I love the Linga. Let me take care of the Lingga mas, as I can mas, until the old age of the Lingga. "

" Thank you Manda, "

Amanda hugged Lingga. The two were crying together.