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Forgive but not forget

As Light came out from inside the bathroom, Ryan who was already in the room seemed stunned to see a very different Light display. This is the first time Ryan has seen Light wear a dress and his long, straight hair is being draped away. But when he saw a very different display of Light, he was like looking at the shadow of the woman who had recently appeared in his dream.

The light that saw Ryan in the room, the light went back into the bathroom. After that he came back out.

"Hand, I've prepared warm water for you." said the cold light as he picked up his cellphone located on top of the bed. After that Light decided to go down to meet his in-laws.

"Have you not forgiven me so far?" suddenly Ryan asked the Light. The light that was already in front of the door, instantly stopped its steps.

"I've forgiven you, but I won't be able to forget it. I've been begging you not to. But, you don't care what I say" Light said without turning his gaze toward Ryan.

After saying that, Light decided to leave. While Ryan immediately threw a pillow that was nearby to the floor. His heart ached when he heard the Light's words.

"Why with me? Did I open my heart to her?" ryan murmured, then he ruffled his own hair.

At night, Light and Ryan enter their room together. The light picks up the pillow it will use. Light who doesn't want a mattress with Ryan, decides to sleep on the couch.

As he wanted to close his eyes, Ryan sat down before him. The Light seemed confused as to why Ryan was not sleeping, instead sitting in front of him.

"Well, have we met?" of course making Light directly look at him.

"No.." replied Light lied, and Ryan nodded his head only after hearing the reply from Light.

"Did you have any trauma other than high speed and sitting on the front bench of the car?"

"You know where it came from?"

"Kevin..." Hearing the name Kevin Light sighed.

"That's none of your business." replied the Light with a sniffle.

"I know it's none of my business, but at least I should know everything about you...."

"For what? Do you want to scare me with my weakness?"

"You, is this how bad I'm on your mind?"

"CRC... Now I'm gonna turn that question around on you. Am I so bad in your eyes? You always thought I was the woman who always hurt your beloved sister-in-law."

"Hey, why did you bring Naina?"

"already, forget. I want to sleep." said Light, turning his back to Ryan.

Irritated, Ryan also went back up to his bed.

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The sunlight had already entered the cracks of Ryan's room window and the Light. The light that had looked fresh, chose to provide the clothes that Ryan would wear to the office. Because Ryan has to lead a meeting of his father-in-law's company later this afternoon. When he wanted to build Ryan up, how hurt he was when he saw Ryan sleeping while hugging a picture of Mesya.

"Is your love so great for her? Is my name no longer in place? It seems like your old love is not as big as your love for her." murmured Light in heart while stroking Ryan's hair.

Ryan, who closed his eyes, had a dream. In his dream he had an accident, and in that car he was with a woman. But he could not see clearly the woman's face, because the woman's face was still blurred in his memory.

The light that saw Ryan who was like he wanted to wake up, chose to go straight out of the room.

"No.." cried Ryan in cold sweat. Ryan looked at her.

"real dream...But it's like real." murmured Ryan while covering his face with both hands.

After the feeling calmed down, Ryan got up from his bed. He realized that the Light was no longer in their room and that there was an office shirt on the edge of his bed. There was a happy feeling in his heart because Light prepared clothes for him.

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Everyone had gathered at the dinner table, only Ryan had not yet come down from his room.

Richard and Jessie live in Rudi's mansion, because Rudi wants his mansion to be occupied if he is in Indonesia.

"Well." replied Light with a happy smile because then he for one day tomorrow he did not see Ryan.

"Oh, yes Jess as well as you choose the clothes that are suitable for Aya to wear for company events." said Andini.

"Every Aunt..."

"For everyone..." Ryan who just came down immediately greeted all his family who had gathered the dining room.

"Morning.." they answered simultaneously.

The light that saw Ryan wearing the clothes he chose, immediately smiled faintly. Ryan chose to sit beside the Light.

"Thank you." said Ryan in a soft voice. Although it was slow, Light could hear it and just nodded his head to answer Ryan's thanks.

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Ryan, Bisma and Light head for the company, while Rudi leaves later with Richard. Because of Ryan's request. Ryan wanted to see how his papa employees performed during the abandonment. Because from Richard's report there are several employees who are obliged to be disciplined.

"Bis, does everyone know we're coming?" ryan asked while focusing on his HP.

"No, sir."

"Good indeed... What about papa's arrival?"

"No one knows yet, sir."

"Remember no one ever knew who I really was"

"Good, sir..."

After half an hour they arrived at Rudi's company. No one knew of the arrival of the owner's son from the company. As they stopped in front of the company, Ryan looked at the security guard who was supposed to be standing guard in front, instead looking engrossed in conversation.

Ryan chose to continue his steps, the atmosphere of the company in the lobby looked very quiet. There was no receptionist at his place.

After that, looking at the atmosphere of the company lobby, Ryan went straight to the other place. How shocked Ryan was to see that his papa company employees looked so messed up. Most of them talk, not do their job.

After seeing everything, Bisma takes Ryan to the room that Ryan will use.

Tut's...Tut's...Tut's...

Ryan who had just entered his room saw his papa calling him.

"Hows it? Is everything okay?"

"Well how? Everything looks so messed up. Papa's employees seem to have everything disciplined!" ryan said with annoyance.

"Haha. That's why I want you to fix everything. Papa leaves it entirely to you, whatever decision you make, you'll follow"

"alright. Pa, tell Richard to announce this afternoon that everyone should be at the meeting!"

"alright. Now papa's heading there..."

"Okay, pa." Ryan turned off his phone.

"Miss of Light, where's the data Richard gave you last night?"

"This, sir..." The light gave one rather thick map to Ryan.

Ryan seriously read every piece of paper that the Light gave him. Bhishma and Light choose to remain standing to wait for Ryan's next orders on them.

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