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Apologies to Ryan

Ryan who looks handsome and cold disappeared in an instant when he saw the woman he loves and his future child who is still in the womb is not okay. Not a bit Ryan wanted to get up from his seat, since he until Ryan continued to hold his wife's hand. The doctor's words explaining his wife's current state were constantly ringing in his memory.

"The results of my examination, as a result of your wife often taking sedatives makes the content very weak. If it can survive the possibility of the fetus is born prematurely and if the child in the womb is born on time there is a possibility of experiencing respiratory disorders. Therefore please avoid the name of sleeping pills and I ask for a while Light's mother must be bad rest"

"Is the drug that is always in the drink is a sedative? Why should he drink it?" ryan murmured while clasping the Light's hand.

"I just found out that sister Aya always took sleeping pills after we arrived in this country. Every day Aya took the medicine, if she didn't take it then the dream that Aya's sister and Ryan's sister would always make her unable to sleep."

"Sir Aya only found out that she was pregnant after her gestational age entered eight weeks. At that time Aya's sister grimaced with abdominal pain and it turned out that Aya's sister was pregnant. The doctor said that Kak Aya's content had problems, because of the sleeping pills he always consumed. From that moment Aya's brother stopped the medicine, but it made her more agitated and not always having nightmares. Every night there will be screams and cries in his sleep, all for the health of the fetus in his sleep. It's just that Aya's brother can't stop working because he wants to give his best for his son he said" explained Kevin at length.

Hearing Kevin's words made Ryan's tears continue to come out, Ryan occasionally kissed the Light hand that was held.

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After two more hours they arrived at the Hospital, Light had not opened his eyes either. Ryan who saw his parents for a break told Bisma to take his parents for a break at the hotel. Kevin who heard about it offered to stay in their apartment. Their apartment was very close to the hospital where Light was treated. Because they agreed that Kevin would take Ryan's parents to rest.

The light opened his eyes and he felt his right hand feel extremely heavy. The light was very surprised to see a man clasping his hands while lowering his head down. When he wanted to talk, he heard the sound of crying.

"Si..what are you?" ask the Light nervously. Because he felt his heart beating so hard.

Ryan who heard the voice he had missed for several months straightened his head.

"Dear you wake up?" ryan said with a happy feeling. Because Ryan happily kissed the hand of Light from earlier continues to hold it.

"Thank you for finally waking up" Ryan said with tears in his eyes.

The light was very surprised it turned out that the man who had been crying while holding his hand was Ryan. The most surprising thing was Ryan's call for her. The call she always missed a few years ago. She is confused as to why Ryan calls her that, Ryan's affectionate call to her when they are dating.

"Ryan.." muttered Light in surprise.

"Yes, it's me baby, I remember everything" Ryan said with tears in his eyes.

"Hiks hyks... I'm sorry.... I've hurt you, I know that my mistakes are too big. But me, please forgive me... Hiks hyks.... I promise I make amends for my mistakes that easily forget you and hurt you...." Ryan could no longer hold himself back from crying, he did not care what the Light would think of him.

Light wanted to hug Ryan, but he recalled how Ryan insulted him and Ryan's shock at Mesya's departure led him to abandon his intentions. His disappointment with Ryan has not gone away completely. So he pulled his hand out of Ryan's.

Because the Light pulled his hand, making Ryan immediately grasp the Light's hand tightly.

"I beg you to go." said the Light, holding himself back from crying.

"I beg you to go. I want to be alone!"

"Can't you forgive me? A. I know I made a big mistake. But please forgive me, please give me a chance. I don't want to make you go through everything on your own like I did before" Ryan said.

Since Ryan didn't want to leave either, Light chose to close his eyes again. He tries to ignore Ryan, who continues to beg to be forgiven by him.

For half an hour Ryan kept crying while clasping his hands, Light still him and closed his eyes. Ryan who was initially unwell made his head more throbbing and his energy was drained. Ryan who feels that currently does not have the energy and needs the drug Ryan chose to get out of the Light room. He didn't want Light to know that he was sick right now.

The light instantly opened his eyes as he felt his hand no longer being grasped by Ryan. He looked at Ryan who wanted to leave. Actually he was not willing to leave Ryan, but the pain of his heart still dominates him.

"Ryan..."

"Sister Ryan...."

The light immediately rose to its feet when it heard a screaming sound from the front door of its room. The light quickly pulled out the needle it was holding.

"Ryan..." The light was shocked to see Ryan already lying on the floor with a pale face.

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The light is very upset with Kevin for being barred from getting out of his room. Though he wanted to see Ryan's situation, he was very anxious to see Ryan's situation like that. Moreover, he just realized that Ryan is getting thinner now.

"Alright if you don't let me see Ryan's situation. But please tell her what?" light is upset.

"Why should I tell you with Aya's sister? Didn't you just throw him out?" In fact, Bisma and Kevin heard all the talk of Light and Ryan. When Light wants to keep Ryan out, Kevin wants to go inside but Bhishma stops. Bisma says Kevin can't interfere.

"Hey... I kicked him out doesn't mean I don't care about him. I just wasn't ready to meet him" Light said.

"It's funny! Brother kicked him out but still care about it? Supposedly if Aya's brother kicked her out it means that brother doesn't care about her"

"Never teach me, Kevin. Quickly tell me what happened to him? And why could he be so skinny like that!"

"Do you want to know?" Light and Kevin immediately turned their heads towards the Already Bhishma standing before them.

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