IF.(.If)
Ryan's Story

While everyone is still busy with work, Light and Ryan are more fun to enjoy their togetherness. When Light asks Ryan to accompany her to watch, Ryan happily does so. Ryan spread out his body and placed his head on Light's shoulder, while his left hand was on Light's stomach. Squeezing his wife's stomach became one of Ryan's favorites from now on. Even though every time he got close to his wife made a part of her body wake up, Ryan could still try to hold her back. Because Ryan was so afraid that something bad happened to his wife's womb.

"Darling I sleepy." Whimpering Light, Light was actually very confused with himself somehow today he was so spoiled for Ryan.

"alright... I'll carry you..." The light instantly spread out both of his hands as Ryan said he would carry them.

Ryan carried the Light in a bridal style. When they got into Ryan's room, he put his wife down carefully, fearing that something bad might happen when he was about to put her down. After Ryan joined his wife to fall.

"Darling once again, I'm sorry, because I hurt you all this time" Ryan said, not tired of apologizing to Light.

The light immediately released his embrace and looked at Ryan who was now looking at him with a sad look.

"Can you tell me how your memories came back? Mr. Bhishma said that if you want to know, I have to ask you directly. Was it because of the accident?" spoken Light.

"Actually before the accident some of my memories came back" Ryan said, looking into the beautiful eyes of Light.

"Actually when you fell down the stairs that night, I left. Sorry, I didn't care about you at the time. My sense of disappointment dominated my mind at that time, so it doesn't care about you. Since mom and dad were defending you, I decided to concern myself with work. As I busied myself with work, the shadow of where I forced you to do it and found that you were unholy again made me more emotional and disappointed" Light was still silent to listen to Ryan's story.

"I threw my bag on the table, and saw a white envelope containing a letter for me. The letter that Mesya had given before he died."

"Letter?" great-glow.

"Yes, letter...." Ryan slightly searched his words.

"Do you know in the letter, it tells you who you really are. I was in shock and there were pictures of us together. Looking at the photos we make the face of the woman who has always been in my dreams clearly visible. I was very astonished to find out that the woman who has always been in my dreams is the woman I have hurt" Ryan said with teary eyes.

"I immediately decided to go home to the mansion, because I wanted an explanation from you, mama and papa. I'm carrying a car at high speed makes me not pay attention to the road. When I got the light from the car in front of me, made my memory return to everything. I'm sorry, honey, I've forgotten you all along. I made you live it all by yourself..." Ryan could no longer hold back his tears.

"Can I ask you something?" Ryan nodded his head.

"I don't know if I love him or not." Ryan said.

"What do you mean?" The light seemed very confused by what Ryan said to her.

"I don't know, I just know all this time I was just admiring the figure of Mesya. A gentle and clever woman, that is all I admire in her. Although my mother always said that I loved her very much, my heart did not say anything different. Moreover, every night I always dream of a woman, even though her face is not clearly visible my heart misses her very much. Every day I try to find out who the woman in my dreams is, all in vain. Mama knew that I was always trying to make my memories come back, so that's why Mama gave me some pictures of me along with Mesya. After that my mom forced me to marry Mesya and tried to convince me. I finally agreed to the marriage." Ryan stared at the Light who was still faithfully listening to him.

"Every day Mesya said his love for me, but I still never said that I loved him too. In fact, I always say the word love to the woman who is always in my dreams, even though I do not know her face. But I feel that I already love the woman in my dreams. Did you know when you came to my wedding with Mesya there was something different about me. My heart was pounding, especially when congratulating us it hurt"

"When we were two years old, Mesya was diagnosed with brain cancer and was barren. So that's why I feel so guilty with him, I feel guilty because I feel that I haven't been able to return his love. I also felt that if she was experiencing it because of me, she knew that I could not accept our marriage and knew that I could not love her yet. Every day he always reveals his love to me, while I until he died I have not said that I love him. When she asked to marry you, somehow my heart was pounding. I'm sorry, I rudely rejected you. I did it because I didn't want to make the same mistake. Because my love is only for the woman in my dreams. I don't care if the woman in the dream is real or just a sleeping flower"

"Does that mean that if your memory doesn't come back and if it turns out that I'm not the woman in your dream, you won't be looking for me?" The light wanted to know what answer Ryan would give her.

"I'm sorry.... Actually, to be honest, maybe I won't be looking for you. Because I still don't realize that you already have room in my heart. A space that never once was Mesya's name in it"

"meaning?"

"Actually I just found out that I'm already interested in you, your name fills all my mind and heart. Every time you get close to another man, I'm so jealous. I don't like it, let alone I can see clearly that some of my clients are very interested in you." Hearing Ryan's confession makes there happiness in him.

A very happy light immediately hugged Ryan tightly.

"Thank you baby you're gonna take me back. I can't stand to get away from you... I love you my Wife" said Ryan, hugging Light tightly and peeping his wife's forehead.

"I love you too my husband" hearing the love of Light made Ryan instantly seem very happy. This is what awaits the expression of love from the mouth of his wife.

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