
Bang Roni is Bang Sahim's college friend. According to Bang Sahim, Bang Roni
giving an enlightenment to
my problem. The reason Bang Roni also has problems with the same color image
like me, but I don't know what kind of colourblindness it is.
In addition, Bang Roni also has a mother who works in the hospital and an uncle of a doctor. Bang Roni will take me to his uncle's doctor's place to consult and gain enlightenment.
I sat down with Bang Sahim waiting for Bang Roni's arrival. After he came, we shook hands and became acquainted. Bang Roni was big and fertile. He was always happy and
laughter, giving happiness. In contrast to the thin Bang Sahim
and medium size bodies. Bang Sahim has a strong character and a big soul.
But the two friends can joke so that it melts the atmosphere to make it more
familiar. Bang Roni took me to see his uncle in his car.
I've been sitting opposite the doctor, Uncle bang Roni. Me and Bang Roni sat down
in front of the doctor's desk. The doctor opened the colorful Ishihara sheet. Bang Roni and I were asked to race to guess the numbers.
“Liel bearapa? Come Roni also ..” Mr. Doctor told us to say the numbers we saw.
“Saaatu.., the right is less clear Om. Wait a minute.”Jawab Bang Roni.
“Liel ..?” Ask the Doctor to me.
“One. Then next to him I think zero or nine.” My answer. I just look
an arch.
“Nol. Ten ...”
“Mmm. Zero also” My answer is still doubt it is zero or nine.
“Mmm
“ Mr. Doctor shakes his head,” is too risky in surgery. Too slow to make a decision.”
“Then how sir?,” my question.
“Adik will not graduate in cytology and microbiology courses. There we see the germs using a microscope. Demand eye foresight to see some colors that are difficult to distinguish.”
“Cannot. It's for your own good, too.” The Doctor's verdict was on me.
“…,”
Bang Roni silently looked at me.
“…,”
I'm keeping quiet. I remember Dad. I am threatened if this struggle continues with difficulty and fatigue, while destiny someday
said another, it is too risky to continue this fight.
Am I going to give up?
I finally gave up.”What about my father, Doctor?”. I tried to give the understanding to the Doctor that my problem was not just forward or backward. Not just the mind
unless there is love placed. Love Daddy. I'm afraid Dad doesn't love me anymore. Like Dad's plea to not let him down.
“It is heavy to say. Bitter indeed” replied Mr. Doctor,” If Liel can not
saying it. Let me give you an explanation.” Advice from Doctor.
I quickly shook my head.”No need sir. I'm willing. I believe my Dad will strongly accept reality.”
I finally decided to give up.
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“Snakes already peusijuek?” Ask Bang Roni inside
his car was driving me home to the boarding house.
“What Bang?”
“Peusijuek?”
the word he chose.
“Keunduri ? Thanks,”
reworked.
“Already Bang...” I again remembered the incident of the night when Dad held a thanksgiving pitcher at home.
Dad was so happy. Now I'm going to break his happiness. Affordability
Me?. While Bang Roni's car is getting closer to the boarding road. Right in front of the boarding house, I've seen Dad standing there. Of course he can't wait for the results of our consultation with the Doctor. Decisions that will be me and Dad
take the.
When the car stops. Dad approached us. He smiled in welcome, when the door of Bang Roni's car
opened. It was as if the happy news would be received.
“How was the result?”
Ask me impatiently.
“Dad...” I can't continue words.
“When ?!”
“...” I shook my head.
Bang Roni saw me. He couldn't even see Dad was disappointed.
“Means ?” Ask Dad back.
“No Father. Can't.” Reply firmly. My father's face changed. He's speechless. Sediam lagit tampa
wind and rain.
Like the rain
so sincere to water the arid earth. Rain faithful to the word of God,
never betrayed. Like a father who never once refused
ask for. That's why I never asked my father, but fate
forced to make my head shake on the ring road Darussalam. I
shake. I betrayed. For the first time I said no to the pinta
daddyh.
“Dad. I want to back off. I want to go home, Dad. I want to repeat the test again in next year.” My word
he said it quickly when my father was still silent.
Dad put both his hands in his hair, squeezing it. Bang Roni and I know how broken her heart is. My father looked away at the stars in the sky. Sky
The black Acehnese began to be brightened by the stars. The star of hope Dad has
fall over. The light fell to the earth. Then Dad said.” Daddy understands. Dad understands.” Her voice raspy.
“Everything I leave to you. You will live it. Be responsible for your path. Only prayer can I give.”
“All Father leave it to you.” Repeat Dad.
“Every Father loves
his son.” Dad hugged me.
Daddyh.
She cried. Like a sand daze in the waves when the tide is approaching. Her tears are dripping. My body feels like hell. Behind the lens of my eye, my tears are hardened. Flaming extinguish the incandescent fire of hell. The suaranyah
first time I heard. The azan smile holds hope. Her shadow, she carried me when I was a kid. He even invited me home from school
until SMA. My throat seemed to gulp the most bitter water ever created.
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