It's Okay Even If It Hurts
Episode 5 (Kim Nana Side)

*from the beginning to the end of this life in the Kim family based on the angle of Nana...

Living as a girl who can't walk for decades is so torturing to me. I am Hwang Nana a simple 5-year-old girl who lives happily with my own biological parents. At that time we will go to Busan to stay there. I am very happy to have parents who love me so much even though our economic situation is not so good.

But that joy did not last long. When we were joking around, we didn't realize there was a truck in front of us. I couldn't avoid it until it was a terrible accident... At the Hospital I woke up with my legs unmoved, I was crying hysterically calling my mom and dad. A doctor told me he would pay all my medical expenses until I was allowed to go home. When I was a kid and didn't understand what other people were talking about, I had to get my mom and dad to go to Heaven.

My crying became more and more so when my legs could not be moved at all. A week later, I was transferred to the Orphanage because I had no relatives. My days have improved since I lived in this orphanage, the children are so kind and they don't look at me any different from them. I don't have the cost of chemotherapy for both my legs to be able to walk like before. If I can be honest I would love to walk, run, crouch and do anything freely without always being tied to this wheelchair.

A year...

Two Year...

Five Year...

Eight years...

I have been a teenager for 8 years now. I lived my life at the Orphanage nothing changed in me, except for the presence of 2 boys who were about the same age as me only 2 years. They are children of a family who often give their donations to our Orphanage. Cho Kyuhyun and his cousin Choi Siwon. That's where my new life started....

Kyuhyun and Siwon often visit our orphanage in addition to playing with them and his parents are good friends with the owner. It was also because they were happy to get a new toy, which was me. One day I was sitting under a tree looking at other kids playing. 8 years I was here has changed a lot. Many children were raised to be children of distinguished families. While me.. I've always been unwanted because of the state of my feet that can't escape from a wheelchair.

"Your disabled girl is here." Siwon and Kyuhyun.

"Go I don't want to be disturbed."

"Why ? you're jealous because the other kids get parents while you don't ? kasanan..." Kyuhyun stood looking at me while Siwon was too engrossed in the beautiful scenery in front of him. Yep. The Orphanage I'm in is close to the tea garden. "But you pray that someone will make you their child."

"Go from before me. Why can't you be like Siwon who rarely bothers me."

Kyuhyun looked towards Siwon who was sitting on a swing, "Oh him.. He is in love you know what it means to be in love ?" Kyuhyun's face approached me, "Or don't you understand his name in love ?"

"Put your face out of my sight."

Kyuhyun smiled, "Arraseo. But..." Kyuhyun pushed me down from the wheelchair. Argh... Why is this guy a hobby to torture me once ?

"Yes !!! Quickly help me sit in a wheelchair !!"

"Shireo's.. You should try yourself to stand up and walk towards your wheelchair."

Arghh. Siwon oppa help me.."Siwon won't help you stop putting on a face like that." Said Kyuhyun and Siwon starting to leave from before me.

Before long came 2 foreign men, "Hey disabled girl. Why do I need help ?" They consist of 5 people. Oh God, I beg Siwon oppa to see me and help me immediately."

Yes !!! why are you so mean to this little girl ?" A girl I didn't know came to me.

"Who are you ??" ask one of them who represents what I was thinking at the time.

"I ? I'm Kim Via. And you guys ? Who are you and why bother him ?"

"I ? Cho Kyuhyun and this is my cousin Choi Siwon. Our family is the biggest donation in this orphanage. You'd better leave the disabled girl." replied one of them.

I grumbled. It is as if I am confessing someone else's name.

"Shireo's. From now on he is my brother. My foster sister. If you dare to watch out !" I round my eyes. I didn't hear wrong, did I ? foster sister ? This girl wants to make me her sister ? I'm the one who can't walk this.. Ah no. It can't be forever anyway because there's still hope I believe it.

"Kim Via's.... What are you doing here ?" Ask an ajhumma who came with 4 other people. I finally found out that the girl who helped me was Kim Via. Beautiful too. But...why are there 2 men behind them ? I know Kyuhyun and Siwon's name because people call their names so I know which one is Siwon and which one is Kyuhyun.

"They pushed my sister-to-be down." Kim Via refers to 2 people who claim to be Siwon and Kyuhyun.

"He ? That crippled girl wants you to make a sister ? That's right." Said a ajhumma. Ck. You think I want to be handicapped. Ash jinjja "

"Eomma. Let him be my brother and we can finance him so he can walk again like any human being." I swallowed spit. So that ajhumma is Via-ssi eomma. Which will be my step eomma. Omo.. Why is it like this ?

But... What did he say ?

Charge me until I can walk again ?

I didn't hear wrong, did I ?

Kyaaa I'm so glad to hear that.

Kim Nana you'll be able to walk again.

Finally they also found out your real name is Hwang Nana. And Kim Via my half-brother changed my margaret to his family surname, Kim. Kim Nana's. When my new parents were busy taking care of my adoption papers I saw Via quarreling with Siwon and Kyuhyun. Do they know each other ?

Oh my God, may this family make me walk again like I used to...

I hope to have a happy life and they love me like their own family.

A week has passed. My step-sister still couldn't accept me but, Kim Via whom I also knew if she was my step-sister also seemed to me so dear to me. I felt the warmth of a family. However, what I was thinking was not as beautiful as it actually was. I've always been insulted by my step-eomma. Sometimes Eonnie Via always helps me. I can't bother him. He's too good for me. I need to learn to walk.

Siwon and Kyuhyun also visited us more often. The devil's attitude is starting to not be too bad for me. He always accompanied me to the Hospital for check-ups and chemotherapy. Not to forget accompanied by Siwon and Via eonnie. Not long after a few weeks I got word that I would be betrothed to Kyuhyun. Oh God, why must that guy be a bully ? Why not a good and charming oppa Siwon. Well. I do seem to like or even love him. Don't know which one is right for me right now.

She's so nice. When I first set foot in private school I was very happy because since childhood I was studying by volunteers from among young people. I can feel how that school is. Not infrequently many children also endlessly ridicule me because I am still sitting in a wheelchair. Huft.. I have tried many times but I have failed and I have experienced tremendous pain in my feet. Luckily I was 1st school with Siwon and Kyuhyun. At least every time they go to school and go home they always take me. Hehe:P is like a bodyguard, right ?

When I was being bullied by other children, Siwon always helped and defended me. In contrast to Kyuhyun who participated in attacking and bullying me. Fucking devil padlocks. Satan because of his nature is so evil, but the puffiness is indeed distended stomach he ate too much so it was so. Siwon oppa was like a prince to me from the moment he helped and defended me it was what made me fall in love with him. But now why should I be with that puffed up guy ? I really don't accept it.

Even so...

Apakah Siwon juga mempunyai perasaan yang sama terhadapku ?

Does he like me like I like him ?

And crazier than that they live at home with me... Okay, I'm not fighting Siwon oppa..

But...

There's a demon padlock here ?

Did he accept me to be his future wife ?

I hope he rejects it completely..

Once upon a time, when I was busy seeing our pet dogs all playing in the backyard. Kyuhyun the devil puffed up in front of me. He invited me to speak up to 1 sentence which surprised me. He agreed to this match

But why ?

"Then why do you agree ?" I finally got the question I asked.

"I ? Of course because I want to reduce your eonnie burden."

I didn't hear wrong, did I ?

So, she likes my eonie ?

Isn't that nice ?

But why is there something in my heart that feels sliced when I hear it ?

"I answered that it had no effect."

Of course there is a stupid demon effect.

"Of course there is. If you like her, just get married and get close to her. Then I can be freed from the devil from you."

Kyuhyun. What else is wrong with him ?

Why is his face a little disappointed ?

"Do you like Siwon Hyung ?" His question.

Of course I like it. But I can't say it. I don't know why my heart and my lips can go like this.

"I answered that there was no effect, right ?"

"Yes !!! don't follow my words."

"I'm not following. I just answered in accordance with the reality. I like your Siwon Hyung can indeed change if Siwon oppa will become my husband. Sure didn't. I trust you more to look after me than Siwon oppa. And if I didn't like Siwon oppa then what would you do ? At least you'll just be crazy."

"If you don't like me then let me approach your eonnie." I looked towards him.

Not mishearing, right ?

It's good if that's so.

Despite that...

Does he really like eonnie ?

When we were eating in the dining room I didn't see Eonnie there. Where is eonnie ? I ventured to ask eomma but all I got was her scolding. Huft, when can his affection be equal. Always the numbered Eonnie. Kim Nana you should be self-conscious if you're a foster child.

Eommas..

Can I just ask for a little bit of your love and your love for me just as much as your love for Via eonnie ?

At night I was on the balcony of the backyard. Siwon opp came over and sat down beside me.

 "Pampered lady you're here ?" Ash Choi Siwon oppa I'm not spoiled. >,

"You're not mad if I sit here ?"

"You mean ?"

"Yes..who knows you don't want to be close to me because you don't want Kyuhyun to misunderstand." =,= where maybe misunderstand precisely he was happy because he had a chance to get and get close to Via eonnie.

"We're gonna be sisters-in-law for what she's jealous of."

"You really love her ?"

"Eitherway. I'm thinking of eonnie rather than this matchmaking problem."

"Why ?"

"Eonnie's always been trapped in this house. Ever since I was in this house for the first time, I rarely saw eonnie have friends and always studied with teachers or private lecturers. When I asked Appa, eomma and eonnie Via they just answered if she wanted to be home instead of outside. Though the world is very beautiful and vast if eonnie wants to go around. Eonnie is isolated from the outside world. He doesn't have any friends unless you two are not even lovers. If I'm in eonnie's position then I'm going crazy."

I can finally get all my junk out of here all along. It was only Siwon that I made the place I was leaning all this time when I was sad or there was a problem. I looked at Siwon oppa speechless. What is he thinking ?

"I wish eonnie could be happy with the man she loves. If I could walk again, I could take eonnie for a walk."

I was like a fool talking to myself. Come on Siwon oppa speak.

Uh..

Siwon oppa crying. The first time I saw him cry. What's wrong with her ?

Oppa don't make me sad by seeing you weak like this ?

What happened to you ?

In the middle of the night we all woke up to hear Kyuhyun screaming. Ash why is he so noisy ? I saw a servant opening the door of my room immediately I asked him to put me in a wheelchair and then push this wheelchair towards the kitchen. As soon as I get to Eonnie, he's passed out. Siwon oppa carried him to the room.

Siwon oppa... Your face is so worried ?

Only Eonnie fainted can you be like this ?

I feel claustrophobic.

I'm jealous.

Eonnie got it all.

Even Siwon oppa..

This is not fair..

"Eonnie got it all. Love eomma and appa, attention from you, even Siwon oppa seems to like it." I tell the truth in my heart.

"So you indirectly like Siwon Hyung ?"

I nodded, "You already know that. It won't change everything."

"If I ask Siwon to take my place you want to ?"

"You crazy ? I don't want to ruin his relationship with eonnie."

Do I have to do that ?

"Kc.. You're jealous of your own brother ?"

"I'm not just jealous..."

"Just ?"

"I envy her."

Yeah, that's a matching sentence.

I envy Kim Via eonnie.

Very envious...

~END~