It's Okay Even If It Hurts
Episode 6: (Siwon Side)

What kind of romance is this. I'm used to hearing 3rd-sided love or whatever it is but this is crazy.. Segi 4 and all clapping one hand. Everybody's hurt. I don't know what to do. Hearing that Via had a bad condition since childhood even more so that I could not get far from him. Even more so when I knew that he liked Kyuhyun. I can't do anything either. Okay you think I'm a coward for not taking it from Kyuhyun, not making him fall in love with me, never expressing my love for him...

I don't want to increase the burden anymore by thinking about my feelings. It's enough he's dizzy and suffering because the damn lungs are not working. His sadness grew even more when he heard that Kyuhyun and Nana would be betrothed. Kim Nana, if only you knew your eonnie's disease what you'd do...

You're going to give up Kyuhyun for him ?

Or don't..

Ahhh.. What a complicated and annoying love I've ever had. Maybe you're wondering why I like Kim Via actually I suspected something happened to her since childhood. Since Via was 6 years old and I and Kyuhyun 8 years old. We are just a different age than the moon.

~Flashback~

At that time we were busy playing swings in the backyard of Via's house. That little girl is so beautiful and sweet. "What are we going to play ?" little Kyuhyun asked the two of us. Me and Kim Via.

"What if it's a chase ? Who wins then he is the one who is free to rule for 1 day ?" My advice.

They agreed. We play scissors, stones, paper to determine who loses. It was Kyuhyun. Me and Via immediately ran to avoid Kyuhyun. If that little guy can touch one of us both then he loses. I ran into Via's house. Before long I heard Kyuhyun cheering happily because Via managed to touch him. I saw Via sitting on the grass but why was his face so pale ? Soon I called my parents and my parents.

Eventually, he was taken to the hospital. Kyuhyun and I don't know why or what happened to Via. We obviously got angry from Via's parents. That little girl can't run around. When I asked why they didn't answer. Since that incident Kyuhyun and I have only been allowed to play computer games or study. Huft.

"I'm sorry that I got y'all scolded." Said the little Via while we were in his room.

"You sick ?" (Kiyoda)

Via shakes.

"Then, why did you fall to the ground ?"

"Just short of breath. My body may be too weak and never exercise."

"You want to take me out of the house ? I want to go to the playground, to the mall and to the beach."

"Yes, as long as you grow up to be a beautiful girl someday I'll take you." Little Kyuhyun left us both.

"You're really okay ?" manyworry.

"I'm fine Siwon oppa."

"See oppa bring what for you ?"

"Kyaaa. Via's favorite doll."

Seeing her smile was something I wanted to keep doing. I smiled as I lightly ruffled her hair. She is a sweet and obedient girl. ~Flashback End~

For the first time I cried and it was in front of Kim Nana knowing how weak Via was from the aboenim. I didn't expect my sweet little girl to grow up to be the girl who had to endure the internal state of her body all by herself. I would love to be by his side if I needed to wish I was betrothed to him in order to be with him every day. But all of that is in vain is not it..

It seems that Via likes Kyuhyun, as seen from the way he looks at Kyuhyun when talking to Nana. Via passed out a lot and it always scared me. Last time when in the kitchen Kyuhyun screamed for help. When I reached Via on the floor immediately I took him to the room.. I'mfrightened... So scared...

I'm afraid he's gone forever..

I'm afraid he left before I said I liked and loved him a long time ago...

I'm afraid I can't live without him...

~END~

*End from POV side Siwon