It's Okay Even If It Hurts
Episode 7: (Kim Via Side)

No one wants to be born imperfect, including me. Being born into a wealthy family certainly doesn't make me happy. The story of our lives will be guaranteed and happy if we become rich children. Ck. I'm really sick of that line. What happiness ? I got the misery because my lungs weren't working properly.

Sometimes I want to cry but it's free..

Wanting to scream won't result in anything..

I killed myself. I felt more sorry for my parents..

Luckily there is Kim Nana I can count on right now..

Although there is no me in this world at least appa and eomma still have Kim Nana. Now there's nothing I can do but wait until God picks me up. About love ? I prefer to stay silent. Yep.. I really like Cho Kyuhyun. I don't know why ? Every time I see him looking cold and cold is different from Siwon oppa who looks good to me. I was delighted even more when Kim Nana was betrothed to Kyuhyun.

I knew I should be self-aware..

People who are sick and will die are not worthy and do not have to get the love they want.

You know I've never dated at all. Ja. Because from childhood until the age of 20 years now I have always been silent at Home. Walking out of the house only sometimes 1 year it must always be escorted by bodyguards as well as sisters. Ahh. I hate myself.

I want to be free wherever I go.

I envy Nana.

Although his legs are not completely paralyzed at least he can walk if he wants and tries. He can go wherever he wants.

Me ?

Just always stuck in my room and can't do anything I want.

Really sucks.

I once tried to escape from home:P hehehe

The result was that I went to the hospital because I was too tired and also short of breath.

For 20 years this place I've been not far from my own Hospital and Home.

I want to be free for a day without the influence of drugs and doctors. Can ?

Kim Nana and Cho Kyuhyun seem to have gotten worse since Eomma said they would be betrothed.

Well, I admit my heart hurts to hear it.

What can I do.

There's no way I'd be willing to have Cho Kyuhyun live with a girl who's not as old as me.

I know myself about it.

Sometimes I am sad to see Kim Nana always insulted and scolded by eomma. I feel guilty for him. I shouldn't have taken her to this house and not made her my foster sister. I chose Nana because I saw she was so strong and fit in with the Kim family. Kim Nana I'm sorry...

You can go anywhere you go without having to think about your weak body. Siwon and Kyuhyun are always there for you too. Appa loves you very much..

You got everything..

The perfect body.... Even if your feet are like that, but you have a high chance of healing.

And I have no hope of recovery.

One day I was thirsty and wanted to take a drink in the Kitchen but I fainted from the exhaustion of just walking up and down the stairs. Ash. Why do I have to have lungs like this... Things got worse when Siwon found out about my true situation. I don't want him to feel sorry for me. I'm tired enough of this body condition that can't do anything. Just going up and down the stairs has made me tormented.

"Why did Appa tell him about my situation ?" I asked after Siwon oppa left.

"What's wrong ? He seems more worried about you." (Appaiku)

"Appa want to match me with him ?"

"You think ?"

"Appa we just change positions then. I'm with Kyuhyun let Kim Nana with Siwon."

"This is not a toy that you should exchange couples as well. Now you sleep if there's anything call us."  Appa and Eomma are gone. Huft.is it wrong if I ask for 1 Thing only...

Let me be with Cho Kyuhyun for a day ? I didn't ask him to take care of me ? I didn't ask him to be betrothed to me. Okay, my request was just a joke. Enough to accompany me. Just being by my side. Am I wrong ? I have repeatedly asked God to pray and cry for my healing. I know I'm stupid to blame God. But try to be in my position. Every day locked in the house. Just being in bed. Want to eat and drink alone must ask the help of the waiter.want to go to the Doctor accompanied by the Guards.

I can't make my parents happy.

I only gave them prolonged suffering from having to think about this unlucky disease.

My life is really just waiting for death.

I had surgery or a lung transplant ? there is no belief I will be healed.

Kim Nana's..

I envy you because your physique is perfect..

I envy you for breathing and not having to be asphyxiated in doing little things.

Kim Nana's...

You're my brother I love the most..

Replace me if I am no longer in this world..

Please take care of Appa and Eomma...

~END~