KINARA (Tresno Soko Kulino)
The S2 Part 3

At ten o'clock in the past 25 minutes Hanan and I just got home.we both got off right on the highway and walked into the hallway towards our two houses.

Mas Hanan really kept his word since we had just boarded the taxi, he was sitting right next to the driver and I was sitting in the passenger seat at the back. until we got off on the asphalt road of the village axis and entered the hallway of Bulik Sri's house and the house of his parents.

Passing through several neighboring houses that have been tightly closed because the occupants have been sleeping makes me occasionally look back because of the creeps and a little afraid to walk through the yard of the residents' homes.

Rumah Bulik Sri is indeed a bit far from the big road or the main road of the village, so entering here must walk 200 meters and then arrive at the house of Bulik Sri.

"Thank you Hanan for his help today, I entered the house first assalamualaikum" I told Hanan when I arrived at the door of the house Bulik Sri.

"Waalaikumsalam miss" he replied without turning to look at me. I was a little uncomfortable but as much as possible I was behaving normally.

I knocked on the door of Bulik Sri house with guilt because it was late at night. Without waiting for a long time the door opened, the figure of Bulik Sri stood right in front of me with a look of wonder.

"Who do I think, how are these nights coming home, who is it? loh Gus Hanan, how come it's here too?" asked Bulik Sri immediately made me look back, I think that Hanan already came home to his house when I turned to knock on the door was apparently still standing in front of the bamboo fence.

"Injeh Bulik, was asked to pick up the lady at the mosque near the Maghrib ba'da park" he explained without anyone being covered.

"Yes, he has come in, sleeps at night" said Bulik Sri and I followed him.

When I was about to go to the bathroom I saw the front door was still open and the living room lights were also bright. I ignored and continued to go to the bathroom to clean myself before going to bed.

"Sorry Bulik, I just run the order, I don't know if Miss is in the city park, I'm just on the phone just ask to pick it up" Hanan said with a guilty look.

",Yes no papa, the important thing is that you go home safe, tomorrow morning I ask for an explanation from the sampean Gus, not karo tonggo" replied Bulik Sri unpleasantly.

"Pamit Bulik, assalamualaikum "

"The waalaikumsalam "

Bulik Sri hastened to close the front door after Hanan went to his house.Bulik sri's erratic feeling returned to his room.

I had heard their conversation in front of the house, there was guilt also in the heart had involved Hanan for my problems. but I don't know who to ask in this small town away from my father and my two brothers.

I was thinking it might be better if I would explain to Bulik and Paklik tomorrow morning after breakfast. since dad is visiting the city seeing his two red baby grandchildren so I better talk about my problems and Reno to them here.

I pulled the blanket to the chest.I taped the prayers as usual before going to sleep.The shadow of Reno mas who had passed in front of the mosque suddenly flashed in my mind.

I grabbed the phone on the dresser, I reopened the last message from her before I saw her passing in front of the mosque. I calculated the distance when Reno sent the message and when I came out of the mosque waiting for Hanan's taxi order.

My feeling is that if it's true he was there at the time because I said he was at the mosque when Reno called me last time.

I read her messages over and over again, making my heart even more agitated, was she okay on the way home which took almost all day?

My heart is not in line with my thoughts this time. Many times I call Reno mas number but remain inactive, he said, until 01.25 in the morning I finally lost with a tremendous drowsiness to make me immediately fall asleep.

In the corner of the border town Reno stopped at one of the inns because it was past midnight and he was really tired and sleepy.

After making a reservation, he headed to the room he had booked. Reno activated the phone that he had accidentally turned off because of a long trip.

Many incoming calls and messages from Keisya as well as Azka and Dimas. Reno opened one by one a message from Keisya last fifteen minutes ago.

"Mas, where have you arrived, if tired of stopping at the inn, continue tomorrow, greetings to mother yes"

Without realizing it, tears welled up in the corner of his eyes. Reno is intrigued by her guilt reading Keisya's last message.

"This will not be fair to you Kei if we get married, I don't want you to be hurt by my attitude, I accept you only in return and not others Kei, sorry, sorry, forgive me" Inner Reno.

"From tomorrow I have to change the number and all my sosmed has to be deactivated" he murmured as he read repeatedly Keisya's last message to sleep.

***

I woke up after the dawn prayer was over, I rushed out of the room and headed to the bathroom to clean myself. I faintly heard the conversation Bulik Sri and Paklik Kardi in the kitchen back. because the bathroom is still connected to the house while the kitchen is separate outside.

"Mas Hadi, would you like to talk about opo sir?" (Mas Hadi said what, sir?)

"Mas Hadi nek hospital, disease e relapse, mbene Keisya Yo Ra spirit". (Mas Hadi was hospitalized, his illness recurred, and Keisya did not know yet)

"Lah kepiye ceritane iso mlebu neh Ki hospital?" (Well how did the story get sick again?)

"Keisya Karo calone Ra dadi buk" (Keisya is equally likely to be married buk)

"Loh, la gari sak sasi maneh how to cancel Ki piye? gok Yo Keisya seng mbatalke opo calone?" (Loh stay another month how to cancel? Keisya who cancels or the candidate?"

"O Allah, it is the pantes mambengi bocae teko matane Aboh" (Oh Allah pantesan last night his son came his eyes moist)

"Keisya teapot buk?" (Keisya came buk?)

",Is that Ra eroh sir? mambengi teapot on terne Gus Hanan at ten o'clock"

(Not knowing? last night came between Gus Hanan at ten o'clock)

"Why iso i piye?" (can you anyway?)

"Mengko njalok explanation Gus Hanan sir" (Later I ask an explanation from Gus Hanan).

Little understood their conversation that I had heard.what hospital father entered because my matchmaking and Reno was off or because of something else.

Arriving in the room I was pensive considering everything I would do after coming out of this room. was about to contact my father afraid if it would make him worse because of my problems and Reno. calling Kinar's sister this early is also impossible because she is usually busy taking care of her two babies.

Ringing the device on the dresser stopped my daydream, the name of the Reno mas is listed on the main screen. mas Reno was making a video call. I was hurrying I shifted the green button and our call was connected.

I saw him just silently staring at me with a tired face without intending to start a conversation.

"What's wrong?" ask me to start a conversation

"There's nothing, you're all right?" tanyanya. I smile discordantly.

"Why do you think?" ask me back

"Sorry Kei, I'm sorry maybe this is the last time we talk, you don't have to think strangely about everything that's in here my responsibility, because I did it and I have to take responsibility for my mistakes" he said at length.

"Yes, it's up to you"

"i'm sorry, if one day we meet again, I hope you can forgive my mistakes, and I hope you live a better and happier life in the future"

"Yes" just that one word alone could represent my current feelings.

What else I have to do, all the decisions have happened and it's your will, not mine. I've been trying to align and solidify myself for three months, but you yourself are asking for this to end.

"Key"

"Yes?"

"I have to go, once again forgive me"

"Yes"

Tut

The connection was broken and I was stunned for the umpteenth time. This separation was not what I wanted but what should I do if he himself wanted us to separate.

I've started to feel comfortable with her mother but she's also the one who broke my comfort after all these decades I don't feel the aura of a mother.I'm disappointed with her inconsistent attitude. I was hurt by all his decisions.

I did not realize that Bulik Sri had been sitting in front of the dressing table since I was busy crying over my farewell and Reno.

"Sir, breakfast first yuk, it's seven o'clock you cry daritadi is not tired?" bulik Sri said gently rubbing my hair. I immediately ran into her arms I poured out all my cries in her arms. Bulik Sri still faithfully rubbed my hair gently with love and I realized if she also joined in crying because my shoulders were wet with tears.

"Oh, there's Ummi Tin and Gus Hanan in front" said Paklik Kardi in front of the room door.

"See, please wait a minute, sir"

"Udah nduk, Bulik there are guests, until the breakfast chepet yes, later paklik delivery to the cottage, Arini had called he said until only one day permission" said Bulik Sri took off her embrace and then rubbed my cheeks with her warm palms.

"Sufferful Yo, Gusti Allah has prepared a better substitute, a calm ya pray continues to Allah, the road is still long" advised Bulik Sri to me.

"Enggeh"

Bulik Sri came out of the room and met his guests who were none other than the front neighbors of the house.whether what they were talking about, I heard Ummi Tin like angry at Bulik Sri and filed accusations that were not good to me.

"Mom already, Hanan already said only carry out the duties of the boss, that's all, Hanan cooperation Pak Hadi that means all the families of Mr. Hadi's boss Hanan who must be respected, that is, if you're angry you don't have to vilify non Keisya, he doesn't know anything Mom, understand?" said Mas Hanan loudly and I still heard from the room.

Hanan's words to her mother really made me shake my head.Is this really the Hanan I know?