KINARA (Tresno Soko Kulino)
The Dilemma of a Decision

At Mr. Wibowo's residence

Kinara Pov's

Today I am very tired after struggling with a daily repetition of 3 maples at once my head feels tired, very tired..!! Plus now my father's condition is critical even though I can still talk to him but still I'm not calm.

Arriving at home I immediately lay down my body on the kingzise after changing clothes and performing the prayers that had been delayed when I went to the hospital to visit my father.

Tok tok tok tok

"Non nara.lunch was ready aunt at the table" said Mbok Jum behind the door.

I immediately stood up and stepped open the door.

"Hey, let's eat with me, huh?"My love for him.

"Good non". Answer mbo jum.

Mbok Jum is my servant and nanny and Kak Revan since childhood. And since the first father and mother always invite and Mbok Jum and Mr. Asep to eat with one table.

Father and mother never distinguish the status of this house for all humans are the same in the eyes of God only faith alone distinguishes. Our family loved them very much.

Every year when we go home we always visit their homes to stay in touch.

Mbok Jum and Mr. Asep were neighbors in our village before we decided to move to the city because the father's business was growing and since then the father and mother invited them to come along stay together.

"How are you doing Zilvi now?"I asked after finishing my eating ritual.

"Alhamdulillah non have been able to walk and have started talking". Answer mbok jum

"When again yes I can see Zilvi mbok I miss being lonely at home since mom is not around. Dad is also in a weak condition plus Kak Revan is now getting busy with his new position on campus." lamented on mbok jum

"It will be non if Ririn and her husband have time to play here again. Kasian is also Zilvi if invited wiri wara is still small." said Mbok Jum.

"So now Ririn has started teaching again and her husband is now busy with his food stall business" she added.

"Mbok, Nara wants it" said Nara

"What non?"

"Bok, you want to marry me".

"Bibik is not wrong, is it non?" tanyanya.

"So bik! last time you looked at my father in the hospital, father talked to me and I had to give a decision as soon as possible considering the condition of the father is not possible." did not feel clear bulir fell on my eyes.

"Non, you can't make a decision this fast if it's not for the good of Non either, there's definitely a reason why you're doing it. Remember Non all will be beautiful in time" advice mbok jum.

"Mbok think it's time Mbok actually said." he added.

"I mean mbok??"nara asked in shock.

"Emm gini non.so how to start yes" replied Mbok Jum while scratching his nape that does not itch.

"What the hell is mbok?ask Nara curiously.

"Gini.. Actually, the father and his friend had promised that he would match Non with his youngest son, a friend of the father, exactly 15 years ago when his mother's birthday.

"His father and friend made the deal. At that time he was not 3 years old and his friend's son father was also 3 years old, at that time the last meeting of his father and friend because his friend had to manage his business in Germany in his wife's hometown.

"And 2 weeks ago I have said the same mbok if his friend has returned to indo and will settle here because his company in Germany has been given to his eldest son to manage. And he came back to continue his business here while keeping their promise 15 years ago" Mbok Jum said

Degs...

My heart aches to hear it but I can't do anything about it.

And what do I have to do what about all my dreams?

I'm not ready to get married. And the condition of the father is also not good at this time. Which one should I decide??

I can't feel my tears falling without my permission to wet my clothes.

As soon as I stepped my feet ran into the room and closed it hard.

Braaakkk

The door of my room closed hard.

"Why does this have to be God what should I decide??

"I'm not ready to get married young but I can't go against my father's request either".

"Who's the guy you've been dating for me??"

"Can I love her later or will I hurt her?"

Aarrrggghhhh

"Momuu Nara misses Mom..."

"Nara has to be how ma'am..."

"Nara doesn't want to marry young, Nara still has dreams.."

"answer me ma'am..."

The kinara pov end

Author pov

Kinara was still as unwilling as she clung to her grand kingsize while staring at the image of her late mother.

He was too late in his crying to fall asleep. Unbeknownst to him Mbok Jum was standing in front of the door of his room patiently hearing everything to shed his tears.

A few moments later

"Mothers..Nara misses mom"ngek Nara

"Yes, I want you to miss you, too.be patient, son.remember mom will always support you and always be by your side." answered her mother while stroking the child's hair.

"Mothers..Mother. Igau Nara in her dream.

Kinara was still asleep in his dream until it was not felt that the king of the afternoon would return to his contest.

The clock shows at 16:00 pm did not feel 2 hours passed after Kinara's conversation with Mbok Jum this afternoon at the dinner table.

His eyes show dark circles under his eyes.

Her body felt sore after 2 hours of crying in the room to sleep soundly. I don't know what decision he has to make.

While struggling with his thoughts, the ringing of the device on the nightstand awakens his consciousness.

"Who the hell?" while taking his gawai."Brother Revan tumben nelfon jam this" he murmured.

"Assalamualaikum what the hell is it??" ask Nara

"Are you up on deck??it's late afternoon loh so don't be kewe donk" replied his brother in sebrang

"Yes, don't snack on donk and idung lo pug".canda Revan

"Kak Revaann iihh very nice" shouted Nara.

"Yes sorry. Yes, now you are ready for the deck we want to go to the hospital, so my father has pesen to pick you up at home."Revan said then hung up the phone quickly so as not to get his sister's babble again.

"Ihh kak Revan really habit of covering up the phone at will." he said while saving his salary back. And walk to the bathroom to clean up.

It did not take long he came out of the bathroom complete with pink salem with brocade accents on his arms and neck and a small ribbon on the back. What a paripurna appearance.

He immediately took a prayer tool and performed Ashar prayers. He finished praying, he ended praying.

"Allahumma Sholli 'Ala Sayyidina Muhammad Wa Ala Alaihi Sayyidina Muhammad..O Allah forgive all the sins and faults of my parents, love them as much as they love me.

"O Allah, if this is the best thing for me and my family and the families of my future husband and descendants in the afterlife, I will accept this match. Give healing to my father and forgive my mother's sins, lay down her grave and give the most beautiful place in Your side Yes Robby Amiiin Ya Robbal Alamin".

Kinara Prayer

After the prayer he immediately got ready.

Polishing a little of his face so as not to look sembab.Wearing thin liptin match with the robe and pashmina that he wears.

Nara is good at dressing up though simple but does not eliminate the impression of elegance because her face is already beautiful plenary even without make up.

Tok tok tok tok

Mbok Jum knocked on the door and opened it slowly after immediately smiling as his eyes fell on his beloved miss.

"Non is very beautiful" said Mbok Jum praised.

"Thank you but my dear coin money already made mbok jum hahaha". Canda Nara's.

"Last noon Revan called mbok nanyain non and mbok said no more sleep."

"Mbok apologize yes non about this afternoon any decision non, mbok will always be at the forefront of supporting non.Take the right decision and leave all the same Allah swt there must be a way." advice Mbok Jum.

"Sir papa mbok was indeed my condition was not fit and I was still shocked by the father's request, honestly I was not fully ready, but if it is fate that Nara must live yes Nara must be sincere mbok.

Nara does not want to hurt Dad and sister Revan and the family of future husband Nara later if it has been decided for a long time. Everything is beautiful in time. Isn't that mbok??" he explained to mbok Jum.

"Masya Allah ...non has grown up now exactly alm mother." added mbok Jum amazed.

Thiin tiin tiin

The sound of a car horn came from the front of the gate.

"Yes Nara said yes. Take good care of the house. Assalamualaikum" said he kissed Mbok Jum's right hand.

"Waalaikumsalam warohmatullah wabarokatuh heart non" replied Mbok Jum.

"A very long deck? Not dandan idung lo still can not be pug"

Ledek Revan teases his sister.

"So much so be a guy. Cepetan ntar dad wait for us later."reply Nara ketus.

"Any prospective bidadari of heaven. Revan replied and immediately launched his vehicle.

In the middle of the trip Revan pulled his car over on the left side of the road which was quite quiet.

"Well, brenti, brother?"

"Wait a moment I'll take Lutfiah's seat first."

"Owh ya already all nitip greetings for camer hehe 😁😁"

"Listen cengir wae.by the way ndiri 😏"

"That's a splinter"

Revan got out of the car walking towards to a small stall across the street.

"Assalamualaikum Mrde Rowi.."

"Waalaikumsalam Nak Revan yes.. Come on in here."

"Sorry sir, I can't stay in the hospital for long. This is a package from Lutfiah he said can't go back because he wants a thesis hearing."

"Oh yes thank you. Just called me nanyain package already nyampe pa not yet. Who's sick to Revan?"

"My father is sick, sirde. Yes, I'll excuse you, sirde"

"Monggo-monggo greetings to your father, may heals soon"

"Yes Pakde thanks Assalamualaikum"

"Waalaikumsalam". "the boy was very polite if he were my ghost unfortunately Lutfiah already had a choice" muttered Pakde Rowi seeing Revan's departure.

"Udah? Just met his camer"🤨🤨

"Bawel very you so adek..😒"

"Sampe when do you keep your relationship identity? From the time of college S1 until now has been a Master still playing cat-kissan." kilah Nara

"Wait for Lu first I'll follow next year." Answer Revan

Blamm

As if unable to say anymore Kinara silent a thousand languages. Revan's spontaneous speech made him unable to speak a word.

If he could turn things around he would ask not to be born. The heavy decision he had to take today became the determinant of his future that was not yet clear.

"You made a decision, right? This time, it was my father's will. Brother can't do anything deck because all of this has been set up by me since you were little."

"Weight brother" said Kinara sobbed

"Nobody beside you, I always say we must be ready to accept whatever destiny God has written in our lives."

"But brother I still want to go to college, I want to be a designer, how do I dream my²?"

"Udah cup cup this time we love the heart of father huh. Ikhlasin. Just the dad we have now deck. Brother does not have the heart to refuse the father's request, plis do not cry brother can not see you like gini. All dads do it for you deck, someday you can understand all this."

"Heem" Kinara said as she nodded in her brother's arms.

"we walked this afternoon"

📿If he is good for me and your religion the world of the Hereafter then bring us closer your way with RidloMU, but

If he is not best for me and your religion, keep him away.📿

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