KINARA (Tresno Soko Kulino)
The S2 Part 20

"Today's my schedule of day therapy at 01.30, his afternoon deposit of memorization juz 30, night nsaji buku Ta'lim until 22.00, tomorrow morning at 05.00 jogging, at 08.00 to the foundation, the, at 10:00 to learn to prepare for college for the new school year" I murmured when I saw the schedule set by the Minister of Education.

I have been living with Kinar for two months now, and for two months my interactions with his family have become increasingly familiar.

Not only that my good relationship with Hanan is also like a sister. not infrequently we throw jokes at each other when I just finished short surah memorization deposit or after teaching the book that he himself as my teacher.

Just like today, after breakfast I did not go anywhere. after everyone went with each busy I was alone with a bik Siti cleaning the flowers of the collection of mama in the back garden.

After the renovation of his house was completed, Kinar planned to move to his own house.when I asked him the answer was only "Something you will understand when you are married Kei".

Sometimes I also feel annoyed with my twin brother.Every thing I ask always gives me a gray answer so I have to find an answer myself. as a result I always ask everything I want to know there is Hanan mas. because he always gives me answers that are so logical and realistic even though I do not immediately understand anything he said.

Once I asked about Reno mas Hanan when we were hanging out in the afternoon cafe after I went to therapy. whether it was just my feeling or not the look on Hanan's face turned upset and every time I asked him something he just answered as necessary and a little bit sniffy, and it continued for a week.

Since that day I no longer want to ask about Reno mas Hanan because Arini once reminded me if I have to be careful with the attitude of Hanan mas not to make her angry.

I apologized to her one week later but her response was beyond my expectations. Mas Hanan apologized first for being bad to me, and humbled himself if he did not deserve to pair himself with Reno.

Because I felt strange about Hanan's attitude, when the man came home to the boarding house, I told Kinara and she just smiled and said, "Hanan likes you Kei, she said, mbak can tell that from the look in his eyes when you are together either teaching or whatever, there is a longing and loving gaze from both eyes when looking at you".

Since then now I keep my distance from Hanan, although occasionally I respond to his jokes when we just finished murojaah or teach the book.

Not that I stay away from hating or feeling uncomfortable, I just feel I am not used to being admired by someone. Moreover, when mbak Vivi asks about my true feelings for Mas Reno. I've been worrying ever since.

And today because of my schedule of daytime therapy, my job to help make Siti clean up is also done. I decided to open a new social media account a few months ago because it was Kinara who asked me and taught me to make it.

I open the blue application page and see some notifications coming into my homepage. there was one notification in my status comment column that I made this morning when I was about to clean up in the back garden.

One of the accounts commented on the photo of the flowers I posted on my pose.

"Secretty people neng, no loss men who can dapetin you except losers 🤭🤣🤣" wrote one account named Rinscorpio.

A little amused to read his comments but still I reply "thank you for the praise om". I wrote in the reply to his comments.it's up to the person to be angry even if I call it om, om, I don't know him, but his profile picture is just a Japanese cartoon icon.

I closed the blue app account and switched to the green app. I saw some chats from some of my friends overseas who had coincidentally met me while at the airport to move to another country.

I used to steal time to meet people I met at the airport accidentally. because the compassionate monk who became my nanny who taught me it secretly even made Asih also introduced me to the outside world without the knowledge of papa Anthony.

I did save some names and addresses and cell phone numbers of some people I met at the airport when we met accidentally and apparently it also works today.

I made a lot of new friends and new things after Kinara helped me create some social media accounts.

When I was texting my best friend abroad, there was a mysterious message from a number I didn't know.

📩

"If one day you are tired, stop waiting for something that you cannot achieve, it may not be your destiny to have it. And if there is someone who extends his hand for you to hold when you fall, then hold his hand tightly. Good morning by noon"

I found it strange to get a message like that, I rushed to dial an unknown number to contact him, but apparently the number has been deactivated. I was a little annoyed but for what reason. the contents of the message really represent my feelings at this time.I was convincing myself that I had indeed started to fall in love with Reno mas, after we were completely separated and didn't know each other.

"Is it possible that Reno is beginning to regret?" my mind when I remember a few nights ago I dreamed of her crying in a faraway place that I didn't know.

The call from mbak Kinara broke my daydream, I saw the phone turn on and pressed the green button.

"Assalamualaikum kei, are you home?"

"We will not be a vacation to the place of the father, because tomorrow the father will come here with Bulik Sri and Paklik Kardi"

"Really mbak?"

"Yes, yes I just want to ngabarin doang, remember one o'clock in the afternoon you therapy, oh yes all stop by the boutique later if you come home from the hospital, there's a dress order mama's friend said to come to the house, so all you take it take home, can you?"

"Okay, what time do you come home?"

"Maybe out Maghrib just came home because he wanted to stop by Sean's brother's house for a while"

"Oh yeah be careful".

After the call was cut off I looked towards the wall clock which showed at eleven noon, not long into the prayer time dhuhur, want to sleep too responsibility, too, finally I switched to taking some paper and pen to sketch clothes.Had a hobby that since childhood I liked, drawing various designs of houses, clothes and others.

***

"Reno why ma?" gito asked when he finished his breakfast plus lunch in the kitchen.

"I don't know, again miss the same ex-fiancee of his times" said Aunt Meri without turning her head

"Ahh wrong itself anyway, the turn has separated new ngerasain in love, hahaha" seloroh Gito.

"Huss you are not yet in love, wong your work just skinned people's bodies" said Aunt Meri

"The prospective doctor is ma, it's a risk anyway, two more days I go to Makassar ma, so it can not be long at home" said Gito

"What are you bringing? you go to college for the rest of the semester, right, not long for a professional exam"

"Often, that's all I've liked before"

"Yes later in the afternoon you are shopping with Reno, occasionally invite him to chat do not sleep your work if you go home, your tuition is expensive, not to mention the cost of your ticket to Makassar, not to mention the cost of your ticket to Makassar, your living expenses there, boarding, snacks, diktat money, practice money, have not filled your motor fuel...."

"Yes mama, cherry ah" said Gito who immediately ran away

"Gitoooooo" cried Aunt Meri who made Reno straight out of the room.

"Why Tan?" ask Reno

"Your sister, a lot of talk every time you go home, much asked but her work is just sleeping" said Aunt Meri.

"His name is also a tan boy, will I help you?"

"Nih, you roll the banana pack this neat dough, kayak ever Auntie for example. Aunty wants to meet the needs that Gito wants to take to Makassar in two days". said Aunt Meri handed the brown banana bread dough to Reno and went into the room.

In between rolling the dough, Reno took the time to send a message to Keisya using a new number that he had never used at all. three days ago he got a call from Vivi's wife Revan.they told him a lot about the psychological development of Keisya after Reno decided to end their marriage.

From Vivi he knew Keisya was going through a lot of painful things after that day. many times desperate to commit suicide until Azka sacrificed to bring Keisya back to Jakarta in order to seek treatment and make his new friend Hanan as a bodyguard and spiritual teacher for Keisya.

Deep in his heart he realized his feelings all along that he had never realized before, whether since when the taste was present, it was not until now, all he felt after deciding to annul their marriage was the continuous guilt that haunted him at all times.

Reno smiled as she read Keisya's reply to the girl's status which she commented on a few hours ago.After successfully sending a message, Reno instantly blocked Keisya's number.