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el Confession

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Gibran walked a bit quickly to Varka's class, he was a little upset to hear that his sister was late for school. Gibran doesn't want himself to be embarrassed because of Varka, you put his face where all the kids at this school know if Varka's sister. He is the head of OSIS and it would be very troublesome if everyone knew he had a younger brother who was just the first day of school was too late.

"Vark..." Call Gibran after you get to the front of the class

"Follow me" Gibran continued immediately before Varka answered him.

Varka just kept quiet and followed her sister's steps somewhere. On the roof of the school's backyard, yes this is where they both are now. Gibran still stood his back to Varka making the boy even more confused by his brother's attitude.

"Sister..." Call Varka

Gibran turned his body and looked at Varka.

"What do you mean you're late for school?? Late?? Oh my God, you're Vespa Varka's sister still late!! Shameful Kaka just know not" said Gibran

"Sorry, Vespanya broke down"

"What's? Haheh alesan aja"

"So I'm not lying"

"Oath yes Untung friends Kaka did not know that you are Kaka's sister. Beware Varka do not make trouble, Kaka the Head of OSIS at this school so do not be shy!!"

Varka lowered her head, it hurt to hear her sister's words. He was late for school and not because of his desire, unexpected circumstances that made him late. Should her brother get this angry? Even saying things that hurt him?.

"Sorry brother" said Varka in the end, Free too if he tried to defend himself nothing will change.

"Jude, learn the real thing. Just got in and got in trouble!!" Gibran said and left.

Varka stared at Gibran's departure with a wry smile. It turns out that her Big Brother really does not love her, even she is embarrassed to acknowledge Varka as her sister. How worthless is Varka Dimata her brother?.

Varka sighed then walked over to return to her class. There was nothing he could hope for from his brother anymore.

"Vark..."

Varka turned her head when she heard someone call her. He smiled when he realized it was Helsha.

"Where else? I know" said Helsha after arriving in front of Varka.

"Why? Kangen?" Varka said teasingly

"Ihh..." Helsha was made to gawk at Varka's words.

Varka chuckled at the expression of Helsha who was smiling in embarrassment from hearing his words..

"Magazine again..."

"Sorrys sorry. What's wrong with me?" Ask Varka

"Yes, I want to." Helsha said as she walked along with Varka

"No temen yet?"

"Hehehe, there is a heh, just the same habit Varka so yes it is hehe" said Helsha nyengir

"Hmmm..."

Helsha stared at Varka's face for a long time, it seemed like there was something strange about Varka. Helsha immediately stood before Varka and narrowed her eyes as if she was investigating something. While Varka showed a face asking Helsha

"You're gapapa?" Ask Helsha

See how this woman can immediately know the situation of Varka only from his face, but as much as possible Varka has tried to hide his mood that is a little less good due to the words of his brother earlier.

"Father." said Varka smiling

"So where? You haven't answered me yet"

"From the backyard"

"Well? There's something evilin Varka huh?" Helsha said with a worried face

"There's nothing, there's nothing bad about me. I met Kaka there"

"Your sister?" Ask Helsha to make sure

"Yes" said Varka as he walked back

"What did you say? Don't tell me he got mad at you for being late"

Varka stopped when she heard Helsha's words, she always knew before Varka told her.

"really right? Vark..."

"It's just a little, understand Kaka I'm the head of OSIS so that's it"

"Varka gapapa?" Tanya Helsha held Varka's hand.

"If anyone's evil or disturbing Varka says Helsha is the same?" Nya

"Sha has beluh, to the classroom there will be scolded by the teacher. I also want to go to class" said Varka then walked away

"Vark..." Mumbled Helsha stared sadly at Varka's departure.

Helsha is sure, Varka's meeting with her brother must make Varka sad. I don't know what Varka's sister said but Helsha is sure it's something she shouldn't have said.

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"You want to be, huh!! Want to be a gem? So the bum is!!" Shouted Clara to Varka who was now bowing her head.

"It's also the first day you go to school, and you're punished!! Yes, yes!!" Continue Clara

"Sorry Ma." said Varka

Beside them was Gibran who was sitting watching the two, he sighed seeing this incident. Not to deny if Gibran had predicted this since earlier in school, there is nothing he can help also so that Varka is not scolded.

"Can it be Varka? Did you not get angry a day? Just a day you do not make trouble, a day you become a good and obedient child, a day you are proud mama? Why anyway? Why again you can only make mamah shy and make the atmosphere of this house so chaotic!! Why huh!!?"

Varka, who had just looked down, now lifted her head and looked at Clara

"Mama..."

"WHAT!!"

Varka sighed then looked back at Clara

"Why the hell ma? Why do you always think anything Varka does is wrong!!? Why do you always think of Varka as a brash kid? Why?"

"Mama Varka never even refused my mother's request, Varka never denied mama, Varka never fought mama. But why the hell? Mama really hates Varka?" Varka

"Do you dare to answer now??"

"That's not what Varka means, Varka is just a wonder..."

After saying that Varka then approached Clara, he grabbed Clara's hand and then turned Clara's hand on Varka's cheek.

"Come on Ma, Varka's slap is normal. Gapapa kok" said Varka as he smacked Clara's hand on his cheek as if the woman was slapping him.

"Let's Ma hit Varka!? Don't you like to hit Varka? Why is diem now? Come mah!!" Varka said with a trembling voice.

Clara just stood still and pulled her hand which was held by Varka.

Varka's eyes reddened, her breathing was decapitated, her anger was overflowing Just like that. His tiredness, his wounds, his disappointment, now seemed to gather into one by his chest and asked to be vaporized immediately.

"Let's hit Varka! LET'S HIT!!" Varka shouted while hitting her own body.

"Why is mama diem? Why!! Let's hit Varka!! Hit Varka!!" Varka looked at Clara in front of him.

Varka's reddened face held in anger, her breathing began to disorganize. He's tired of all this, so tired. Never once has anyone in this house understood him.

"Let's hit Varka gapapa, if by hitting Varka mama so happy Varka no problem. let's hit Varka!!" Lirih Varka with tears that had flowed down her cheeks

Clara only sighed and left Varka without a word. Even ignoring Varka's cries and anger.

Varka fell on the floor, again the pain he had to feel.

Varka is fed up with everything, even a trivial and small matter can become a big problem for Varka.

Again he is blamed, again he is the loser, again he is the one who cries pain, and again the universe torments him!!

Is this all Varka's fault?

Though clearly about the incident this morning, when Vespanya strike and make it late is not his fault.

Varka did not even think if it would happen and make himself come late, even he did not expect if the motor given by his brother would just stop.

Varka sobbed softly while smiling wryly.

Should be on the first day of entering High School, Varka get a beautiful story and memorable moments like other children. But what is this? What did he get? Nonexistent

It was only the wounds and wounds that he had sustained...

Varka stood up and rubbed her tears and left regardless of her brother's words.

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Varka was sitting at the bus stop alone, not knowing when he got here. But his steps brought him here, he said,

Varka sighed as she recalled the incident back home, it always ended like that. Since long ago he was always scolded and beaten, but not everyone has a limit in holding back all the things that hurt him.

Actually when Varka was a child Clara still often loved him even though not as much as Clara's love for Gibran. But since that incident Clara and Juna have changed and never cared about Varka. It all started when Varka and Gibran were kids.

The age of Varka and Gibran is only one year different, at that time Gibran was a quiet and diligent child, in contrast to Varka who was quite naughty in the sense that he could not be silent and installment.

Since entering Varka and Gibran elementary school is indeed very different, Gibran always makes the pride of teachers, class champions and often follow the race unlike varka which is fairly ordinary.

Clara's hope has always been the same: she wants Varka to be like Gibran. Clara wants Varka to be diligent, pendiem, pinter, not naughty and installment. But in reality Varka could not be like that, God created Varka's personality that is inversely proportional to Gibran.

The first injury that Varka got was when he was seven years old, precisely when the distribution of reporting. Clara was hopeful that Varka would also rank one like Gibran but that hope was wiped out when Varka only got fifth.

That's when Clara was furious and yelled at Varka even the report Varka got torn just like that. Even Clara to mention Varka stupid child and child carrier unlucky, until now the words are always remembered by Varka.

The universe has never been on Varka's side.

After the incident Gibran brought a glass containing milk for Varka but somehow Gibran suddenly fell and the glass fragments hit Gibran's hands and cheeks. Varka did not do anything not even a little but Clara who came when everything happened blamed Varka for the incident. Varka had tried to explain and even asked her brother to help explain her but what he got, her brother remained silent until now and he was considered as the one who injured his sister alone.

Since then Varka never again felt affection or warmth, Only because of mistakes that even Varka never did but he who had to bear the consequences until now.

That was the reason Varka thought about why her parents were acting this way. I don't know what the real reason Varka doesn't know either, but hopefully there's no other reason that might be more painful for Varka.

Varka sighed remembering the incident, it turned out that it had been like this for a long time. It was amazing that he could bear all the pain during this time. Varka gasped when suddenly her phone rang.

He reached into his pocket and took his phone, a beautiful curve just etched into Varka's face when he saw the name on the screen.

"Vark... Where aja? Helsha called from earlier not appointed, Wa Helsha also not Varka bales" Helsha's scolding across there

Varka wiped her tears then took a slow breath before replying

"sorry"

"What's up? Erroneous again where does that mean? How noisy it's like it's on the road, where are you going?"

"One of the songs"

"Varka abis nangis huh?" Helsha asked as she realized Varka's raucous voice

"Do you have a sixth sense?" Canda Varka laughs

"Varka where? Helsha's there now, huh?"

"Capek loh Sha, really cape even" said Varka in the end.

"Varka where? Cepet said where?" Helsha said a little screamed

"It feels Varka..."

Varka fell silent not continuing her words, though,

"Vark... Meet you and Helsha, where is Varka now?" Ask Helsha softly

"Later Varka calls again, Varka gapapa not to worry. Drugs" said Varka then turned off the phone just like that.

He did not want Helsha to see her again like this. Varka was sure Helsha could also get tired if she saw him like this continuously.

Never mind, his life has been difficult and will continue like that.

The universe is not friendly with Varka, hopefully no one has ever experienced anything like it.