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"Mom, papa, Varka wants to participate in the Biology Olympics, right? Varka is very interested to follow" said Varka on the sidelines of dinner

"Biology race?" Gibran asked who was replied by a nod by Varka

"It's not your fault Varka? Can you?" Ask Clara

"Isn't the grade you get in school not as big as your brother's? Why dare to join the Olympics" said Juna

"Ma, pa, gapapa times. Who knows this time Varka can win" said Gibran, smiling at Varka.

"Well my homeroom teacher, make the Olympics not considered from the value of kok" said Varka

"Setep aja your value is not as big as your Kaka value, mending do not need to deh. I'm not sure you're going to win" Clara said

The beautiful arch that had been imprinted on Varka's face immediately disappeared after hearing Clara's words.

"Papa can't believe that I can?" Ask Varka

"Yes" said Juna

"What if you lose? Embarrassed your sister was at school, her childhood lost to the Olympics" said Clara cynically

"Ma..." Gibran tried to reprimand Clara so as not to be too rude to speak.

Either way the relationship between Gibran and Varka, but still Varka is his sister right.

"If you forget, Varka is also often a champion"

"Oh yeah... What champion? Ever been champion one? What olympics? Most also champions in the field of music the same picture right!! There's no point Varka!!" Clara

Varka sighed, is it wrong if he is more prominent in the field of music and images?? Isn't that also an advantage in him.

"Mom can never support me, can you? Why do you always want me to be the same as Gibran? Am I that stupid in my mom's eyes?"

"Varka just needs the support of mommy as well as papa, not more really. You can support Varka once."

Everyone was silent, no one answered Varka's words. Even Clara and Juna are busy with their respective activities.

"Why on diem? Don't you want to support Varka?" Ask Varka and again there is no answer.

"Jaudah gapapa. Varka does not make sense, if you do not believe in Varka gapapa. Varka tells you that you're only because Varka needs the blessing of Varka's parents. As if Varka can be proud of himself because Varka has tried to boast of you" said Varka.

"Whatever!! But be careful if you do not get champion 1, will not mama permitin again you to participate in the Olympic race again. There will be a shame for the family" said Clara who made Varka can only smile thinly.

"Yes ma." said Varka.

Varka only smiled faintly when she saw the look of her parents who did not seem to like what Varka would do.

Sometimes Varka is not out of thought, why the hell do they always think Varka is not capable? Why do they always assume that whatever Varka does is always in vain? Why do you always have bad thoughts about Varka ?

Wrong huh? If Varka has a desire for something? Varka only wants mamah and papah to give full support to whatever he does. Even so far, Varka had never once thought of putting them to shame.

Varka's mind has only been one. Varka was eager to see Clara and Juna smile at him, Varka was eager to see that look. The affectionate look of her parents.

Varka let out a sigh and went to finish her dinner first. After finishing washing the dishes Varka immediately rushed into the room.

Behind the door of the room, Varka sits in the corner of the room, imagining how Clara and Juna hate him.

Varka smiled wryly and stood up and looked at her reflection in front of the mirror.

"Vark... You're stupid, aren't you?" Varka said to himself

Varka then chuckled softly while, laughing at her who had expected too much from her parents. He laughed at his own weak, stupid, useless self.

"Foolish Basis" Varka told himself in front of the mirror.

Varka did laugh, but the laughter was very painful to hear. He laughed when his heart was so sick and fragile.

Moments later came knocking on the door from outside, making Varka sigh tired. Especially now that this house guy is gonna say

"Vark..." Call Gibran after the door opens

"What's up, brother? I want to rest" replied Varka lazily

He was still lazy to deal with his brother. Moreover, his attitude often changes, sometimes making him happy sometimes also hurt his feelings

"Don't listen to mama's talk, yeah,"

"Look down, I'm usually treated like that. I'm just the best kid in the house"

"Varka isn't that..."

"What's not that? That's the truth, Kaka also understands the truth. Take it easy, brother, I will try not to lose so that you are not ashamed at school"

"Vark..."

"Oh, my brother, I'm really sorry. Varka wants a break"

Varka shut the door without waiting for Gibran to answer. He was fed up with his brother's changing attitude, but still Varka could not hate his sister.

Varka sat down at her study desk and pressed her phone button and called Helsha, maybe by calling the woman her heart could calm down a little.

"Night..." Helsha said across the phone

"Have you finished Sha's dinner?"

"Udah... What's up?" Helsha was so cheerful

"Father, you want to hear your funny voice again"

"Ohhhh..."

"Again what? Do you have a task?"

"On the phone with someone I love... Hehe"

Varka chuckled at hearing that

"You guys, I'm resting, Sha, thanks"

"But really jerk? Shrimp is sad?" Ask Helsha

"I'm not sad anymore"

"Yes"

"Jude, already..." Varka

"Drug... Happy break Varka"

Helsha sighed after the phone connection was cut off. He knows Varka is not okay, but lately Varka has always been dishonest with him. Helsha knew Varka was always smiling and happy in front of her, but the man's gaze could not lie, there was a burden and things that Varka tried to take responsibility for himself.

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"OH YEAH!!" Helsha said when she heard that Varka was going to the Olympics

"Iya Sha really" Varka said smiling

"IHH.. HELSHA SENENG REALLY UNDERSTAND VARKA..." Helsha's cry of excitement made Varka smile

"Wait a minute!!" Helsha then ran away from Varka

"Eh Where are you going Helsha!!" Shouted Varka.

Varka chuckled little to see Helsha running somewhere. Varka sighed.

Why yes? Strangers care more about what we do? In fact they are always there even just to praise and encourage.

But why are the people who we hope will give support and praise jutsru even the reason why we fall and get hurt? Freaky...

No, Varka doesn't hate her house. It's just that Varka was a little disappointed with the reality he got. About how he was treated, about how he was considered foreign and stupid by people who should be a place for Varka to complain.

Varka realized, useless if he continues to curse Destiny if in fact it can not change at all.

Varka cried, complained, even got angry. The universe will never be on his side.

Except Helsha...

That's right, except for Helsha. The woman who promised never would leave Varka alone. A woman who would never dare leave her home.

The Helsha is the figure of a new home for Varka, a very Sturdy and warm home. Varka loves it so much, loves how warm this house is, with so much affection and love that Varka feels.

Varka smiled when he saw Helsha who was now running small towards him, Varka saw there were two small bottles of drinks that did not know where the girl bought them.

Varka smiled then shouted

"DON'T RUN SHA!!" varka shouted to Helsha

Helsha stood in front of Varka, giving Varka a bottle of water.

"Nih. drink" said Helsha.

Varka then stood in alignment with Helsha and smiled warmly

"So you ran away and bought this?" Varka asked who was replied by a nod by Helsha

"Yes! Let Varka spirit will participate in the Olympics.when the hell? Yes's day?"

"Yes the day after.."

"Let's study with Helsha, Helsha likes biology" Helsha said

Varka again smiled at Helsha's words, her hands outstretched to scramble the woman's hair.

"Yes, Abis came home from here we learned" said Varka.

They then sat back down to resuscitate his body on the bench at the park.

"It's cold right now Sha" said Varka sighing

"Helsha also said what, wear her jacket huh.." said Helsha who saw Varka who had opened her jacket since

"Yes, yes, it's a bawel..."

"Ihhh..." Helsha then pinched Varka's arm

Instead of the pain Varka chuckles at, Helsha is always like this if she is stubborn and difficult to tell.

"Yes.sorry Beautiful" seduced Varka.

"Marling..."

"You are yes..."

"What..wleee..." Ledek Helsha

"Beautiful" said Varka

"Vark..."

"Hmm..?"

"Where is today? Cape right?" Ask Helsha softly

Varka turned to Helsha then smiled warmly. This question is a routine question from Helsha, Helsha always ask it every time they are together.

"That's it" Varka replied

"really? Not sad anymore?" Ask Helsha

"Yes really"

"Varka?"

"Yes what?"

"If something bothers you, say yes? If cape says yes? If sad, say yes? Don't be simple alone. Inget, Varka is not alone. Varka's got Helsha, okay?"

Varka smiled, then stroked Helsha's hair softly

"Yes Helsha I will say later, but for now Varka is fine" said Varka made Helsha smile

"Thank you, thank you for always worrying" Varka continued

Helsha held Varka's hand

"Helsha likes to squirm at Varka's smile, so if Varka is sad Helsha cannot see Varka's beautiful smile. Don't be sad anymore, will you? Don't take the problem of being alone first, huh? Varka should be happy, right?"

"Yeahaa... Sha"

"Vark..."

"Yes..."

"Don't stay in Helsha alone, Helsha doesn't know how Helsha lives if Varka lives in Helsha. Secape and as sad as Varka in the future, don't go ninggalin Helsha huh?"

Varka smiled at Helsha's words, Only Helsha is the only one who has kept her alive until now.

"Yes, Varka promised. Varka promises to make an effort to survive for Helsha"

"Helsha loves Varka... It's a pity" said Helsha then resuscitated his head on Varka's boat.

"Thank you Sha..."

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"Vark..." Call Gibran who saw Varka come out of the room in a pretty neat outfit.

"Where are you going?" Further

"Meet Helsha, want to learn for the Olympics tomorrow"

"Learn the same brother yuk" prevented Gibran from holding Varka's arm about to leave

"Tumbents..."

"It is only natural that a brother should teach him"

Varka laughed at Gibran's words that seemed to matter

"When do you care?"

Gibran was speechless to hear Varka this time calling him without brother frills

"Gue wasn't wrong? You call me without calling me brother?"

"Oh sorry, school habits"

"Hmm. yaudah let's go to brother's room" Gibran said.

"Think about it, sorry. I have a promise with Helsha, besides I am also not a habit of being taught to Lo"

"Oh. Okay, I'm just fresh"

"No need, I can be alone" Varka said and left.

It's also free if all this time he's been good with the people in this house. It doesn't matter if Varka fights back.

Now Helsha is busy tidying up her room to be used to study with Varka. Varka's gone he's gone and he'll be here any minute. Not to forget Helsha also prepared her favorite snack and Varka, she also did not know what Varka really liked but the man always said 'if Helsha likes, Varka also likes'... It sounds horrible but it is proven.

The ringing of the phone made Helsha distract him, when she saw the name of the caller Helsha a little lazy to lift it but if not lifted he also felt bad.

"Ihh. What do you want to call, males"

Although grumbling in the end Helsha still picked up the phone

"Helsha..."

"Yes sis.."

"Said you want to learn with Varka huh?"

"Eh? How do you know?" Helsha was a little confused

"Varka who's been telling you, learn where you are?"

"Who's home, why is that?"

"Engga, I wanted to teach you. But Varkana doesn't want to"

"Oh, since when did you want to teach Varka? Not that it was also fitting for UN Junior High School Kaka even told Varka to learn by himself"

"Eh? Varka said that. If I had Sha's business at that time, so I couldn't"

"Oh that's it." said Helsha a little lazy

"Yes..."

Helsha immediately smiled happily when she heard the sound of a motorbike stopping in front of her house, it must be Varka..

"Yes, Varka has Dateng" said Helsha immediately turned off the phone.

Helsha ran a little towards the exit of the house. Just now Varka wanted to knock on the door but the door was already open with Helsha smiling at him.

"Welcome... Prince"

"Geez, I haven't hit the door yet"

"Hehehe... As a good candidate I must be ready ... Ihhh not be so deh" said Helsha shyly

"Thank you..."

Helsha just laughed awkwardly, he could have said without thinking

"Where's mother? I brought the fruit" said Varka after entering the house

"Mother.... There's a future daughter-in-law..." Helsha shouted and ran straight to the room

Varka laughed and was shocked to hear it, how could Helsha be so outspoken. Come on they just got high school.

"Eh. You haven't been here for a long time, son" said the mother approached Varka

"Yes, Mother, I'm sorry I rarely stop by"

"Who, but be well, son?" Mother said while stroking Varka's back

"Healthy Mother, healthy mother?"

"Alhamdulillah, next time often play here"

Varka smiled and nodded

"Oh yes, this mother Varka brought fruit, happened to meet the same who sells fruit" said Varka while giving a bag of fruit that he carried

"Geez, I'm sorry, thank you"

"Yes, if so Varka followed Helsha first yes"

"The spirit of learning is yes" said Mother.

The warmth of Helsha home is the most soothing thing for Varka, where she can feel the warmth and affection in this house.

Mother Helsha was so kind to her, mother always treated Varka like her own child. But somehow the affection of a biological mother will mean more to Varka.

It was late at night, Varka had just finished studying with Helsha. Now Varka is on the bike Vespa pride ready to go home.

"Thank you for teaching me"

"Yes"

"Sha, I want nanya to?"

"What?" Ask Helsha curiously

"So I accidentally saw the contents of your chat, I kept seeing there was a chat from ka Gibran. Brother Gibran often chats you?"

"Yes, Mr. Gibran likes to chat out of the blue"

"Oh that's it." said Varka while wearing his helmet.

"Vark..." Helsha held Varka's arm that was about to turn her Vespa on

"Don't get me wrong, inget Helsha has said that Helsha doesn't like Gibran."

"Yes Varka believes it, it's cold out there"

"Don't think of anything weird. Go straight home"

"Every first lady, I'm home, bye..."

Helsha waved her hand as Varka drove her motorcycle away from Helsha's house.

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Varka looked at the expanse of sea in front of him, it was night and there was only Varka alone here. Varka chose not to go straight home, he wanted to calm his heart and forget all the burdens

"Lord...If something happens to me unexpectedly and I have to let go of the hand I've always held. Please don't let sadness come to her, please give her the strength and courage to move on with her life."

Varka shed her tears, she clutched hard the paper mplop she got from the hospital. The Universe never lets Varka be happy.

What exactly did Varka do that the universe was so evil to her?

Why has the universe never sided with her once??

"I don't want to die...."