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Helsha glanced at the clock in her hand, usually Varka had come to the house to pick up Helsha but tumben once today Varka had not come too. Varka had no news last night either.

Helsha grabbed her phone and pressed Varka's number, The phone connection was connected but not lifted also made Helsha more confused. It is not usual for Varka to be late like today and not to preach it. Helsha again contacted Varka for a second time hoping that the man would pick up the phone.

"Hey, Varka Morning. Where are you going anyway? Would you pick you up today? I've been waiting for it" Helsha said after her call was picked up by Varka

"Helsha.."

"Yes?"

"I don't think I went to school" Varka said on the phone

"Loh why? Varka's sick? How not to say the same Helsha anyway, surely because of semalem huh? Varka, Helsha said that Varka's suit was wearing." Omel Helsha

"Hehehe is Sha, why don't you go to school by yourself first?" Varka pretended to laugh

"Ah Helsha wants to see Varka. Don't want school"

"That's not Sha, I'm gapapa. Don't skip school for me yes, seriously I gapapa" said Varka a little surprised to hear Helsha's reaction

"Well, did Papa Varka know that Varka was sick?" Ask Helsha

It sounded so from her voice that if Helsha was so worried about Varka, last night Varka still looked fine but why suddenly today was sick. Helsha understands that no one knows when we are sick, but it feels a little strange.

"You know, this morning my mom made me porridge. Don't you worry, huh?" Varka

"So your mom really makes porridge? No lie?" Helsha asked a little suspiciously

"Engga Sha, when the hell did I lie to you. I'm ready to go to school, sorry because Varka can not nganterin Helsha" said Varka

"Hmm yaudah Helsha get ready for school first. Varka's healing cepet huh?"

"Yes Sha, don't worry Varka gapapa. The spirit of the school" said Varka

Varka sighed after hanging up the phone from Helsha, She stared at the beautiful ocean in front of her, So calm and peaceful. Varka does not want to tell Helsha about what happened last night, it is enough for this Varka always complains to the woman.

Varka decides to call Gibran her brother, Varka fearing that Helsha might ask Gibran about his situation.

"Hallo brother? Sorry, I disturbed you early in the morning. I just want to ask for help for the last time with Lo" said Varka

"Varka Lo sleeps where is semalem?" Ask Gibran

"Sister, please don't tell Helsha if I leave the house enough of you know"

"Where's Varka Lo?"

"Sorry yes Brother if I ngerepotin Lo, Yes yes. Don't tell Helsha that I'm leaving the house, thank you sister" Varka said, turning off the phone

"Where's Varka Lo? Where's sleep semalem?" Gibran muttered looking at his phone

"Bad caveat, huh? Ah. I'm also sad Lo went Varka but I also like to.. Sorry Varka." Gibran

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Varka POVs

Wasted out? Really right? I'm a wasted child? Am I an unwanted child? Hahaha

Last night was the worst night of my life. The night that I will never forget, I will always remember the same incident last night, Sampe whenever even until I die.

'I said Jun, Varka shouldn't have been born! The boy should not exist'

That's the sentence you said last night, the most evil sentence I've ever heard in my life. The words that succeeded in making me crumble, is mamah that hateful?

I don't cry, I don't cry at all. My heart was too broken to cry.

I sometimes do not understand, why can the universe give rich destiny gini, what am I wrong? I'm that sehina, right? My family did not expect my presence.

What is it like to be an unwanted child? Hahahaha it hurts, it hurts a lot. Even the pain can't make me cry anymore, I can only be bragged. I want to cry, but I can't.

Do you know how much I love them? I'm so sorry, I'm willing to give everything to my family, even I'm willing to be treated unfairly with them, As if I can still stay with them, I'm sure I can see Gibran, papah is the same every day. But it turns out that the only thing I love is me? They never turn around love me? Hahahaha is funny.

Can I not curse my own destiny? Can't I be angry at the same time? Is it wrong if I am angry with my mom and dad? I Think I Want to Die.

Honestly, all this time I was treated unfairly, from starting small things to big things even though I was always differentiated with them. Yes really papa same mom is more affectionate brother Gibran than the same me. Even as long as I live, I have only ever been embraced at all papah and mamah, that was when I was 4 years old if not wrong.

Ah yes, since childhood I always diitipin same grandmother, I always left their cooperation, while brother Gibran? She would be taken wherever my mom went. Not fair, is it?

From the first mama always showed an attitude if she did not like me. But I just found out that my mom hated it as much as my presence in her family.

But come to think of it, did I ever ask to be born?

The answer is no, I never even asked God to be born in this family. If I knew my mother never wanted me to be in her family, I would ask God not to be born into this world.

Ah, but it's. Destiny is Destiny, no matter how hard I deny, no matter how angry I am, how destroyed I am, the Universe will still predestine me to live like this. A sad child who will never get the love of family.

I still can't believe last night was the most devastating night of my life, the saddest night of my life.

Last night, I had made a child who was not even an adult must lose his house, lose his rights, lose his family, even make me lose everything.

God, if I could, I would ask Destiny to make me the happiest kid in the world.

I just want to be careful, I just want to be hugged by mom and dad, I just want to be kissed before going to bed, I just want papa bacain fairy tale before going to bed, I just want to be kissed before bed, I just want to make my favorite breakfast with my mom, I want to be invited to watch the same ball papa, I want to be his favorite sister brother, I want to be their proud son, I want to be their proud son, I want to be their favorite child, the cave wants to be the most beautiful gift for them. I just want it, I don't need any treasure, I just want mama, papa and sister can love me. That was enough for me.

Do I look excessive? But I just want it from a long time ago, because I could never get all of it.

God, it hurts so bad. Want to cry it feels unable, tears can not come out even when I try to cry.

Now how am I supposed to? A home? Even what I once considered home even made me the saddest child because it was a wasted child.

Even after I say they do not care, I am not detained so as not to go, papah no call me, mamah not angry and do not ask me to stay at home. I wish I had a message from those who told me to go home. Butwhat? Until now, no one has sent me messages or calls.

Maybe I should have left, right? I shouldn't be here right now. I'm just a bully, I'm just a hitch for my family to be happy.

Even if I die today, no one will care. Maybe they are all happy and happy, because forever I will be a child who never wanted to be with them.

I'm tired, I want to give it up. Maybe I should give up? Even Gibran himself told me to rest hahaha

Can't I just give it all up? Can I not if I choose to leave? Can't I just die? Yes, I've been too cape all this.

The varka POV end

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Helsha is currently in the canteen with Nadia, usually hours of rest like this Helsha must be with Varka eating the food she always brought for the man. It feels so quiet without Varka on his side, even though a day has not been but it feels like it is this way.

"Yaelah Sha has not seen Varka a day, letoy aja loh" said Nadia

"I'm normal with him, it's natural that there is no one he's a day like there's anything different"

"Where the hell is it? Don't go to school?"

"It hurts, he said"

"Tuh he was sick because of the drought with Lo hahaha... Eat it don't stick around" taunted Nadia

"Ngelantur spoke of Nad"

Nadia only chuckles at Helsha's speech, maybe at this school who knows the closeness of Varka and Helsha to the ins and outs only Nadia yes although not all Helsha told me.

Helsha designed her phone and then typed something in there

~Varka Adibumi ~

• ernelsha: Varka... It's so sad not to see Varka at school. Varka has not been? What pain?

• Varka: Noon Helsha, how was the school today? Don't be sad, if Varka can Varka must be in school again.

• Helsha: Varka, Helsha want to see ya? A gapapa?

• Varka: Don't, don't go home? Don't look

• helsha: why?

• Varka: I'm afraid you're scared

• But Helsha: but I'm worried about you Varka.

• Varka: Sha, don't ya? I'm really gapapa. Please don't go home

• Helsha: Varka's sick what? The pain is severe, right?

Varka sighed as she read the message from Helsha who kept asking her how she was, she wanted to tell Helsha but she was too frail at the moment

"Sha, it hurts so much, even more than any Sha" said Varka stroking his chest that was so tight

Varka Then replies back to Helsha's message, he does not want this woman to be more worried about her circumstances if she is honest

• Varka: the pain is not severe kok Sha, just calm yes

• ernelsha: Varka... If there's anything direct news Helsha huh?

• park: Helsha...

• ^______________Varka

• ^^___________ Sorry?

• Helsha: Ih why? Kok apologized

Varka typed something to reply to Helsha's message

• Varka: Sha, will I give it up? Gapapa, right?

For a moment when Varka was silent not sending the message, Varka sighed and then deleted back what he had typed and ended up not replying to Helsha again.

It felt like Varka did not want to make Helsha cry by telling the truth. Because it's better if only Varka is crying than having to make other people cry too. Varka had been hurt a lot during this time, but he felt a little happy because he never once had the intention to repay their treatment. Varka knew it hurt so much, so she didn't want anyone else to feel the same way.

"To yuk's class? Pull in again" asked Nadia

"Eh first Nad, I want nyamperin Brother Gibran first" said Helsha

"Yes, Ntar Varka was angry again. What do you want, man? No Varka nyamperin chairman of OSIS Lo mah"

"Come on, I have something to ask you. Just calm my heart for Varka" said Helsha nyengir

"Bucin loh. yaudah I first yes, look out for the head of OSIS" whispered Nadia

"Yeah... Elementary"

Nadia immediately flushed running away after saying that, could be mocked by Helsha if it continues like this.

Helsha just smiled looking at him, Nadia is such a good friend. When he was sad his friend would be able to comfort him even with obscure babbles.

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Helsah came to the front of the Gibran class, he was wailing to look for Gibran in there but there seemed to be none. Fortunately the atmosphere was a little quiet so he could search for Gibran freely.

Don't get me wrong, Helsha is looking for Gibran because she wants to ask about Varka. Gibran is home to Varka, of course, he certainly knows the situation of Varka, especially Varka, his sister.

"Sha..." Call someone from behind

Helsha turned around and found Gibran now behind her.

"Eh, brother Gibran..." Helsha said awkwardly

Actually Helsha still feels bad because of last night's incident but how else can he ask about Varka other than Gibran.

"Who's day?" Ask Gibran

"Come on, sister, can I talk to you for a minute?" Ask Helsha doubtfully

"Oh okay, what's up?" Ask Gibran

"Anu Sis, Varka is sick? Varka's sick what?" Ask Helsha directly

"Varka?"

"Yes, I'd like you to take Helsha home later"

"Varka didn't tell you?"

Helsha frowned not understanding what Gibran meant to Varka who did not tell him

"Varka, he's gone from the house" Gibran continued

For a moment Helsha fell silent, digesting back Gibran's words which left her so shocked. Varka's? Get out of the house? Did ya?

"How do you mean? Varka's gone? From home? Why?"

"Regular fight with papa mama. Keep going, do not know where the child is" said Gibran staring straight ahead

"Can't you do it, brother?" Helsha asked with a worried tone

Gibran turned to look at Helsha, he could clearly see Dimata Helsha's worries

"I would have told you Sha, if Varka was angry he could not control his emotions. He's lying to you Sha, he's lying to you"

Helsha was silent on Gibran's words, her mind raging on Varka and Gibran saying Varka was lying to her

"Don't trust Varka Sha too much, not for nothing. I just don't want you to be lied to by him"

"Udah bell, now you're back in class. Don't think too much, Varka must be fine. Inget said I yes, do not trust too much Varka, he is not always honest with you"

Helsha simply nodded and immediately went to return to her class

"Gue's sick of pretending to be good, we're competing against Varka who's going to get Helsha. Look I can definitely get Lo Sha" Gibran murmured

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~Helsha Anastasy~

• Helsha: Where are you? Why did you lie to Helsha?

• vernacular: Varka? You don't believe Helsha? Varka's not sick, is he? Varka left the house? Wh why?

• Helsha: Varka Bales, Varka why? Don't worry, Helsha doesn't like it. You where? It's not okay anymore, is it?

• Helsha: Varka Helsha please bales...

• ilsha: Varka.....

Varka sighed after reading the message Helsha had sent. As expected if Helsha must have asked Gibran, but why did her brother tell her the truth? Didn't Varka ask not to tell Helsha? It's free to ask Gibran for help if in the end Gibran was like this.

Varka calls Gibran, no matter if his brother is currently studying or whatever. He wanted to ask for an explanation of all this how Gibran could so easily tell Helsha

"What the hell Lo, I'm doing a job again" Gibran said

"Lo mean did you say everything was the same Helsha? I asked for help not to tell you"

"What is my business the same? I like dong Varka, I love you."

"I've asked for good help Lo, I can't help me once" said Varka inexhaustible

"Where? It's good not to leave the house? If you can't go back, right? It should not have existed long ago" Gibran said

"Sister, I just realized that Lo is really evil" said Varka

"Gue is not evil Varka, I'm just trying to protect what I have. I don't like my property taken"

"Lo is a very evil oath. I am Lo sis!! Adek Lo's birth" said Varka a little carried away by emotions

The sound of Gibran's laughter across the street made Varka more emotional

"Yes, I know Lo adek me but from a small I never want to have Ade. Unfortunately Lo was born, I don't like Varka. I've had enough of this all along" Gibran explained

"Lo knows, right? I've never been rough with Lo, but for this time sorry brother. Lo dog really, if only Lo is in front of me already abis Lo" said Varka emotion

"Hahahaha don't be rude I don't like it. Helsha for me huh? You go all the way, do not pretend to be the most hurt child I'm sick of it"

Varka was stunned with clenched hands So tightly held back the emotions. Gibran disconnected the phone just like that before he could reply to his brother's words

Was that bad brother? What's wrong with Varka? Why doesn't anyone care? What's wrong? Who's in the wrong?

"AAAAKKKK...." Shouted Varka throwing a cell phone into the sand

Varka was tired, tired of all the pain that never healed.

Varka cape, cape must always receive continuous wounds

Varka was fed up, so sick of seeing people who pretended to care

Varka is disappointed, disappointed in the God who gave him this cruel fate

Varka is angry, he is angry at the universe that never once gave him happiness.

Where should he go now? No one wants his presence. It felt so bad, even now Varka wanted to cry but her tears never came out, Sick, very sick.

In the end maybe Varka should not have been born, he should not be in this world and make them unhappy.

"Maybe it's time for me to give up this time...." Varka muttered looking at the vast ocean before him