LANTERNS
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At full speed Helsha drove a motorbike owned by his father that he had previously borrowed to find Varka's whereabouts.

Honestly, Helsha is not very good at riding a motorcycle, but he is too worried about Varka to the point that Helsha does not think about his safety. Three times Helsha was almost hit by another vehicle.

Varka, only Varka has Helsha in mind right now. Helsha was very worried about Varka, especially the man just turned off the phone after saying something that made Helsha worried

"Vark... Please where are you?" Helsha muttered along the way

Some of the places they often go to have Helsha seen but Nihil Varka is not there at all. Starting from the park, river, and other places again but Helsha still can not find Varka.

Helsha was like a doormat, He cried, cried out to call Varka's name. No matter the strange gazes from the people who saw it, all Helsha wanted right now was Varka.. Varkas

Several times Helsha also tried to call Varka again but still there was no answer. Helsha was very worried, she was afraid that strange things would happen to the man. Plus, Varka said he wanted to give up, making Helsha more worried

"VARKA...!!" Helsha cried out with her cries

Helsha stopped the motor for a moment and took a deep breath, Wait it seems Helsha knows where Varka might be. Foolishly thought Helsha, he may have forgotten about the place. Helsha quickly returned to the motor to the place, he was sure Varka went there.

It didn't take long, Helsha was able to get there. Helsha immediately ran to find Varka there. It was almost night time that the place had also started to darken, Helsha could only see a few people who had started to leave as well from this place.

Helsha ran here and there, down every curve of this place and yes her efforts paid off. Helsha found the figure of Varka who is now walking towards the middle of the sea

"Vark...." Mumbles Helsha

Helsha immediately ran towards Varka, not caring if her clothes were also wet right now. Once near Helsha immediately hugged Varka from behind tightly.

"Vark..." Helsha hugged Varka so tightly

"He_Helsha..?"

"Varka, please don't macem?"

"Lepasin Sha" pinta Varka

Helsha shook her head and further tightened her embrace on Varka

"Helsha is off"

"Well, Helsha won't let Varka go!! Reluctant"

"HELSHA FREELIN VARKA!! LET VARKA GO!! FREELANCE....!!" Shouted Varka trying to let go of Helsha's embrace that held her tightly

"LET ME GO SHA!! THE UNIVERSE DOESN'T WANT ME HERE! FREELANCING!! MY FAMILY HATES ME SHA!! FREELANCE"

"Vark... Please do not." said Helsha who slowly pulled Varka to pull over

"HELSHA!! LOZELINS... DON'T TAKE ME LUKAIN YOU!! PLEASE TAKE ME OFF... LET ME GO SHA...Please freelance... I cape want to rest" said Varka back sobbing

"NOT VARKA.. Can't"

Helsha sobbed and so did Varka who was now also sobbing

"AAAAKKKKHHHH.." cried Varka crying.

Helsha manages to take Varka to the shore. Varka immediately dropped herself and cried while continuing to scream in frustration

Helsha quickly hugged Varka again and rubbed Varka's head. Helsha also cried, It hurts to see her man come back fragile like this.

"Helsha...." Lirih Varka gripped Helsha's arm, with her cries growing

"Helsha, it hurts... Hix... Pain Sha..."

"Sha, I'm an unwanted child.. I should not be here.hikss... I have to die Sha..."

Helsha tightened her embrace on Varka

"No one can go"

"Sha, I just want to mamah same papah dear to me. But it turns out they hate me... Hiks.. What do I have now? Hix... It hurts Sha. My world is broken... Hix... Please help me Sha... Hix... It hurts..." Lirih Varka while sobbing required Helsha

Varka stretched out Helsha's embrace and looked at the woman who was now also crying in front of her

"Sha, I want to give it up. Can ya? Let me go Sha, I just want to rest. I cape" said Varka.

"Vark...." Helsha grew sobbing before Varka

"Nobody can go... Hix... Varka should be here..." Helsha

Varka clasped Helsha's hand tightly.

"But my presence here is of no use to Sha. I'm just trash..." Varka

"You are wrong..."

Helsha raised her face to look at Varka who was now looking at her as if begging to let her go.

"Varka... Don't think gini.. Yea? Varka?" Helsha's words are getting sobbing

It hurts... It hurts so bad

Looky... Even the sky knew that Varka was injured and crying. The sky finally caught up with both

"Sha..." Varka

"Varka? Hurt huh? Varka survived, right? Helsha please.. yes?" Lirih Helsha to Varka, he did not care if now he became soaked

"Sha... Varka wants to go home.. Varka doesn't want to be here.. I'm going home.... Let me go, Sha? Varka wants a break..." Varka lowered her head

Helsha grew sobbing hearing her. Wh why? Why does it have to be like this? It is impossible to allow the man he loves to leave, he will never allow it.

Helsha brought her body closer to Varka.

"Vark... Dengerin Helsha huh?"

"Any injury you receive, no matter how heavy you bear, please don't even think of leaving?"

Varka looked at Helsha

"Varka, Helsha is sure you're strong, will you please hold on? At least until Varka can prove to them that you deserve to be here"

"Helsha..."

Helsha immediately pulled Varka back into her arms. Varka was crying in Helsha's arms so hard.

"Varka, please don't ever go huh? Please inget, as sick as it is Please do not ever think to go? Varka, you're not alone, here is Helsha. The person who will always be there and walk beside you until anytime. Varka, hold on, will you? Please..." Helsha

"I'm here, I'm here, I'm here. I love you, please don't leave me. Hold on huh? Please Varka don't believe me..."

"Varka, everything must be fine. You just need time to heal all your wounds, so let's hang on?"

"But Sha..."

"Varka, sometimes we have to feel the wound first so that we know how to defend, so that we know how to get up again." Helsha stroked Varka's head to calm down

"But so far the universe has only given me Sha's wounds, I'm wrong I shouldn't exist"

"Here you are not wrong Varka, it's just that the current universe is not on your side, the universe is not friendly with Varka. Survive huh? Strong huh? You can definitely pass this, there I am Varka, there I am Helsha by your side. Let's get up, we both heal each other's wounds huh? Tell me the same universe if you are capable, if you are strong..."

"Varka, God will not give trials beyond our ability. Right now God only wants to see Varka rise, God knows that Varka is able to cheat all of this. Varka, now you just have to stand up and show them that you're okay even without them. Believe yes? Believe that someday you will be a great person, a person that will be loved by many people. Everything will be fine Varka, believe Helsha"

"Helsha....I love you the same... Please don't go, will you? I just have you Sha..."

Helsha tightened her embrace, gently rubbing Varka's head. Helsha hugged him, calmed him down, so that Varka could feel even better.

Varka cries, Varka spills all her wounds and pain in Helsha's arms, the man is devastated. But, with all the magic Helsha had, he was able to calm the storm that now hit Varka.

Helsha is a healer and tranquilizer for Varka, it feels so calm when Helsha hugs her and reassures her.

Helsha wiped her tears and let go of her embrace. Helsha smiled at Varka, her hands outstretched, wiping away the tears on Varka's cheeks that were united with the rain that was soaking them.

"We're going home, right? Father same Mother must have been waiting for us at home... Helsha's home, huh?" Helsha

"Sorry Varka..."

"Father... We're going home, right?" Take Helsha

Varka nodded and tried to smile at Helsha, today her women again managed to make Varka safe. Helsha manages to make Varka survive.

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"Sister Gibran?" Helsha said after the phone connection was connected

"Eh Sha, what's wrong? Need help?"

"Evil." said Helsha.

"Huh? Meanin?"

"You're evil!! You know, this time I hate people!!"

"What mean? You why? I don't understand Sha" asked Gibran

"Sneaky basic... Have a heart? Varka's sister, why would you want Kaka's adek to go?" Ask Helsha emotion

"Ah Sha you must have misunderstood me, Varka said weird huh? Have you met Varka? That kid must've said weird to you huh.."

"No, I read myself the messages from my sister on Varka's phone. I was going to ngabarin Varka's parents, but baby it turns out everything is evil. You're evil, more evil than anything"

"Sha heard me first, you misunderstood me"

"Sha. a minute. I was horrified first"

"What else?!!" Helsha was upset

"I'm sure you misunderstood, you must have misread. Must be Varka who made you like this? Family time alone can be that hard? It can't be Sha. All that varkanya aja lebay, do not misunderstand ya?"

"Aren't you still trying to avoid? I swear I'm so disappointed in Gibran!!"

"Sha maybe she was in that chat I was angry with Varka but I don't know what you think Sha is. Don't misunderstand me, do you? Do you believe me?"

Helsha just turned off the phone and quickly blocked Gibran's number, she didn't want any more contact with him. It could be that Gibran was so evil to Varka, Helsha thought Gibran was good to Varka because seeing occasionally Gibran always attention to varka but in fact the man was two-faced. Helsha was almost incited by Gibran.

"Darling... Varka's not awake yet? Did you tell her parents?" Ask the mother to approach Helsha

"Not Bun, must be Varka's soy sauce. I don't think anyone could care about Bun"

"You try it first, baby... Wherever they should know, wherever the response later that is important we already tell"

"Yes Bun, Helsha's gonna call her mom"

"Go to the room and bring the food. If you wake up immediately tell me to eat, you sure Varka has not eaten"

Helsha simply nodded in response to Mother's words. It still hurts to remember how devastated Varka was.

Helsha walked to her room with a tray containing food for Varka. He saw Varka still did not wake up, after arriving here Varka was immediately asleep after changing her clothes.

Helasha pressed the one number she got from Varka's phone. Actually Helsha was lazy to tell Varka's family but he remembered the words of the mother who said that Varka was still the child of the family even though his family behaved like it did not care

"Hallo good night aunt, this is right with Aunt Clara right?" Helsha as much as possible sounds friendly

"Yes right. Who is this?"

"Hallo Aunt, I'm Helsha. Still want to? I'm Varka's aunt"

"Oh, what's wrong?" Clara ketus

"My aunt just wanted to tell me that Varka's Auntie's son is now feverish because some people don't sleep"

"Certainly? It's not my fault, who told him to leave the house"

"Tante is his real mama, right? I just found out that in this world there are still people who can throw away their own children. I think Auntie has been good"

"You're not polite!! I never threw Varka away, he went out alone from home. Now if you want to take care of him please, I don't care"

Tut's...Tut's..

Helsha held tightness in her chest after Clara hung up the phone Just like that, her eyes turned to look at Varka who was now lying on her bed.

Helsha rubbed Varka's forehead slowly, Varka's body temperature was so warm. Unknowingly, the tears rolled back down Helsha's cheeks

"Vark..." Lirih Helsha

It hurts so much, when I see a man who has been almost three years always with himself is now destroyed, Why is Fate Varka so poor?

Again and again Helsha must always see this beloved man hurt, the universe is too evil to him, why?

"Vark..." Helsha still faithfully rubbed Varka's forehead.

Helsa sobbed softly for a moment,

"I'm sorry for all of Varka's injuries, sorry that so far I still failed to make you happy.. Varka sorry..." Lirih Helsha

Suddenly Varka groaned like pain to make Helsha surprised instead of playing. Varka's eyes are still closed, but his body temperature is getting hot, Varka's body is also sweating.

"Mama..." Varka muttered

"Varka... Varka" said Helsha trying to wake Varka up

"Lad..." Varka muttered again in an unconscious state

"Mama... Sorry. sorry Varka..."

With her eyes still closed, Varka cried, her voice actually implying that she was very hurt right now.

Helsha who saw it was immediately hugging Varka's body, no matter if she would later contract pain as well.

"Vark... Get up, it's Helsha... Vark..." Lirih Helsha

Varka sobbed in her sleep, the longer her sobbing sounded the louder. It was really painful for Helsha to see Varka like this

"Mama.sorry because Varka has to... Be present..."

"Varka loves you guys..."

"Varka wants to be hugged by you guys..."

Varka's cry was heard more and more, Helsha even came back crying. Helsha knew Varka must be dreaming so she tried to wake Varka up.

"MAMA... PAPA'S...." Shouted Varka suddenly

Varka woke up from her sleep screaming, her breath was cut off and again she cried again. But this time the crying was not too tight, Varka as much as possible held back her crying.

"Vark..." Call Helsha soft

Varka turned to Helsha who was sitting next to her with a very sad look

"Helsha. mommy is the same papa.. Sha..."

Helsha quickly hugged Varka's body

"Varka calm down?" Gentle Helsha speech

"Sha. here..."

Varka touched his left chest, then hit him softly a few times

"Here is sha, it hurts so much... It hurts" Varka said, hitting his chest

"Vark... You're sick don't mind much anymore, are you? Helsha, Mother and father are here for Varka. Varka's safe now, Varka won't be sick again, strong huh?"

Varka hugged Helsha tightly while trying to endure the pain that was now re-emerging into her chest.

While Helsha he tried his hardest not to cry, he tried to be strong. He must be strong for Varka.

"Lord.please let Varka be happy" inner Helsha.

Helsha just wanted Varka to be happy, it was enough that she always witnessed how hurt this human being was. Helsha just wants Varka to smile.

To the wind, please tell the universe to stop all Varka's suffering. Varka was too fragile to receive any more injuries.

To the clouds, please protect Varka. Varka is like the sun to Helsha, please don't let her cloudy back because her life journey is still far away. Please let it stay bright so that Varka can walk without rain and storm.

Please universe, just once listen to his groan...

Helsha let go of her embrace after Varka calmed down a little. He wiped away the man's tears, and Helsha did not want to see them come out again

"Calm down, there's Helsha. don't be afraid"

"Now Varka eat first yes, surely from yesterday has not eaten, right?" Helsha

"Sorry Varka Sha... Sorry Varka almost gave up"

"Not to think about it anymore. Now the important thing is that Varka is healthy first so that we can be together again, not a lot of thoughts yes"

"Thank you..." Varka

"Udah ah sad her. don't see the eyes of Helsha already swollen gini" joked Helsha.

Varka chuckles at it, yes Varka can see how the eyes are puffy and red Helsha. Surely this woman was crying to see her broken self.

"I'm sorry?" Varka

"Yes Helsha sorry, but if Varka kayak was again Helsha would be very angry..."

"Now eat first?" Said Helsha taking the plate on the nightstand

"Yes...." Helsha's words thrust a spoonful of rice at Varka

Varka with a feeling that had calmed down a bit immediately devoured the food. With her like this definitely makes Helsha sad and Varka does not like it, so Varka wants to recover soon so as not to make this woman sad again.

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"Inget yes, do not get caught" said Juna to someone who is now standing in front

"Good Mr. Juna"

"Make sure what happens and report it to me. Whatever the way I don't care what's important you get good results"

"Good sir"

"Then do it now!!"

"Okay sir, excuse me" said the man, bowing in salute before leaving.

Hopefully this way it can work, Juna thought