LANTERNS
deepest fear

under the orange sky, with a stretch of color to emasan, decorate the sepinya night. it was 01:00 pm, but the eyes of a woman never closed. with various positions to find the most appropriate dream port, but the results are the same. so that he sat alone on the balcony of the room by staring at the orange sky that is so beautiful will be colored from the moonlight which is soon covered in clouds.

contemplating with lament the fate that has been created by him, if the word is not an ambition of power and property, perhaps he enjoys the warm covered front of the person who fills the niche of the heart.

if there was a second chance, he would pawn everything and more follow his heart.What is the splendor if the heart feels empty and empty? wealth does not guarantee happiness.Possibly power can be bought and punishment can be damped with money but love and happiness cannot be bought with money.

he realized, for several years of life, the last time happiness filled his chest, in a gray-white age.

popularity and good looking, can not change everything if loved ones even fall into the arms of others.

by taking a cheek object on the table.

"El, can we meet? there's a few things I want to say about a few years ago.I know, I know, chameleon sorry I can no longer get from you but I'm not calm if I have to go slap tell me the reason I disappeared".

send, by taking a breath to calm his teeth that are now racing great.that much taste that is owned so that it makes his heart can not be silent for a second.

waiting an hour, not yet read. see the clock, it turns out that at 02:00 just deserved. people have been on to dreamland.

as soon as tomorrow when he woke up, there was already a reply waiting from the other person there.although it was actually impossible for that, but for the sake of misunderstanding, there was a misunderstanding, he needs to straighten out so that he no longer carries the burden in the course of his story. it turns out that loving is very troublesome.if the word must choose and the feeling can be in command, maybe he has to love a single man, maybe he has the ability to love a single man, because loving a married man is very troublesome.

can he be selfish? forcibly fetching his happiness without having to see the tears of others? if there was such a choice, then he was the first to do it. But unfortunately all came back again with the welcoming heart of the object to be made a very soft prey.

which makes him sad, his father somehow after handing over the company to him.he thought by accepting the offer and following the threat from the father, everything would be fine. but it turns out the silence and loneliness are increasingly felt. one by one people go from his life somewhere.

it was enough that he struggled spoiled with his mind, time to rest his heart and mind by taking medicine from the drawer and drinking it. After that, he closed his eyes, in order to unravel his deep regret.

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given the longing that is still in the bathroom makes his heart warm.with a quick movement to pull the stone blanket running towards the bathroom before the time left too long.

by pushing the small bathroom door so as not to hear the sound then walk Pelang towards his wife who masi khuyusuk clean his face. after arriving behind the longing who is now washing his face, with a slow movement, with a slow motion, El. wrapped his hands around his wife's waist. Longs who are used to getting sweet treatment like this, no wonder anymore.

"wudhu we used to worship".the seasoning longs for El who even lay his chin on the shoulders of the wife and then drown his face in the neck of Miss.

"gageng is very affectionate".he heard that, longing to hold his breath.His heart is still stiff to just physically touch with El. after what happened last night caused by an accidental meeting with El, to usher in a new misunderstanding. is there still a sense left in El's heart for his past? what is the expression of love and great attention so far is just a mere seremonia to keep imprisoning himself in a sacred bond?. Just think about it, make the heart longs again crowded.

"all night we sleep together, how can kangeng?". even though his heart is not fine, longing to try hard to suppress his feelings that want to explode. if there is a place to be alone for a while until the mystery of his worry is reached, then Miss will do it. Honestly, his heart is not fine.

"all night my wife sulked and her husband did not know what was wrong".in slow motion, El sniffed the neck of Miss. not about his touch but about his words.What do the words of El who without at all times it, unreasonably said wrong? and he's the one who's too sensitive?.

"don't be weird, we want to pray, the time is not much".by having to, El had to let go of his arms.he knew Longing was trying to avoid it because, because, he knew, he was trying to avoid it, he was always in service even though it was only for a moment but this heart, El could see the look of those eyes that were so sad

"but promise first, last night hubby's wife why would throw her own husband if only not whine come to sleep in the mama's room". his sulk spoiled by turning the direction of the wife's body.maybe with this, maybe with this, El can scrape a little fear of the wife's heart or know what exactly happened.

"yes, yes, but after praying yes". which was immediately nodded by El. either miss will say what Rey really is so that it makes her mood very ugly. if she is honest, she is not happy, does El not consider himself childish in speech alone? but if he is silent, he longs to be hurt even further because he is blind to the truth because of his egoh.

maybe at this time she will succumb, for the sake of obeying the wishes of her son who always wants to be close to her father.miss is also very tortured if far from her husband, not without reason, but this demands the child who is very comfortable with the scent of his father.although the content has stepped on 7 instead, but does not make nausea and dizziness disappear even though not as severe as pregnancy in the early days.

with gentle movements, longing to take the water of ablution and then follow El out to prepare to do worship. by taking the face and standing behind the husband.

"it is ready dear".heard and saw the face of the husband with his oversized clothes, making his heart suddenly feel guilty.What is a person like El, worth suspecting?.

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