LET ME BE HAPPY
chapter 20

"Devin!" exclaim Adinda from the doorway.

Devin looked towards the door. Devin looked at Adinda and Candra who were standing behind him. Devin clenched both of his hands beside his body. He tried to suppress his anger so as not to come to the surface. Devin did not want his anger to trigger a dispute and cause a commotion.

Adinda walked towards where Devin was. Adinda did not think Devin would come to pick her up, because Devin had previously told her that he could not pick her up to go home together.

Adinda grabbed Devin's hand that was still clenched beside her body. Then Adinda kissed the back of the husband's hand in reverence. Adinda knows that Devin is holding back her anger.

"When is Dev coming?" ask Adinda.

"Let's go home!" bring Devin.

Devin did not answer the question that Adinda asked. Devin clasped Adinda's hand and led her out. Devin threw a sharp glare at Candra as she passed by.

"Lake in!" tell Devin when he gets to the side of the car.

Devin opens the car door and tells Adinda to go inside immediately. Adinda was just silent, she did not want to further ignite Devin's emotions if he spoke up.

Devin walked around and opened the car door for himself. He sits himself in the steering chair. Slowly the car drove across the highway.

"Didn't I tell you that I don't like you being close to other men. Moreover, that person is Candra." Devin gripped the steering wheel firmly to vent his anger.

"I'm the same Candra just friends Dev, nothing more." Adinda carelessly faces Devin's increasingly possessive attitude.

Devin glanced towards Adinda who was facing the window. His breathing went up and down because his emotions were still in the crown. He didn't understand why it was this angry. Devin just wasn't willing to see Adinda with another man.

"Was it appropriate for a wife to go alone with another man without her husband's knowledge?" ask Devin. The net is straight facing the road filled with vehicles that are densely crawling.

She turned to look at Devin who was driving. Adinda is indeed a wife who is required to obey the orders of the husband. However, their marriage was an exception. So what for the paper with batteries that have been signed by them consciously if finally one of the parties must be restrained.

"If a wife does not deserve to do that, then what about a husband who still has a special relationship with other women? Is something like that allowed?" ask back Adinda.

"That's different Din. You will know for yourself that Liona was my lover from the beginning and you also know that I love her so much, while the man blatantly hit the war drums on me. I don't like it if mine gets harassed by someone else." Devin hit the steering wheel firmly.

"Does that mean you're jealous of Dev?" ask Adinda to make sure.

"What am I jealous of. Remember Din! Our relationship is only on paper!" devin said. He avoids being said to be jealous.

"I remember Dev. Even remembered it very much. We must not interfere in each other's personal affairs. You are the one who forgot that. Are not the points of the covenant that you made. Why are you breaking it now. You're a totally selfish Dev!" Adinda took a long breath. Adinda felt Devin's excessive attitude like this was unfair to her.

"Aackhh!" Devin scooped his face rough.

Adinda blinked her eyes which now looked teary. It really hurts to hear directly the person we love never wants our presence on his side. There is no more conversation. They both chose silence. I just heard the music playing.

(Who knows this song, we sing along with yes. Let's not be too tense, and the author again wants nostalgia, hehe. Clear Pain by SOUQY, yuk cekidot.)

Why do I keep dreaming of you?

Why am I crying for you?

Why do I always get hurt?

Why do I wish for you?

You obviously don't think about me.

Obviously you never thought I existed.

This may be the path of my destiny

Oh, maybe, this is the best for me.

But I have no power to keep doing this.

I can't afford it.

I really can't afford it.

Why do I keep dreaming of you?

Why am I crying for you?

Why do I always get hurt?

Why do I wish for you?

You obviously don't think about me.

Obviously you never thought I existed.

Adinda could not resist the puddles of tears that were jostling to come out. A drop of clear grain slowly flowed from the corner of the net. Quickly Adinda wiped the tears that now flowed on both cheeks. He didn't want Devin to know he was crying.

"Oh my God, why does this hurt? Can't I just be given one chance to be happy with the person I love?"

"Then, my relationship with Candra ran aground due to misunderstandings and now my marriage relationship with Devin is just a relationship on paper."

"I was wrong to be too confident considering the attention Devin showed was an affection. Because in fact it's nothing more than camouflage."

"O Lord, can you bring things back to how they were? If I knew this would be the end, I would never dare to fall in love."

"Why the Goddess of Love actually chose him as the person I love, if in the end he was the one who had the most chance to incise a wound at the bottom of the heart."

"I am neither God nor God. I'm just an ordinary man who only has love but always ends up hurt."

"I could not if I had to be a Qais who was willing to survive in the jungle for the sake of his love for Laila. Because I only have a sincere love for her."

"However, if loving her is a mistake, let me go. Because I can't stand if I have to last too long in a relationship without certainty," the inner Adinda sobbed bitterly.