Let Me Go
The Suffering That Should Be Deterred

    "Ma, mama's thinking about amira?" asked Aura, who had just come home from her friend's birthday party.

  "How can you not think about her situation Ra, so mom divorced her dad, she was always lonely, you ignored her, you thought she wasn't there, you didn't care what she did,mama's a bad old man Aura." The woman came back crying, Aura knew her mother was very sad, and the guilt still enveloped her.

   "Amira is a good boy, he must have forgiven mama, he will not hold grudges ma, only at this time he is losing some of his memory." Aura tried to calm her mother.

Ms. Diandra now looks thinner, her weight drops dramatically, she thinks too much about Amira's situation, the guilt remains, as long as Amira has not said that she has forgiven her mother.

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     Amira stared fixedly at the face of the man who was now sleeping beside her, the man who was none other than Rangga, she had been sleeping since, but Amira still could not close her eyes.

The girl began to feel something strange during these few days with Rangga's attitude, Rangga is not like a husband in general, he is like limiting himself to her.

   "Maybe it's because of my circumstances like this" he said. She tried not to be so bad at the guy, Amira moved her hand, her fingers began to gently caress Rangga's face, "Is he really my husband?" the question suddenly crossed his mind.

  "What are you doing?" Rangga was shocked, and brushed off Amira's hand violently. Amira was also surprised because Rangga suddenly woke up.

  "Sorry." Only that word can Amira said right, Rangga then went back to sleep on his back. "Don't touch me when I'm asleep, I'm not comfortable you wake me up, when I'm so tired today." Rangga.

  Amira did not answer anything, she immediately closed her eyes not wanting to think that no longer.

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    When she opened her eyes, Amira saw that Rangga was no longer there beside her, usually she always woke Amira, told her to justify her tie, and chose her clothes suitable for use to go to work. But lately Rangga seemed to change a little, perhaps because he was too busy.

    "Rangga left very early this morning" said oma, while Amira was having breakfast with him.

   "Maybe lately he's been very busy oma."

   "Maybe" replied oma at a glance. "You look pale today, are you sick?" oma asked, when she saw Amira's face that was like a sick person.

  "Lack of feeling good, today Amira wants to go out for a while,oma Temanin huh?" pinta Amira, she was very tired of being at home constantly, Rangga also never took her out of the house, had almost a month he was confined in the house, and it felt very boring.

  "Yes oma temanin, but she said she was not feeling well, how the hell?"

Amira did not answer immediately she just smiled. "Oma will know for yourself that often at home can indeed make the body unhealthy, for example like Mira ni, limp body, pale face." Amira.

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   Amira and oma seemed to be too focused on choosing clothes in the fairly famous boutique, so they did not realize that there was a pair of eyes that kept paying attention to them since then,a man and that man is his own father.

Mr. Aryo was eager to get close to Amira, but he already knew his current condition, because a few days ago he came to Pak Andi's house, Bu Diandra told him everything that happened to his ex-husband, and he was very happy,including that Amira remembered only Rangga as her husband, that is why she lived in Rangga's house, even though they were not married at all.

   "You just bought this shirt, Mira?" asked ifa, when he saw the clothes Amira took only one, and even the cheapest in the boutique, the price was only seven hundred thousand, he could not bear to spend Rangga's money just for his pleasure.

Although Rangga has given a credit card to Amira, and he also said that Amira can buy whatever she likes with the credit card.

"The clothes here are all expensive oma, the cash is Rangga if only used to buy clothes for me," he answered honestly. "If she were really my daughter-in-law, I would be so happy." Said the oma in his heart, he loved Amira sincerely, not theatrical, because according to the oma of women like Amira today is very difficult to find.

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    Tonight Rangga came home a bit late, usually at five in the afternoon he was already at home. But this, it's nine o'clock he still hasn't come home too, too,so Amira can only sit in her room alone, she did not even go out to just chat with oma, because oma was not at home, the next morning oma went to her friend's house,maybe will stay there for a few days, because the husband of his friend oma just died, and he went there to accompany his friend, at least with the presence of oma can slightly reduce the sadness of his friend.

    Amira was completely unable to wait for Rangga to come home, she wanted to hurry to the bathroom. "It's on the edge" she said, "I can't take it anymore."

   He pulled out his wheelchair, and tried to sit there, but he fell out of bed.

"akhh!" Amira screamed in pain, her legs were immovable, she almost cried at that moment, she was upset by her circumstances, but this was fate for her, so she should be able to accept it with sincerity.

  With great difficulty Amira drags her body to get to the bathroom, turns out to be a handicapped person is difficult, maybe this is also what makes Rangga lazy to go home quickly, he said,because Rangga is tired of having to carry him when he wants to go to the bathroom, what else if at midnight fit again kebeletnya, he also has to wake up Rangga.

   Amira locked the door to her bathroom, and then wept there, and at home there was still bi Lastri, but she could not bear to call the old woman,he didn't want to interrupt his break time bi Lastri.

Amira did not want to trouble many people because of her current self that could not walk.

   "I'm sorry Rangga, I've wasted your time taking care of a disabled wife like me." Lirih Amira, she did not want to hold back her crying, just let her cry alone there, rather than having to cry in front of Rangga.

   "Amira...!" someone called him and it was Rangga's voice, he had apparently gone home.