Like a Former Nail
Episodes 7.2
During her pregnancy, Gebri always tried to meet her needs alone, both from fulfilling the baby's wishes to activities such as going to the obstetrician. As much as possible he did not want to trouble his mother, let alone the relationship with Rasti getting worse. They rarely speak unless necessary. Some families on the part of the late father and his mother began to have no respect anymore. The neighbors also began to scorn and scold now. Not only was he the target, Rasti and Galang were also affected by his disgrace.
Just passing through this guard post then turn a little, Gebri will find a man in his 50s who is peddling his fruit. Mr. Mamat– his nickname–it is often in the area there. In addition to its location is a flow of round-trip school children, he said that his house is close to the place of the base.
“Trapped one serving Pak.”
“Complite Neng?”
Gebri loosened his head into the wagon, looking at the neatly arranged pile of fruits.” Don't use pineapple and grow mangoes, sir. Cayenne pepper two only.”
“Oke Neng,” nod Mr. Mamat, then slightly shift the long wooden chair towards Gebri. “Please sit down, Neng. Pity to stand still especially if you are pregnant like that.”
“Thank you, Sir,” said Gebri who immediately took a seat, right next to Mr. Mamat who started cutting some guava.
It did not take long, Gebri's order was already completed according to his request. He was impatient to go home, sit behind the house and devour the fruit that looks very tempting. After paying and making small talk, Gebri hurriedly stepped up. But the frequency of his footsteps slowed down slightly when he saw three girls in gray-white uniforms pass by him. They seem to be conversing enthusiastically, talking about the latest novels or teen movies are booming right now.
Suppose... A lot of words if it keeps spinning in Gebri's mind. But all words if they were no longer useful. Regret always comes behind her. Time cannot compromise to go back in time. And about Rion? How's that guy doing? He hadn't listened to her for a long time. From posts on Facebook, Gebri learned that the eagle-eyed man continued his High School in Singapore. If only... yes, if if Rion wanted to account for the consequences of that day, what story between them is still like this? Gebri quickly shook his head. No. gabe. No. gabe. There was no need to think of the man with words if ever again. They already have their own paths and their chances of meeting each other are very small.
Gebri returned to his feet in a hurry, wanting to get home immediately, and after that he remembered nothing but when he tried to pull over because there was a motorbike that drove very fast, and after that he remembered nothing but when he tried to pull over, but his body was suddenly out of balance, slipping and finally falling with a bang that caused unbearable pain, then his gaze began to darken.
When he opened his eyes again, Gebri was already in a white room with a quite pungent smell of drugs. Mother who was sitting next to the bed put on a worried look, implied also softness that had long been invisible. Gebri tried to get up and Rasti immediately helped, Rasti set the position of the bed with a rotary crank that can adjust the position up and down the panel, so that Gebri can lean comfortably. Kontan Rasti's actions make Gebri's chest warm, it's been a long time he did not get such little attention, maybe since Rasti said to hide the fact about the father of his son.
“My baby?” Gebri just realized that his stomach is no longer bulging like a woman who is seven months pregnant. “Where is my baby, Bun?”
“Mother will call doctor.”
It was the only answer that came out of Rasti's mouth before it went out. A few minutes later, she returned with a woman in a white suit and a stethoscope around her neck.
“How are you doing? Is anyone sick?”
Gebri turned his eyes to the left suit, revealing a nametag that read dr. Bayun Matsaany, Sp.OG before shaking his head. “No, Doc.”
“If your condition improves, in a few days you can go home soon.”
“Thank you, Doc,” reply Gebri who then glanced towards his mother for a while before looking back at the doctor Bayun. “How about my baby, Doc? Is she okay, Doc?”
Doctor Bayun was silent for a moment. “We are so sorry. We can't save your baby. The possibility of the accident causes you to experience premature rupture of the membranes and when taken to the hospital, your amniotic fluid has disappeared so that the umbilical cord is sandwiched between the baby and the uterine wall which results in death in the baby,” said doctor Bayun while stroking Gebri's shoulders whose body has been tightened with teary eyes. “In addition, your age too young to conceive becomes another factor causing the death of your baby,” he added and now Gebri is crying sobbing with a vibrating body.
Almost a week in the hospital, Gebri spent crying and lamenting his actions by looking at a photo of a baby boy who had been immortalized Galang. The words should come back, even though he knew they would change nothing. It all happened and cannot be changed anymore. Rice has become porridge.
^_^
Koning was unable to hold back her tears. The clear thread flowed without being ruled. If he had a condition like Gebri's, he might have ended his life by suicide. It is fitting that the eyes never sparkle, always showing deep pain. It turns out that Gebri bears such a heavy burden for the girl who should enjoy her youth. Back Koning's arms embrace Gebri's body still crying sobbing, once her hands gently rubbed on the long haired girl's severed shoulders.
“This is all my fault. I should've...”
“Syuuut... It's not all your fault. This is God's destiny,” said Koning who again rubbed Gebri's shoulders.
“But if I...”.
“This is fate. No one is to blame.”
“But if I...”.
Slowly the sound of stuffing began to subside. The melt in Gebri's eyes wasn't as hard as it was. Koning's words were enough to give strength, feeling so supported. Maybe it is true what Koning said before, telling a story with someone can relieve the heart and mind. Especially since that incident, he had no close friends. There is no place to complain. No one can give you a tranquilizing word.
“Geb, does...“ Koning seemed hesitant to continue. Afraid that the question that was thrown from his mouth later will shed more tears and cause Gebri's eyes to swell reddish. “Not so, Geb. I suddenly forgot what to ask,” added Koning quickly when he realized that now was not the right time.
“Do you want to ask, did Rion find out about the death of your baby?” gebri suddenly.
Koning did not nod or shake. His mouth was not open, not a word came out. But Koning's silence was enough of an answer.
Gebri slightly rubbed his eyes before saying. “No. Neither Rion nor his family knew of my son's death.”
“Have you still not forgiven Brother Rion, Geb?”
“I've forgiven since five years ago.” Gebri took a short breath, then exhaled slowly. “But the former disappointment is still there, like nail marks. Although the nail hole was later covered by a frame or chalk wall, even re-painted until it looks impregnable, but actually the former hole is still there. No matter how small the nail will still leave marks on the wall.”
“Sok is so poetic you, Geb!” koning said with a small chuckle.
“Eh, you even mocked me.” Gebri slightly hit Koning's arm softly. Feeling a little irritated, he was being serious. But a moment later, Gebri grabbed onto Koning's shoulder. “Thank you, Kon. You've been my helper and entertainer for a month.”
“That is the point of a friend,” reply Koning who joined to embrace Gebri's shoulder. “And with your Mother, is your relationship still like five years ago?” Koning felt that he needed to question this. Suddenly he remembered his grandmother's message again.
“I'm confused how to fix it. But I really don't want this bad relationship to continue. Just him and the Galang family that I have now.”
Koning was silent for a moment. Was thinking. “Did your mother know you've met Rion?”
Gebri quickly shook his head.
“In my opinion, your mother should know about your meeting with Rion and her family. You can start talking to him using that topic.”
Gebri slightly scrunched his forehead. Seemed unsure of the solution Koning provided. The discussion that the scalloped girl offered was too sensitive. Moreover, he and his mother had not spoken four eyes for a long time. But there's no harm in trying, right? Maybe when he comes home to Solo later, he will try his advice.
“Then...” Actually Koning did not want to ask this, a look of hesitation on his face. It's just that he needs to know. “Then do you still like men?”
“You mean I'm a lesbian?” gebri said with both beads enlarged before a loud voice sounded.
“I just asked Geb, I'm afraid you're traumatized against men. Kan, in movies like that!” said Koning while scratching his head that does not itch.
Gebri again laughed loudly and loudly, then said, ”There are you, Kon. I did have a bad experience with a man, but I wasn't traumatized or anything. I'm just disappointed, a deep disappointment to Rion and his family.”
“So when another man asks you out, you will receive it?”
“For now, I don't want to have any relationship just yet. I want to focus on college and make my family happy. But if the next five years anyone wants to invite dating or marriage, maybe I will try to accept it as long as he also wants to accept my past,” said Gebri while laying his body into bed.
“Means Kak Kharisma no chance, dong!”
“Kak Kharisma?”
Koning also laid her body down, and then looked at the ceiling. “Do not pretend not to know, Geb! His attention has always shown his feelings.”
“Right now I just want to focus on college and fast graduation,” Gebri reply, only that answer can be given.