Love -ing You
Wasted

As the withered flowers fade, the beautiful golden color that used to be in puja increasingly fell to the ground.

Eve drizzle invites fog, increasingly making flowers bloated. When the petals fell, the flowers became trash.

I don't want to be that flower, just let me be thatch. Strong though not as strong as the smell. In the span of time that God promised, I asked for my time in the trim only. Get me home soon, let my flowers not be street trash. Let me sleep for a very long time, let my flowers not grow.

Seoul 20 May 20***

National music awards night that is always held with great fanfare. Beautiful lights highlight every move of our dance. No matter what my condition is. All they saw was our fake smile expanding. Even so I was always happy. In dancing and singing I always felt soaring in space. It's just that those were the last moments I was able to perform on a stage like this. Right after this event was over all that beauty also ended up in my life. The cheers of the audience sounded very melodious, the flickering of a light stick like a dazzling sea of silver. This is the last part of my career and my life.

Our group won the trophy for the third time. I should be happy, but they don't want me in that happiness. They want me to go as far as possible, disappear and not come back.

Two days before the awards night. A news appeared and made a scene in the media. The news was about me being accused of being a bully in high school. Of course all the news is wrong. But it was too late for the news to spread like a virus, destroying everything.

I know who the mastermind is, he can be called my brother. He always wanted me to fall and be broken. Maybe in a place I didn't know she was smiling, celebrating her success had pushed me down.

"The news is getting hotter. Why do other group members post the photo as if justifying what happened. Lie sir do something"

These are difficult times for the boss as well. His agency is on the verge of collapse. Highlight his eyes sharp he was not playing angry at the behavior of other group members who seemed to think of nothing. All they want is to throw me away.

"I'm going to get out of the group obviously they don't want me "

"Hana, I'm sorry to involve you in such a messed up group. I should've agreed to it you had a solo career "

"Everything has happened. The only way to get everything back to normal is to sacrifice me, Mr. Lie"

"This agency can go forward starting when you come Hana, I will teach the girls who do not know thank you"

The leader has always been good to me, he has always been better to me than any other member. Maybe that's what makes them hate. After the discussion ended I informed the members about the decision. No one is sad about it, they don't even care about me.

"I'll stop so please stop doing this "

After hearing that they without a word left me in the training room. I heard them laughing outside the room. They don't think about my heart one bit.

And everything was really over, I dragged the suitcase out of the dormitory there was our group manager Jimi who helped and accompanied me. He seemed to cry out for pitying me.

"Don't cry for me anymore, it's enough Jim everything will go back to normal "

"Why they're so mean to you, I'm gonna stop being their manager and keep it next to you "

At that moment I could only smile hearing Jim sympathize. I know he's a good guy maybe he's all I have right now. Neither did my family care, they seemed happy to see my career over, that's what they wanted. After finishing with all the stuff in the dorm, the boss asked me to come to the agency there were some contract cancellation files that I had to sign immediately. To be honest my hands trembled as I signed the document. The thing that I pursued with great difficulty had to end in injustice. I was like a withered flower, all my essence had been sucked up and now it was just rubbish.

"Hana sorry I have a meeting with the leader, you can go home alone right, I've ordered a taxi "

"Don't worry Jim I'm a big one "

From a distance Jim still occasionally turned to look at me, he did not have to worry until it was like that. The taxi Jim ordered didn't come soon. And that's when things I didn't want to happen, those who are now former members of my group seem to be walking closer, I don't want to deal with them anymore. But what made me lose focus was one of them, a man I knew very well. He's my best friend since High School, when they look Hyun's eyes are clearly different he's not the person I used to know. What happened, what my former group member told him. I saw Hyun's hateful eyes.

** **

A few days after I officially left the group and agency. I thought things were going back to normal but it wasn't, Yerim my evil half-brother seemed to be enjoying the stage he was making. With a face that looked sad he appeared on various television shows telling the story of his essay about me. Obviously, it's all lies

BYURR !!

"Feel, it should be that someone like you disappears from this world !!"

I intend to pick up some items in the agency locker that are still left behind. When a horde of unknown people threw me eggs and black liquid that I don't know what it was. I fell in the parking lot of that building withstanding all the pain they were throwing. Until I heard footsteps running up to me. Still with my head down I began to cry, the pain of their insults was what caused the pain in my heart.

"You okay?, what are you guys doing get out of here !!"

He protected me by hugging my body which was clearly dirty at that moment. I don't know who he is, all I know is his typical weight sura and the handkerchief he gives. After that the security guards started to arrive with Jim's manager and arrested the crowd .

"Everything will be beautiful in the end, all you have to do is hold on a little longer "

The words of the man I still remember until now, if that day he did not help maybe I will not survive this far .